Raptorsin7

@Mz HydeI'm going to start working with this pua guy above. I think there is a lot of promise here. I am not really interested in pickup, but I think this guy will help me with a military approach that I need to get myself out of this apathetic state. I already had 1 call and it was incredibly enlightening. A lot of things were tied together.

I just booked a 1-1 conversation with this guy, and spoke to him on facebook. I have never been so excited for a conversation. This guy is a mystic in a pua's clothing. He speaks the truth

Maybe I don't. But my warning stands nonetheless. Therapy and meditation should be enough to make you healthy. At the very least make sure you stick with those.

I want you to take a step back from pickup until you don't have the psychology of a crazy person.

Yeah, yeah. It won't be funny if you get a sexual assault charge or some of other bs like that. Hurt people hurt people. Until you solve your root issues you are a walking liability

What's so crazy about salvia? Any kind of suffering dissolves if you just stay with it long enough without getting entangled in thought loops.

Keep doing practices like this. Be careful with pickup. You have the emotional constitution and psychology of a sociopathic right now, you could really hurt someone until you get yourself together, My advice, focus less on pickup and more on practices.

@Zeroguy @Nahm Riddle me this. If you understand and can successfully manifest, I want you write 1 million dollars for raptorsin7. You manifest 1 million dollars and then send it to me. If it's as simple as open mindedness and letting it come, what is the issue with my request?

I never get the stuff on my dreamboard. What changed? I am going to write I want 1 million dollars now. But I bet i won't get it

How did you learn to manifest?

@Jacob Morres I just made it up. Because I speak from conscious presence so I generate wise quotes lol

Do you have a meditation practice? If so, what kind of practice are you doing and what is your perspective on how the practices are unfolding? You can literally transform your personality in an instance if you can get in touch with deep repressed emotions and sensations

@Raphael Speak from your own conscious presence. Become in touch with the present, and act spontaneously from this conscious presence. I don't know if you can guarantee it will be the right decision. But you will be acting with integrity because you are speaking the truth, as the truth. It's also consistent and reliable, because there is only ever this moment. So when you make decisions while in touch with the moment, you always know where to go if you want to speak the truth, and with integrity.

Not really a concrete answer. But it does take my to own presence which is significant. Here's the thing. I already know what it means to be healed and well from my psych trips. It's the same transformation process every time. I lay down, i become very sensitive to what I feel and the sensations of the body, and if i'm able to feel into my sensations and not get distracted I will have a breakthrough. The breakthrough completely changes my perceptual field, I lose virtually all suffering and discomfort, and I have this amazing clarity and equanimty. My goal is to live from this space. And the first step is getting in touch with my own presence. Yeah I definitely have issues with my diet, health, etc. But I don't know how to all of a sudden satisfy these basic needs. It takes tremendous discipline to eat healthy, work out hard etc. I try to work out or eat healthy, but I give in to my addictions very easily. I can see how I need to address my base as well, but Idk how to go about that in an effective way. All the advice just seems to be just do it. But when it's so much easier to get sucked back into addictions then it is to have iron will. I was thinking of doing some kind of medtation retreat or wellness retreat in the near future, I figure it could be like my rehab and give me a chance to start new habits with a clean slate. I may consider an ayahausca retreat too, but I dread having to drink the tea because I can't even look at psychs without gagging now, so I bet i'd just throw it up. I don't really have survival issues in the sense that I have money or safety needs. I'd say I have issues with discipline, relationships, and direction. But take relationships for example. How am I supposed to just go and get my needs for intimacy satisfied. I view woman as sex objects, and the kinds of woman who I would be into would not be into given my current situation and emotional constitution. I can see the wisdom in getting my foundation solid, like my diet, exercise etc. But I have no idea how to approach that successfully, and also I'm not so certain that solving those issues will get me what I want. I already know what works from deep meditation and psychidelics, I don't see the sense in turning away from that to solve basics without a clear undesrtanding of how basics will move me forward. One thing I tend to see on this forum from guys like Leo and even Nahm, is when they don't know how to answer a person's questions or give specific guidance they default to the amorphous just solve your basics. As if it's that simple to just develop strong habits, healthy relationships, end your addictions etc.

Nice diagram. Do you have any sense on how to work with this knowledge? Like I am aware that I have issues with shame, guilt, and grief and I can feel the discomfort in the assoicated part of my being. But then Idk what to do about it. I've only managed to make real headway while on psychidelics, and even then it's not guaranteed

Too much talk and conceptualization, not enough time spent in proper silent meditation/contemplation

@Mz Hyde I was just listening to this rumi vide, and I could feel my whole body light up. It felt great. This kind of thing is what I think will help me progress in life. But these kinds of feelings seem so fleeting and rare. I guess they are becoming more common, but the question is how to make this kind of stuff my default way of being.

Yeah, so this journal right now as you add to it in comments they will all be held under this specific title. You can make as many journals as you want, and then all the comments from each journal will be self contained under each heading. So this Journal can you assist me, will be the title and contain all these comments you make. You can edit specific posts as well

This is a good point. When I ask the question it immediately leads to the my presence, but still I am suffering. This question silences the mind, but I still suffer. I don't know why. I just know when I took psychs, there is an energetic process that unfolds that ends up with me feeling incredible clarity, bliss etc. I just know that right now I am not there, and I feel dissatisfaited with whatever i'm feeling now. I don't know. I think psychidelics would be the best thing for me right now, but when I take them I get nauseous and bad headaches so I'm trying to go without. I think I can't fully surrender and accept whatever arises, I still cling and have aversion to certain feelings and sensations so I remain stuck on the hamster wheel. No I don't have a plan. I have a decent sense of what I want. Money/wealth, work I can sink myself into, and either a relationship or fun casual sex. I try to contemplate and ask god/myself to show the path on how to achieve this. But so far almost nothing. There's a rumi quote about how we can ask all from ourselves. But idk why when I ask I don't get clear answers.

This guy has a lot of insightful things to say about the harsh realities of dating and smv

I think If i had more balance I would be in a better place. Materially, my life is very underdeveloped. I don't have close friends, no romantic relationships, I live with my parents etc. I think if I had a better life i would feel way better about my spiritual progress and plateaus. I REALLY want MONEY, A RELATIONSHIP, and FREEDOM. I want a beautiful and amazing girlfriend. I want to make enough money to be financially free to do whatever I want. I want to be emotionally free.

I feel stuck again. Right now I am now conscious. But I am still suffering. I can feel the tension and pressure of suffering. I don't understand why recognizing my own conscious presence is not enough. I wonder if it's because I am striving too much. Hmm idk. This is very frustrating. Sometimes I feel in tune and surrender comes easy and natural. But then there are moments like now, where there is just tension and frustration. If anyone is reading this and has some insight that would be great. I want to find a way to make money to become independent. I don't know how to do this either. Overall things are progressing, but I'm just so sick and tired of suffering. I want peace and freedom. I want the bliss and clarity of knowing myself as pure consciousness. I want these headaches and pains to end. I even know that accepting the feelings and feeling into them is the key. And i've been trying to do that. But maybe the effort and striving is paradoixally perpetuating the suffering.

Oh yea. Especially with respect to dating, people have software running that completely governs their mate choice, yet they don't understand why or how they like what they like.

He's kind of all over the place so it's hard to sum up. But he talks about why certain groups of people are more successful in pua and why that is. I like how raw and authentic he is Yeah I can't say that's what I like him haha. I just like how raw he is about the reality of dating and value.

I never said he was perfect