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@JosephKnecht Most people havent mastered meditation to the point of hours of studying or hours of meditating. Is another reason to do meditation more but plenty of folks don't apply here.

@Leo Gura I'm not much of foodie nor give much thought power to food just eat to live healthy nearly always. Sex im not getting any busy with survival would be bad partner. Travel isn't happening. Entertainment yes to fill the time I do that with books/articles and video games. Somethings have 0 resistance to while getting skills often do it's like oh great my parents put me here now I have to struggle nonstop. It's like I struggle to get addicted to life by the way society is designed I have to keep grinding but instead id rather not.

There's many types of yogas and organizations and I'm in the process of investigating them all out but curious what are your thoughts thank you :).

I like yoga and meditation a lot but could use more balance but I struggle to enjoy studying for school and researching and interviewing and trying out over and over new fields to see which is the one for me. How do I actually enjoy this?

@GreenWoods Shaktipat seems like superstition and or just full on placebo effect. I'll try it potentially one day. I looked up Santata Gamana unsure why I should trust their authority. They don't run a organization or have photos of them online could be just one of those authors that writes books lots of people want to read but doesn't have own experience or no original content is in there to make that specific author valuable opposed to others.

Should I sign up for the Self Realization Fellowship? You pay like $90 an they give lessons they have bunch of books. If not SRF curious which living tradition could probably find in a major city in California which helps with raising Kundalini fastest. I had it raised temporarily for 3 months after ayahuasca but it went back down. Thank you.

@IJB063 I feel like one cause life seems to have so much pressure/hoops to hop through and idk how to deal with that.

@Osaid Me. But I enjoy lazying around.

Besides desire.

@The observer Have not much else to do in my home so doesn't seem reasonable at the moment.

I'm done watching porn its disgusting me at this point. I read a bit but what else is there. I'm a bit tired of studying and the usual games I'd play online aren't doing it for me.

I'm ready for mystic Matilda. Any movies you look back an think wow, sublte signs of high consciousness?

Enough playing! I'm done with the buzzfeed quizzes.

Purple and blue are group oriented and very reserved. Us vs them is massive.

What am I currently struggling with in life?