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@Nickyy Lol bro you aren't helping any more. You are just taking shots at my ego at this point. If you don't want to help that's cool just move on. If you're trying to make some broader point feel free, but I don't know what value you're providing at this point...

@Nickyy Fair enough. I know my behavior is kind of erratic, and what i wrote before is clearly a sign of a disturbance. But i feel better talking like that than I do if i was acting more calmly and rationally. Each person has to find their path and way to integrate and deal. What you called unhealthy behavior is a necessary step for me. But to each their own. Maybe you're right, and i'm way off.

@Nickyy No, i think you're trying to help me the best you can. You are telling me what you think is right and true. I just think you don't know what you're talking about with respect to my behavior and my situation. Obviously not everything you're saying is wrong, and it's coming from a good place. There's a difference in the advice i get from you and what i get from people like Nahm and other enlightened people. That's why i'm reacting strongly to it. I think you don't know. You might know, but i just get a feeling you're off. I don't get that feeling from certain type of people here. Not going to listen to something i don't trust, it feels right to challenge you.

@Nickyy It's how i feel. I'm telling you exactly what is going through my mind, and what I think is right. I'm not fully conscious. But i can spot it too. The vibe i get from you compared to someone like Nahm is completely different. I don't really trust that you know what you're talking about. I know i don't have all the answers. I'm still trying to figure it out. But what i wrote felt right.

I have a feeling that LOA only works for stuff you actually want. You have to be honest to yourself and ask what is that you actually want from this life. I think a lot of people in MLM's want money to fill some sort of emotional/psychological hole. So there wanting and motivation is not authentic. They don't want money. They want the state of being that they think money will grant them. They can't necessarily have the money, but the state of being is always available to us. So LOA will get you what you really want.

@Nickyy Honest expression is healthy. But i see your point.

@DrewNows Alright. I think focus will be important. I'll let you guys know how the game goes.

@Nickyy That is a fair point. My plan is to resolve my seeking/general unhappiness while i'm in law school. I think it would be better if i make the decision from a position of strength rather than discontent, which is what's driving me now.

@Angelite what's his process?

Thoughts: What do I want? The dream board apparently works to bring whatever you want. But i don't think is true. I think you can only get something that is in alignment with what YOU actually want. No bull shit. No lies. No self deception. What do you want more than anything? I have a hard time with this. I have visions of the kind of life i want, it's always about the feeling. How do i feel about life. Why are good things good? Why do i like the things i like? I have to find the why behind all my wants, even my best wants. I think it is love. I want love in my life. Not romantic, egoic love. I want true love. I want the best life has to offer. I want the best experience possible. I wrote on my dream board that i want to love the present. I want to love the moment. Each and every moment has the potential to be just amazing. Imagine the greatest possible situation. You get everything you ever want and could ever want. Now imagine the worst situation imaginable. At the highest level there is no difference. Life is perfect. The magnitude of those words is kind of fucked. Everything is perfect. My life is already perfect. I know that to be true, but I don't feel it. What do i know anyway? I think i know too much as it is, i just gotta start every topic saying i don't know shit. Because if i knew shit i wouldn't be a seeker. But here i am seeking.

@Average Investor Thanks man. You are so inspiring. I will try and reflect on what you said. I know life is amazing. We live in the greatest time on earth to ever be a human. I'm pumped.

@infinitelove Is everyone allowed to sleep with everyone's wives?

@Key Elements Yea that makes more sense to me. Why does everyone need to live in a commune. The world exists. We are some of the most privileged people in the world. We owe it to the world to be apart of it. But everyone's path is different. Maybe a commune could work.

@DrewNows This guy gets it. That is the issue. I am not truly letting go on the court. I always feel resistance. Not sure how to let go completely though.

@Pramit Have you thought about doing an hour but just adjusting yourself during the meditation. Usually if i experience pain I can adjust myself slightly and the tension gets released. Don't buy the hype about not moving during meditation. When you are starting out, 1 hour of meditation with slight movements is better than 30 minutes of no movement.

