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There is an instinctual aspect and a mental aspect of it. Your instincts just want you to spread your genes. Once you have done that your body to chillax. Obviously you are deceiving your instincts when watching porn and you should not do it or keep it to a minimal (or in proportion). And the mental part of it could be more complex, it really depends on your programming.

Cheeky bastard

So I had a date, the first in a long time (like 5 months): I just realized have much I have grown. Last year around this time it would have been unimaginable going to dates like this, especially with a girl like this. It is really about grabbing life by the balls. I'm still very hesitant about grabbing life by the balls but there is definitely improvement. There are years of bad conditioning so it is not weird that things need time. A major sticking point is my vibe, I'm still not chill/tranquillo like I should, but compared to last year, there is a major positive shift in my vibe. I know it is bad to compare myself to others so I'm not trying to do that but I can't help myself. So my main focus will be to fix my vibe, which won't only help my dating life, but help my life in general and prop up my quality of life. I'm not sure how I'm going to do this but I will be doing a lot of meditation, mantras and release work. Apart from that I have noticed that I've started to simp on this girl which is not good. Before the date she responded to my text every 30-60 minutes and now she does every 3-6 hours, which annoys me and makes me overthink things. This is an example of my problematic ego and I will apply release work on it. He is not IFS licensed, unfortunately.

No. She was definitely receptive because she was asking what I was doing tonight. I just didn't want to break my no-fap challenge which is much more important than a girl for me.

What do you think about kissing? Do you always try to kiss on the first date if you like her? She was a little shy so I was hesitant to do it. Good one. By the way, I had the date and she didn't even mention her ex. It was a nice date. We ate a pizza, went for a walk, ate some ice cream. I was like this in the first 10 minutes because she looked so stunning like those blonde female tennis players and I could tell she was disappointed by my vibe, but I quickly let that go through letting go and pranayama. After that it went only upwards. At the end we vibed very well but we weren't in the park anymore and I really didn't find a good opportunity to kiss her. Excellent points

There is even something better = hot peppers will give you crazy erections, it is nuclear food

I had a date last weekend. She was a little older than me which is unusual because I love younger girls. It was a great experience and I learned a lot from that reference experience. She has a great heart. Perhaps I should give her a chance. My recent discoveries is that my traumatic past has a huge influence on me. Something that I can't change over night according to my therapist. It is not weird that a lot of girls don't like me or that they disappear after the first couple of dates. I'm a wounded person. I'm heavy on the heart. Younger girls like light hearted guys, that is just the facts that I have to deal with. Level? What do you mean? He is a psycho therapist.

It is not about the openers. It is about the vibe. Not caring about the outcome and just enjoying yourself should be your main goal. Those two things are already a huge accomplishment if you can pull it off.

This will lead to the slow but steady disintegration of the Russian federation. It is a huge blow to the collective Russian ego and minorities will smell blood. On top of that the Russian economy is slowly getting dismantled by the sanctions. I'm expecting Russia to become much more aggressive because it is seeing the writing on the wall which will only accelerate its demise.

Not so long ago you uploaded videos of yourself and you had hair?

You too, Brutus?

Excellent channel: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLbZsCM6xnLIXEhjIKukYuWX9tn9VVpGAf A lot of value right there and it is for free! I read a lot of books on chakras and this guy just knows his stuff. Don't miss out.

Yes, I'm doing IFS and very recently I started using matras during meditation

There is really no out of the box solution for this. For some they have to get in touch with their inner femininity so it will spark their inner masculinity.... And for some it is that they are too feminine and they need to spark their masculinity. In general you want to balance your inner femininity and masculinity and become a whole person and when you meet a feminine girl, she will polarize you and you will become masculinity through your instincts. It is really about listening to your instincts. Do no fap, if you can't feel your masculine instincts. This work is about getting in touch with your body.

Having two girls in my rotation at the moment The girl I'm talking about I will be meeting at a party on friday. Another girl, who's phone number I got, I will be having a coffee date next week. To the outsider it sounds like I'm doing good. Trust me, I will fuck this up. I just care too much lol. For me results don't matter, I care about growth, and letting go of neediness, bad conditioning, to become whole (being). I just fucked up too much so I decided to focus on myself. It is not going as quick as I want, but I know I can't force this process. It is a matter of development of consciousness; and consciousness can't be pushed. I really have to accept so I can let go which is very counterintuitive to my nature. Perhaps I should stack up on meditation because I really don't feel good about my socialization: I can't enjoy the fruits of my labor because my inner game has a hard time catching up with my outer game. The bottom is... I do get the theory, it is just hard to live it, to be it. I'm a perfectionist so perhaps I expect too much from myself considering my problematic background, I have to be smart about it and baby step my transformation and paradigm shift.

Girls tell me I'm too much in my head, that I'm thinking too much. I guess it is so obvious I guess. I'm thinking about the theory of game I guess (thinking about not wanting to come off needy and such). My inner child is very needy and sabotages and ruins a lot interactions I have. Yesterday a girl was very interested in me and I just blew it by chasing her too much while she was chasing me from the start. I'm kind of sad about that. Currently doing my best to shift from having to doing to being. Being = just being my natural authentic self aka just being myself as they would say in popular culture. It really strikes at the heart of my problem: my bad childhood, bad conditioning I received in my life. Currently just trying to accept where I'm at (with all my deficiencies) and the (difficult) path I'm destined to tread. Just having trust in the process is key, but that is a huge issue for me: having trust.

I’m so much in my head. It is hard to get out of it.

These exercises really help to ground yourself in the body. It especially helpful when sexual tension has build up in the body. It is basically energy stuck in the body. Obviously sexuality is part of human nature but people who do no-fap do it for a reason which I don't have to explain here. I do it to fix my dopamine receptors. Transmuting sexual energy has given me immense energy in other parts of my life. Try it for yourself and see what happens. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_8AbARIXKE&t=635s

It gives me explosive power and sharpness. It is hard to wield but doable.

Update of the two courses I took After having finished Todd V's and Julien's program, I can clearly tell that Todd V is stage orange and Julien is green with some minor stage yellow. What Julien teaches really fits like a glove if you are stage yellow or have aspects of stage yellow. To put it frankly I find Todd V arrogant, nerdy, robotic and just a nuisance. His mannerisms are fake and he is not authentic. He is obviously autistic and the tragicomic part of all of this is that Todd V talks about the uncanny valley effect and how bad that is for your PUA endeavors but he clearly has that effect and he is not aware of it: My view of Julien has pleasantly changed. He really has the X factor in the RSD family. Tyler is just all stage green without much less yellow compared to Julien. Tyler is deep green (and obviously overcompensating) and it is sometimes hard to follow what he is saying because he is so chaotic and all over the place. Julien doesn't have this because of larger stake in stage yellow.

I don't understand why Leo hasn't covered the archetypes. It is at the center of his work but he never talks about it and thus is work becomes confusing for people who don't know about it. It is the elephant in the room.

It is a shit test, she is insecure so she wants to find out if you are secure and she is poking holes to how you react. How you react is key. You could flip the script and act like she is weird instead of you being weird. Or you could turn the situation into something funny or charm her and make her feel good when she is deep inside insecure. Defeat her with love.

In his latest video that was taken down he said he was busy socializing trying to enjoy it more.

@Mysterious Stranger that is really nice

Last couple of weeks I made a shift from "doing" to "being". I'm finally getting a little taste of what this means although I still haven't fully embodied it yet. I'm socializing with less effort, I got a phone number and she agreed to drink a coffee.