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@Roy I know what you mean. Usually it ends in a train rack. I"m just trying to learn some lessons to understand female life forms. If you act too kind you are not good, if you are too mean you are not good too. Wtf do they want? @Preety_India How can I describe her then? I try to not judge her past (because she is highly educated and kind) which is not easy for me. I can admit that. @JosephKnecht We have a complicated relationship with pretty Preety. Don't let me get started about it, broer.

@Opo thanks

So I'm 31 old guy so I don't have a biological clock in terms of fertility but I do feel the clock ticking. I feel like I'm in that Goldy locks area where I can still find a young woman around 21-28 year old who hasn't slept around too much, preferably no marriage behind her, and definitely no kids. Finding a life partner is definitely not about the specs but I feel these are relatively acceptable expectations. I recently stopped being a moderate incel and talking to girls and stuff. This made me think about my dating strategy. It will definitely feel ok dating loose women but I don't really want to end up with one of those. The thing I really want to say is that I don't want to waste my time and that means: 1. take more action to meet new people/not be idle 2. invest my time and energy correctly. Do you guys think I have a tainted view on dating? I want to settle down before 35 so I could still get a 25 something girl to settle down with. Since Corona I have this hurry that I really don't know how to deal with. It feels like life is slipping out of my hands. I'm doing a lot of sports and eat healthy so I look very young for my age when I look in the mirror but I feel old inside. I feel like setting weekly challenges like "do 10 approaches this week" or something similar to this so it is measurable and I don't do a lot of empty brainstorming without taking any action. It is very easy to slip into desperation and it is really not based on anything; I'm tall, average looking, there are some girls who are interested, and somewhat intellectually developed. It kind of reminded me of the buddhist who say look within what you are looking outside of yourself; but how do I even do that? I tried shadow work and that helped but subconscious is not easily convinced.

This thread is about my porn addiction so this is a little warning if you are easily triggered. For a long time I was an incel. I didn't have any girlfriends because I expected girls to approach me (yes, I know how spoiled that sounds as a guy but it was my upbringing). And I was a heavy masturbator. I got everything from porn so why would I put effort into talking to girls and trying to know them. Intellectually I knew I was just wasting my youth doing this. There were girls interested in me but I was just not open and didn't know how to chitchat/connect to them. I read tons of books on addictions (to stop my porn addiction) and nothing worked, until I came across David Hawkins stuff and that brought a change within me. Addictions had less control over me. I started feeling like a man again. I mean, masturbating does deplete you. Stopping with porn made me fill up with man juice, literally and figuratively. The size of your testicles determines how much you produce man juice. I produce a lot of it and I didn't know what to do with this energy. I started hitting the gym everyday but that wasn't enough. This male energy eventually pushed me to do day approach. It was scary but when I finally completed my first set of approaches I felt courageous. I felt a different person and this new energy radiated to different parts of my life. Eventually I met a girl, she was cute, smart and all that.. but promiscuous. I'm holding off meeting with her because I want to finish my 90 day no fap challenge but this girl doesn't sit still. She fucks around. She can do what she wants so I don't judge her but it caused a crises within me. These feelings of jealousy, anger and range were unfamiliar with me. I quickly realized that I shouldn't project these emotions onto her or the world but use these emotions to power my self development. This is the part where I want to ask advice. Where should I put my energy towards? I mean meditation is a staple so I'm doing that nonetheless. I'm also working on my life purpose which is becoming an IT consultant. This is what happened: I wanted to use her as a rebound chick as an incel > I caught feelings for her > and now I'm stuck with these nasty feelings. I'm writing about them and trying to understand them. I know what I have to do: keep her as a side hussle and look for a "respectable" girl but these feelings kind of overpowered me. Accepting her as a friends with benefits partner is the easy part. I just want to learn from this relationship this time because I don't want to repeat it. It is not the first time this happened to me.

@Javfly33 I thought about that this week actually. It is great that you say the same thing I thought. I'm doing meditation and Joe Dispenza style of praying. I hope it will work out. I don't want to be embarrassed or let this girl slip out of my hands.

@Javfly33 ED can be caused because of many reasons. I think my situation is as follows: I just trained by brain to have sex with a lcd screen. By the way I'm super fit, I'm going to the gym 5 times a week now, and I feel the masculine energy radiating from my groin area. The problem is the ignition which is in the brain. There is only one way out: no-fap for 90 days to rewire the brain and sproud new dopamine receptors. Problem is that she won't be hanging around for 90 days. This girl has a big sex drive.

