Raptorsin7

God knows what I want more than I know what I want. I want to surrender my desires and let god give me what he will

@catcat69123 How did it happen for you? Did you try forgiving someone? Or was it just a sudden insight into everyone being innocent

@peanutspathtotruth I ordered acim, I'm really excited to get into it.

@Salvijus Okay great. It's coming in a few days I'm excited to read it. It's interesting that you can connect with other people's energy. I think this applies to not only Christ, but also other beings. I used to listen to a Michael Jordan motivation video, and it improved my confidence because I absorbed his confident energy. This could be a cool thing to get good with. Learning to embody other people's energies

@Salvijus Do you think just reading acim and some jesus quotes is enough to feel connected to him? And also how do I maintain the connection? When I listen to the quotes its like an energy comes over me, but it doesn't last.

@Matthew85 How did you do it? And what were your results?

@Mafortu If you're serious about the truth then Jesus is a great source. But I'm not going to argue with you

@Illusory Self On my break through trips it feels like I'm no longer a person, but instead i'm this infinite intelligence creepy spider thing. It feels like I'm playing with myself, and it always gives me subtle creepy vibes. I think the desire to end suffering has to be greater than whatever obstacles come up. I don't doubt that is it freaky, but you have to lean into it and accept it for what it is. On my trips the reason it doesn't bother me that I'm this creepy infinite intelligence spider is because I just want my suffering to end and feel liberated so everything else pales in comparison.

@Mafortu Lol. I don't identify as a Christian but I think there's a lot of value in listening to Jesus. I'd say pick up the bible if you're really into non-duality

@Salvijus I remember you said acim was dictated by Jesus's spirit so I ordered a book after I had this insight. I'm going to find a way to incorporate this into meditation more. I immediately feel a good energy when I listen to Jesus or Rumi, but if I just meditate on nothing it can get dull

@Khan 0 Big picture I want to live from a place of love and peace. But I'm not sure I understand your question

What's the difference between embodying the spirit of Christ and god realization?

@Adamq8 But who was Jesus at his essence? What is a Jesus?

@Zeroguy Ahh. For me this is an authentic desire so I'm going to stay with it. If it falls away once I heal more then so be it. But I don't see the issue, I like games and it would be awesome to have good games to play

I have a vision of a video game I want to create. I don't know if it's possible or realistic, but I really enjoy thinking about it so I'm going to explore it in this journal. I'll post any insights, inspiring music, anything related to the development of the idea, and anything that I think is fun to think about related to the idea. I love military history and war. I want to create an ultra RTS game that combines elements from different genres, and will allow you to be a true conqueror like Napolean. I am not worried about being realistic, practical, or anything like that. I just want to explore the ideas that I believe are awesome and fun. The guiding light for this entire journal and project is what I love and what I want to create.

Imagine a pre-set map similar to a game of thrones map of westeros. So the cities, landscape, weather, etc is all in the game before you start. This would save game time so players don't have to construct their own cities when the game starts. And then given the preset cities and castles etc players could make strategic adjustments in game, but it wouldn't require as much time. So they could add reinforced walls, add defensive structures, etc. And then there could be a mod and map editor which would allow players to change the map on their own if they want to construct their own cities or towns for the map they want to play on. Then players could load into their own maps when they play a game. I could have maps of different sizes, so there is a map pool, that way players don't get bored of just a single map. Players could also start with a functional economy which would save time, so players don't have to build an empire from scratch. Imagine starting with an already functioning basic economy, and then players could choose how they want to specialize or what they want to focus on. These are two games I discovered recently that have a lot of elements I really love. My game would incorporate lots of gameplay features of these two games.

Awareness is Key and Surrender is Key to the Awareness - Pluto

I am not sure about my vision at this point. I like the idea of creating a fun conquest type game, but I face a lot of mental blocks and internal resistance right now. My vision is to resolve my emotional issues at this point, and I believe I'm well on my way, but I wonder if my vision and purpose will become clearer once I resolve some of emotional blocks and negative beliefs i'm stuck with. I'm very uncertain right now. Hopefully things become clearer soon

What should I learn from Leo?

@Illusory Self If they are authentic desires then go for it. Theres nothing wrong with going after what you genuinely want

"They say the devil's water it ain't so sweet, you don't have to drink right now... but you can dip your feet, every once in a little while"

Man I am so stuck. I'm actually getting interesting insights and synchronicities around the game. One of my friends just brought up a similar game idea he's had for 10 years. And I just watched a really cool gameplay video for a cool MOBA siege game But I just don't have a clear sense of what would be a fun game to make. I want to make a game. But I don't know how to think about it. I want to think of a brilliant and fun game idea. I think I'll keep trying to just sit down and come up with ideas, maybe that will work

@Knowledge Hoarder Thanks. Hopefully I can get some great ideas that really inspire it's creation