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@CreamCat @Average Investor Did you guys do leo's life purpose course? Do you know how valuable it is for someone who wants to start a business but doesn't really know where to get started?

@Sombra That's awesome. I definitely need to do some research into more business fields that interest me. I'm going to try and just set aside a few hours per day for law school stuff then dive into business stuff in my free time.

@Proactive Good luck man.

@Sombra I understand what you're saying. I just don't really have a drive to be a sick lawyer or make a ton of money. I want to try develop a business that can just support my life style. I don't have a very expensive lifestyle, and the more personal development work I do the less I need from the world. Going for money is great if you have a strong drive to make it happen. But my main goal is to carve out a niche in some field, start a business, and just try and sustain the business so I can pursue other more meaningful things to me at the same time. I just feel like is out of alignment with where i'm at in life right now, and I just don't see myself becoming the type of person who really values the things you mentioned above. What does your ex gf do now? Is she still a lawyer?

@modmyth I feel like right now I should be pursuing financial independence and full on autonomy from my parents. The whole point of me being in law school is to get a job so I can get a good job and support myself eventually. But law work sucks, and it's not even an optimal path to genuine financial freedom. So I really want to spend all my "work" time pursuing my own business and developing something that will actually pay dividends in my life. @Sombra gave me some good advice about search engine optimization work (SEO), and even if i don't end up doing that specific kind of work, I want to do something I can sink my teeth into, develop skills, and see progress in my work. So basically i feel like I should be pursuing something that will actually pay off in the future. And because I don't want to go down the law route, there is very little pay out in staying in law school. It's basically just shame from dropping out, and leaving my friends at school that's keeping me in right now. Which are terrible reasons imo to do anything.

My thoughts: I need to spend less time posting on the forum. This is main way of procrastinating right now and I don't like it. I have been regressing over the past week or so, since i had a good burst of motivation when i started using my dream board. I think i will stop posting on other people's post unless it's something I find really interesting. I need to start getting more wanting onto the dream board. I think i should be using it every day. And i want to start getting more short term stuff on the board. Like what I want to get accomplished today, etc. I need to start taking ownership of my state of being. I spend too much time in my mind thinking about random stuff. I just need to ground myself in the stillness inside me, then fucking act. Let's just see how it goes. Just keep acting. Bring stillness then act.

@Preety_India That's really cool. I like how you developed it yourself. I think i need to do something like that too. Creation of my own system.

@Preety_India Where did you find the technique? Can you explain how it works?

@Preety_India What's that 8 step model for? Seems interesting

@abundance Don't feel the need to rush into doing drugs then. You can just work up gradually, start meditating, taking care of other parts of your life etc. Then maybe one day you will feel ready.

@VeganAwake So are you unbreakable? No matter what happens to you now you will still not feel lack.

@VeganAwake Why did you stop seeking. What does that even feel like to genuinely stop seeking anything. Like i can try it right now in my direct experience. There's just a bunch of sensations. There's no freedom ending the seeking for me right now.

@Proactive Try imagining it so it's bad. Like the worst fucking case scenario, be the worst homeless person in the universe. Then accept that guy lol

My thoughts: I think i think too much. My mind is always going on all day. I can see some of the stories in my mind that make me unhappy during my meditation. Like i'm worried about a phone call with my uncle about why i'm not happy in law school. It does not make me feel good. But then I think the narrative of my life could so easily be viewed as positive. It's all a matter of perspective. Life is so deep and complex, everything that I think will make me happy could be what leads to misery for someone else. Everything I want comes with a requirement that I will feel good when i get it. When i'm financially free and i'm enlightened THEN i will be happy and stop seeking. But i don't have to seek at all. Right now is perfect. I just can't see it yet. I'm very excited to start working with Nahm for life/enlightenment coaching. I wonder how much growth i will experience? I have so much potential. I think i need to turn down my incessant posting on the forum. I can tell i'm starting to make some people uncomfortable. I just gotta manage my emotions and feelings better. Take what works. Discard the rest.

@jim123 You're being too literal in how you're interrupting these guys' answers. When leo claims that the Buddha and Christ are the same what do you think means by that? There are so many assumptions going into these claims you need to start questioning. Don't just react based on your own skewed world view of how things work.

@TrynaBeTurquoise Are the trans-fat oils more likely to cause diabetes or high sugar diets? What's worse for diabetes high sugar/low trans-fat or low sugar/high-trans fat?

@zeroISinfinity Hey thanks for checking out my thread. I know. But I feel like it's good for me to be as open as authentic as I can be on this forum and this is a great start. @modmyth said she feels better after she dumps her mind onto a journal and feels lighter after. I'm basically trying the same thing, just laying it all out there. Everything must be let go of eventually.