Have plan B too. I recommend you write a business plan for yourself with yearly goals. If this website idea catches on, there will be competitors popping up like mushrooms.

After death you get truth, according to my grand parents.

@Javfly33 yea of course, I started reading "Letting go" (it taught me the letting go technique and the hierarchy of consciousness) and power versus force (basically letting go of resistance). I coupled what I learnt with shadow work to reprogram my sub conscious mind. Sad thing is that me stopping porn has put me in a flat line. I have basically ED right now because I bombarded my dopamine receptors with porn during corona. She wants me to fuck her but I can't. I don't want to invite her and get embarrassed. Fuck this shit. It is all my own doing but I can't help but to be a little bit angry towards myself.

@JosephKnecht I love stories. They are easy to remember. I wish I could fish with a net. I don't have the social circle and there is corona. I just have to do a lot of approaches and stay open minded because I do get desperate from time to time. @Javfly33 today I went to the gym. I work from home. There was no opportunity to meet new girls. I'm looking around. I never see guys approach girls on the street. How the fjck is everybody meeting girls? By the way I did chitchat to some people at the gym and made a friend. I tried to talk to a girl too but she didn't seem to be interested.

It is a great product for introverts and people who want to prop up their "charisma": https://www.charismaoncommand.com/ I really loved this product because they give action steps/exercises after every module. The modules range from confidence, to storytelling, to presence, to comedy and much more. Charlie who is the maker of this program connects these different subskills wonderfully. His advice can be very simplistic but it works amazingly. You just have to take action and not rush through the program. Yesterday I got into conversations with a bunch of people and I was wondering like "how the fuck did that happen?". And it happened so consistently that I felt that change in myself. Personally I don't know any other program that is better. This program really gives the person an overall view on interpersonal skills. I'm going to use this program as a framework for my further research.

Thanks, preety.

@Keyhole interesting username; why did you chose it?

That is what she said.

Have you talked this with your partner? You need somebody to share your described experience with. If you are not comfortable sharing this information with your partner, you may want to focus on that. I´m having similar problems and what I really try to do is being an `open box`instead of a `closed box`. Closing yourself because of your feelings just retards one´s development. Relationships expose who you really are.

What struck me the most was that those antifa guys attacked the kid with skate boards or whatever they could find to smash at him or throw at him. The dude just killed two people just minutes before. What did people expect he would do? I guess it is the mob mentality that blinded them. Personally I wouldn't engage or chase an armed dude, if I had no other choice, go for the kill and not hit him over the head with a skateboard.

It was one of the best movies I saw. It is very metaphorical. What do you guys think the movie is about?

Probably because of the warm climate of lately. Is it still usable?

It was more than 10 years ago that I saw him. He was a head taller than me and bulkier so he would pull me up and stuff. Basically take advantage of me because he was taller and bulkier. Today I came across him in the gym and it seems the roles reserved. I was tall and muscular and he was fat and feminine. He couldn't even look me in the eye after he greeted me, because I couldn't recognize him. We had some polite chitchat and I noticed anger boiling up midway the conversation. I reacted to the emotion by telling him "you know, now I'm equally tall" and looked him dead in the eye. He got the sub-communication. It was in the locker-room so I could easily beat him up but I didn't. Doing that would make me no better than him. I was beyond that point anyway. His sub-communication of not being able to look me in the eyes, acting afraid, insecure, to me told me chapters about his life. He looked like that incel-meme on the internet. I threw out some questions to get a taste how his life looked like. He has no job. No girlfriend. He is unhappy and things won't change for him any time soon. I was kind of flabbergasted how much I changed compared to 10 years ago when comparing him to myself. Anyway, personally I don't think there are a coincidence, recently I managed to get my first "real" girlfriend. Something I wanted all my life but which I couldn't get.

You can live in the best location for meeting a partner but you can still not meet anybody. Something to think about.

@Applegarden true but I also know some bullies from highschool (from back in the day) that are doing really well and are in a much better position than me.

@andyjohnsonman I watched that episode long before but thanks

@Value it provided closure.

If you can tilt your dick while it is hard, it is easier to hit the right spots. I accidentally discovered this trick and it works. Kegel exercises are good. Not only for the technique I described but also for endurance. Women need at least 20 minutes of that good stuff. I mean it is also important to have a good health to get strong erections.

I'm watching hodgetwins from time to time and I love how full of life they are.