@TrynaBeTurquoise Fair point. But you haven't addressed my point about being your best on game day. Everything is cause and effect. There's clearly something i'm doing when i'm playing well compared to what i'm doing when i check out of games. I'm just not aware of the triggers. I am the best player on the team. I want to win. If one of my teammates is scoring every play, do you think i'm going to take the ball from him? If i score 0 points and we dominate then that's perfect. But we almost lost to 2 trash tier teams and I did not have a good game. I wouldn't want to play on your team either. The feeling is mutual.

@TrynaBeTurquoise I have had games where i'm absolutely unstoppable. Then i have games where i can't score a point and i give up on the game. The night and day difference between some of my games is insane. It's literally all mental. Peak performance is about getting yourself to be your best in the moment. I'm not asking how can i go beat lebron james in 1 on1. I'm asking what can i do to be the best version of my self on thursday.

@Key Elements Yea, if it's part of your LP and you embody non-duality then people will gravitate to you. You will have such a strong impact on the people around you, and if you genuinely believe in your product you will be successful. I never thought of net working from that angle until you just mentioned it.

@Key Elements If you're going to do a forum feature do one that is very niche and specific to your product. Unless you want to just copy Leo's forum.

What am I thinking about now? I have an intramural basketball playoffs on thursday. I really want to win this championship. We are the best team by far, and there's no excuse for us to lose. We almost lost the first 2 rounds, and i did not play well. I need to dominate this game. I'm not sure how i'm going to prepare but I need to do something. I need to get my self in the zone. I need to adopt the mind of a fucking psycho winner for this game. I made a post about it, hopefully someone has some good advice. I got an A on my legal writing assignment. It's hard to get A's in law school so this is a good move. But honestly i'm just happy i didn't get a shitty mark. The first thing that came to mind is that i would be happier if i could just brag about it to everyone. But clearly that's nonsense. I need to update my dream board. Nahm gave me some harsh advice in a thread a few weeks ago i need to find it and add it to my board. The board fucking works, but i stopped using it for the past few days. Why did i stop if it works? Very strange. Today after yoga i will update it. I wonder what people think when they read this. Proactive told me i'm lost. Part me was mad he said that. I'm not fucking lost buddy. But i am lost. I don't think it's a bad thing though. In order to be found first i must be lost. I feel pretty good. I feel engaged. Is this hypomania? I've been very manic in my posts recently... But it feels right... I don't know. I always thought mania was a good thing if it could be controlled. I've had 1 full on manic episode in my life and it wasn't even that bad. I remember i didn't study for an exam and i tried learning everything the night before and i couldn't do it. Then i felt like dropping out, and my uncle told me i'm being manic. I think dropping out was the right choice then and i missed that chance. What happens if i do the same here? If i stick it out will i just regress back to my old ways? I don't think so. What's happening now cannot be undone so easily. Meditation has given me something to fall back on. No matter what happens i have a path. The journey to the divine beyond is all but guaranteed (prophet of truth- Halo 2?)

@Proactive Ok i will try that. I already do a lot of meditation but i've never really focused in on the feeling and thoughts of not liking school. Thanks.

@Average Investor Yoga is pretty intense. I always feel good after i finish class and the sweat is good. I will definitely look into running. I used to try running all the time but i would quit very easily, like 1 mile in and i would just give it up. I feel stronger mentally now, i should give running another shot. I will reply with the life i want to live on this post. But i am not ready yet, i have exams coming up and i want to take my time with that post. I will also consider the gratitude exercise you mentioned. I am never really grateful throughout the day. And one of the hallmarks of the dream life i see in my mind is the fact that i'm just amazed and astonished at how awesome my life is. I always thought get good life first then gratitude will come naturally. Thanks for the replies man, you seem have to a lot figured out.

@Fede83 Lol thanks, i think i deserve one too (: Yes, we must be completely free. If you go into a relationship expecting the other person to complete you or fill the holes, the relationship will be a disaster. If you are both complete, then the love and the relationship will be easy. If you could choose one or the other what would you choose? Complete happiness and freedom with or without your partner? Or dependence on them to make you happy?

@dimitri What is your meditation practice like?

Yes, there is something wrong with this. I think once you are genuinely happy and satisfied with life and are completely ok with never having a girlfriend even if you die alone, then you will be ready for a girlfriend. But i'm not sure. I've never had a girlfriend lol.