@laurel Maybe they don't know enough to be scared of the world when they're young. As we get older we see how many threats exist to our survival and it's difficult to cope.

My thoughts: I went out last with some friends from school after we finished our first exam. I had a lot of fun. It made me not want to leave law school because my classmates are so fun to be around. I also recognize some social anxiety worries. I don't want to get too close to anyone because I need my spare time to pursue self actualization and spirituality, but at the same i want to be liked and accepted as one of the guys. I try to be as open as possible in the social interactions, and i'm getting really good at not saying anything and just letting the conversation develop on it's own. I used to just blurt out random things sometimes because i felt like i hadn't talked in a while, but being quiet and engaged is great. People feel like you're listening to them and it makes them happy, and i'm happy because I just want to socialize and experience the situation to the best of it's ability. I made one comment which i kind of regret. In my school people have a joke that our friend group is the "bros" because we all like sports and our group is all guys. There was one other girl who was out with us, she seemed really chill and not the type of person who is bothered by petty jokes/comments. But when my friends asked what you call the group of girls that hang out together, if we're the "bros" then what do you call the girl group, i said sluts lol. Everyone thought it was hilarious but i know that people could be offended. My school is very stage green, progressive so those comments can rub people the wrong way. I gotta be careful, i definitely have some sexist tendencies in me and it makes me look bad. Caring too much about the opinions of other is not good, but is reputation a real thing? I don't know about how to balance not giving a fuck with maintaining a reputation. I have 5 exams left and I need to study every day until exams are over. I need to spend at least 3 hours per day everyday until exams are over. I don't care too much about my grades, but i also don't want a complete shit mark. Discipline will be huge over the next few weeks. I know i can do it. I had a nightmare last night. I don't know if it's because i went out drinking and I masterbated last night, so maybe that's bad kharma who knows... But i was arguing with my friend and there were some other issues throughout the dream. But then i remember at the end of the dream i was feeling pretty good in my apartment, and then i saw some little kid fall off his balcony to his death. I've never had a panic attack, but the feeling that came over felt like sheer terror. I can still feel it a bit if i think about it. Then when i woke up i thought i saw some demon/entity in my apartment, and i yelled let's fucking go like i was going to fight it. So crazy, i wonder what my neighbors thought? I feel good though because I wasn't that scared after i woke up. My mind was pretty active, but i calmed down right away. I wonder if i have to face that terror on my path to awakening. I would prefer not too, but if i have to i'm pretty sure i can handle it. I've noticed a lot of people on this forum are going through a predictable pattern. They start as hardcore seekers of enlightenment, then they meditate a lot, do psych's, and then achieve some profound insights. But then they are forced to re-enter the real world after all those experiences, so they all come full circle. I think that's why it's important to maintain balance on the path. Don't sacrifice everything on the path to freedom, because at some point you will have to re-enter the world. And your past actions will matter. I'm still not sure on this point, i think a lot of people here are deluded and don't know how to optimially pursue enlightenment work. My self included lmao.

@Leo Gura Very nice breakdown. Thanks.

@Leo Gura When people accuse gurus of mistreatment, abuse, etc. Are the gurus engaging in the behavior because they think it will help the person improve spiritually, or are they consciously and maliciously abusing people even though they know it's wrong. There is some sick shit gurus could do to you which could ultimately be good for you because it causes so much suffering.

@Key Elements I get it lol. It would indeed be very unusual. I'm all in on non-duality and if someone just came up to me and discussing I would be weird out too. Imagine a random person... If you feel good about what you're doing then you already got it figured out imo. I don't feel good about pursuing sports. Sports are just a tool. Not the end game for me. Maybe if my kids one day love basketball I can help them pursue it but I want something else. That would be enough for me. I am deluded tbh. So much poor conditioning, and toxic beliefs. I don't trust my desires and wants fully. I won't know what's right until I make more progress in my life imo.

@Preety_India Nothing is impossible. I've seen a girl on youtube who did a dry fast for like 3 plus weeks. By conventional scientific understand she should be dead. But if it works then it should be testable and reproducible. But i'm with you on being skeptical. You gotta prove this one to be taken seriously.

@DrewNows I agree. So much information about nutrition is hearsay and junk science. But breatharian seems extraordinary. Is there any rational explanation for why it works from your research? It's similar to a guy saying he can move objects with his mind. In my opinion anything is possible. But you gotta have some evidence. Extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence.

@TrynaBeTurquoise Yoga is the best for meditation. It super charges meditative progress imo. I started doing yoga 3 months ago, and my meditation practice has grown more in the past 3 months than it has in the past 2.5 years. Have you seen Nahm's thread on using the dream board. Most practical thing on this forum for me so far