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Very cool idea. Good luck

@LfcCharlie4 Can you explain the enneagram a little bit. How do you use it to improve your life? Or maybe pm me i don't want to hijack the thread.

@Preety_India That's true. But I think as a practice if you just do your best to just ignore thoughts and just live moment to moment then over time thoughts will not be an issue for you. But in the meantime you will face problems like the one you described above. We can only ever do our best in the moment, so just do your best with the bad thoughts then when it passes just keep on going with the practice.

Thanks everyone. I'll keep working.

@Preety_India I'm starting to try and live with just ignoring my thoughts. No matter if they're positive or negative. Just trying to detach from the story that I keep telling myself. I'll see how it goes.

I have toxic beliefs about romantic relationships and I wonder if anyone can relate, or was in my situation and managed to overcome it. I have never had a girlfriend, but i have had some sexual experience. I don't find a lot of girls attractive and i feel like I have standards, physically, career/intelligence, and personal development. I feel like i have a lot of superficial dating standards like the one's i listed above, and I don't know how limited they are. I'm afraid that if i date someone i might find someone i like more very soon after, and so it scares me from taking a chance with a girl i'm not sure about because i don't want to her hurt or go through the pain myself. I am social, but i don't have an expanding social net work. It's basically, school and yoga. I do a lot of personal development work so i'm hoping as i improve as a person my life will open up more and i will naturally meet people and this stuff will resolve itself. But at the same time i feel like i need to take an active role in my situation and put myself out there more. I am definitely super resistant to taking the hard road and just asking out a bunch of girls and going on a ton of dates until i meet someone i really like. What are the biggest things holding me back?

I have an intramural basketball game coming up on thursday, and it's the playoffs so i really want to win and dominate. What are your tips for getting in the zone in sports and playing at your absolute best. I definitely have a lot of fear and resistance in sports, and i usually end up being very streaky. Ill have times where i play really well, and i have times when i just suck and do nothing. How can i dominate. My plan is to do 90 minutes in the float tank, meditate, and listen to some pump up music before hand. I want to get michael jordan level psychotic for this game...

Why don't I see the beauty in this moment like you do. I'm aware this is the only moment there is. The past not exist. The future does not exist. This is it. But this still feels lacking. I'm not satisfied with this.

I am thankful that I am not enlightened yet. I am thankful that at this moment in my life I am not as happy as I know I could be. I am thankful for these experiences because now I know what it's like to not be enlightened. That way when I wake up I will have a strong desire to help others wake up too. I will know their pain. Because right now I am their pain.

Gratitude: Thank you for this lap top. Thank you for this apartment. Thank you for this beautiful city Thank you for my health Thank you for the ability to be aware of negative emotions, so they can be changed and life can be improved Thank you for the meditation practice. Thank you for starting meditation 2.5 years ago so the practice is as advanced as it is. Thank you for the willingless and drive to improve life Thank you for making these december exams help not hurt, so i don't need to stress. Thank you for this chapter in my life that will make me so appreciative when life gets better Thank you to @Nahm advising me to use the dream board. Thank you for the opportunity to live this dream, and become truly happy. Thank you for the financial support that was not earned Thank you for the freedom to pursue anything and everything

@assx95 Focus on developing yourself. It's going to be hard to just develop over night into the kind of person who wouldn't accept this kind of unhealthy relationship. But if you focus on improving your own life, internally, then you will notice the rest of your life will fall into place in a way that doesn't cause you suffering. You clearly recognize that your situation is toxic. Go 1 step at a time and work on all relevant parts of your life that led you to this toxic situation.

My thoughts: This reality. This moment right now. This is a dream. Life is a dream. I got this insight from talking to Nahm. My dreams have always been "better" than my reality. But now there is no separation. This right now is a dream. And i need to start living like it. I've begun listening to I AM affirmations. I really like them. I can listen to them when i'm procrastinating or just sitting on my couch or something. I'm going to begin Leo's life purpose course when i'm home for christmas break. I've realized that I need to do a job that I care about. I need to find my life purpose and go after it. All is one. So all must be incorporated under self actualization and spirituality. I feel pretty good today. I have an exam tmrw that i'm not ready for. But I have to accept that i'm not ready and just do my best. I really need to upgrade my dream board. I find it difficult at night to get stuff done. I face so much resistance at night. The morning and day are much easier to be productive. I heard advice that when you're not feeling up to it just go to bed and try again in the morning. This is good advice. Tonight i will go to bed early if i'm not feeling it after i smoke some weed and meditate.

