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If you are an average guy, your best weapon is an authentic smile and happiness. For girls looks are less important. They look at your genetic healthiness (which your looks give away) and your attitude.

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You don't even want to know. ? But I don't take modafinol anymore. It messes up my sleeping routine. That can't be healthy.

You can't really fill yourself up with love in the same way you fill up your car with gas. To receive you need to remove the obstacles. It is actually with everything you want to achieve. If you really want something you remove the obstacles and it will find you.

How did therapy help you with procrastination? I think most people are ashamed by their procrastination and don't talk about it. Sharing and making other people a witness of your procrastination is key I think.

Nothing good about a great horse if the rider isn't great. Just work out, eat healthy and have a great attitude. And pick an experienced stallion with a great penis.

Food is the best way to learn about culture. It is hands-on.

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What do you usually say?

As far as I understand: you have to experience no self. Just telling yourself to accept it is like telling someone to accept Jupiter has 20 moons while being here on earth. It is just data with no experience.

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This. And also, eats loads of beef steak and healthy fiber. Usually vegans and people with bad diet is the cause of ED but exercise is as much important for blood flow.

@Moon There is this porn site where they abuse girls and the production is so aware of the mental needs of the girls (daddy or mommy issues) that is becomes some kind of therapy. It is kind of messed up but childhood situations of abuse get simulated. And the pornstars are just acting out unresolved things in a messed up way. The pornstars are aware of what kind of messed up porn site it is but they still audition for it. These people are just acting out.

There are also some nymphs that do it to "feel alive". Those people unconsciously reproduce childhood situations to fix something but it never gets fixed. Females can go into prostitution to fulfill a mental desire. It is not only money for some.

Sometimes I'm reading something and I noticed that I didn't pick anything up. I thought this could be a concentration problem but it could also be a not being present problem. I usually visualize what is being said and then it usually clicks better but this technique is not full proof.

Tinder crushed my ego.

This I really like light brunettes.

Yesterday I was in the park, just for a walk. There were some girls, and one stood up when she saw me and started swirling around like that guy in my avatar (swirling derwisj). She was joyful, happy, giggling and swirled in my direction on purpose. When I stepped aside (instead towards her direction), she swirled away. It was almost like she was probing my reaction. I was so baffled that I didn't know what to say or what to do. I looked at her friends and they made a joke that she took XTC but it was an obvious joke. At that moment I was contemplating about fear and letting go of fear. It was like she swirling towards me, probing me if I was afraid, was a test. I was obviously confused and fearful and she swirled away. The whole situation was almost like a metaphor for fear/love in the grand scheme of things; - the girl representing love, playfulness, joy, happiness and fun - those vibes swirling into my direction - me being caught off guard because me being stuck in my contemplation - feeling afraid so acting afraid, not acting, being stiffled - she swirling off

You need a mentor and finding a good one is hard. And why would they help you? You need to develop some skills that are useful. You can go lone wolf too but the chances that you are going belly up will be higher.

@Leo Gura I don't know too much about alt right but I know it is centred around white nationalism. If alt right got their way, their victims such as minorities and feminists would be excluded from the community, and the tragi-comical result is that it happened to the alt right itself. In my opinion, just letting them be (instead of banning) would be a greater punishment, all of these channels like Alex Jones, Stefan Molyneux and others were losing viewers, and they had to resort to more and more extreme things to hold onto a shrinking audience. Now they got victimhood status, while before the ban they were just a slowly dying light. I have been following Stefan Molyneux to see how he would end up. This guy was becoming more and more desperate, at one point just breaking down and admitting he didn't know what to produce to keep an audience. It would have been interesting to see how he broke down further.

The tragicomical part is that it didn't enhance their survival. A lot of the alt wingers got deplatformed. Big time alt wingers such as Milo are set for life. They made enough profit from books and invitations. Small time alt wingers ruined their moderate minded fan base. Stained their name and became radicalized. It won't be easy to find a normal job after taken huge dumps on minorities and feminists.

I think a lot of alt right people modelled themselves after Milo Yiannopoulos. Roosh and such are small time influencers. They saw how Milo made a big name for himself by insulting people or at least saying things with shock value. Milo got invited everywhere and made a lot of money. There were a lot of people who thought they could do the same thing. Cost benefit calculation plays a role too.

@Butters I don't take more than half. I'm sensitive to the substance. Probably because I take it rarely.

Going to the gym on modafinil is crazy too. It gives you crazy amount of stamina and strength. It is almost unnatural.

Currently my "pain point" is that I'm mostly unconscious during the day. Just staying present the whole day, with everything I do is so hard and underrated. I really need to do some multi day retreat because doing small to medium time meditations and mindfulness during the day is not cutting it. I'm so engrossed in my thoughts and emotions. Also had some insights that my problems really stem from not being able to let go. There are some aspects of myself that I need to let go. I have some important stuff to do and then I will go into the lion's hole.