@Preety_India No problem. It means a lot that my support means a lot lol

@Preety_India All part of the journey. When we're in it is difficult to see on the outside. But even acknowledging that we are on the down end of a great journey is helpful because we can keep the big picture in mind. Imagine how sweet it will taste when we finally see the beauty in life that so many other's see. This is feeding that.

@Preety_India When you find your happiness you will look on those 3 months as completely integral to your current love for life. The narrative is always changing.

@Angelite Oh ok lol

@Angelite @Dumuzzi How did she know you were 40 years old?

@dimitri What are these diagrams?

@Anderz How is this course working for you? Has your life improved a lot since you started?

@Key Elements Okay. I'm going to start the course. I think i definitely have some tendencies of the guy in that video lol. I do think it's possible to be successful going into your start up if you know what you're doing, but a lot of people can definitely delude themselves into thinking they are ready when they are not. I guess that's why it's so important to find your life purpose and love what you do. You will not mind working for someone else if it is doing something you actually love.

My thoughts: I was listening to abraham hicks and i think i learned a valuable insight that I need to focus on. I need to recognize when i'm not feeling happy or satisfied and then doing something to make myself feel better. Like music, pushups, go for a walk, meditate, etc. When I recognize that i'm not feeling happy that means i've been in a negative state, or out of the vortex like abraham calls it, and that state has been coloring everything i've been dong it. Who knows how long I was lost in it, but now in this moment i'm aware and i can do something. Then i need to do something that makes me feel good. Even for a few moments, i need to feel good so i change the momentum and bring myself in alignment with source. The next question is how do i stay in alignment with source throughout the day. I bet Nahm will have good stuff to say in this topic.

@Surfingthewave I just bought Leo's life purpose course. I am going to start doing that. I think doing meaningful is something i've been missing for a long time now in my life. I'm excited to get it started. I really appreciate you commenting (: "Surfs up"

@Surfingthewave Yea self love is very important, and i literally don't do it at all. I think i need to start finding some resources on how to practically self love. I know Leo's recent video was on this topic, but did he give practical instructions on how to practice it? Yea i am definitely out of alignment. I have no idea what I really want, i just know what i'm doing now is the wrong thing. I will keep pushing. Thanks for the post, i like it when people comment on here it gives me a better perspective.

My thoughts: I just purchased Leo's life purpose course. I think I need to figure out my life purpose and cut the shit and start going after it. At the very least it will be a growing opportunity for me and i should benefit from it. I'm going to gather some intel from the forum to see if it's worth it to complete, but i don't mind buying it if i'm not going to use because i should be supporting Leo. I use this forum more than 99% people here lol. I think it will be difficult to just jump into online business like SEO and start making money. I underestimate the role of motivation. It's one of the biggest problems i'm having right now with law school. I know this work is bull shit and i don't want to do it, so i'm not motivated to get it done. I think the same motivation issue would come up if i was just doing online business' as a way to pursue financial freedom. I think i actually have to believe in what i'm doing. I know being rich is bull shit anyways. I know people with money. My family has money. It's all bull shit, none of that stuff brings you happiness. Yea, you don't want to be homeless or starving in the streets. But if you are strategic and don't have stupid fucking spending habits you really don't need that much money to survive. This is actually underrated. I can honestly say IDGF about being rich. I know most people can't say that. I need to figure out a plan to finish law school, or finish the semester, without just flaming out. I have exams right now, but if i do better on the final exam in April, these exams do not count. I think i might fail a couple of them to be honest. It bothers me. And it's not okay. These classes aren't even hard, i need to be more disciplined next semester and at least finish strong. There are no excuses. But for now i need to suck it up and take this loss like a man. If people ask how i did i just have to say yea I did terrible. I need to start getting out of my apartment more. I literally didn't leave all day today. That is not a good habit. It breeds unhappiness. During the week is fine because i can go to yoga at night so i don't feel too lonely. But during weekends sometimes i just don't leave here. It's not healthy.

@Key Elements Did you do Leo's life purpose course?