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I'm talking about going to the experience of being aware, or whatever pointer you want to use. A good example would be I listen to a guided inquiry by Rupert Spira, I will have moments where i clearly follow his pointer, I feel my being unwind, relax (I don't have a good vocabulary to explain this) and then I get up and pat myself on the back because I think I got it. The surrender to the pointer/inquiry follows the same trajectory as all my LSD trips, but it's like I am constantly starting and turning off the engine. I'm content with where i'm at it's only a matter of time until I stabilize

I can feel the anger and hatred just slowly reside in my being it's pretty interesting. I am so resistant to just sitting down to meditate. This is crazy. It's like I just get enough satisfaction from my subtle addictions and I'm content with it. I believe I can't fall any lower because I can always just become aware of being aware, but I wonder if I can fall further before being done

@Wilhelm44 Check out the book Reality Transurfing I think it touches on what you're looking for. I bet there are some good quick summaries to see if it resonates

I definitely think some of the best teachers likely have a small following. The better the teacher, the more directly they can point to nature of happiness that seekers want. But if a person is too direct then they will have a smaller audience because the population of advanced seekers who require such a direct teaching is so small. Speaking of lesser known teachers... there's a Kriya Yogi named Forrest Knutson on youtube who makes awesome videos about meditation, spirituality, brain states etc. He's not a direct path teacher either which is a nice balance because we already have a large advaita presence here

@Phyllis Wagner I can't speak to DMT but I can talk about LSD breakthroughs. During sober meditation, and meditation with weed to a greater extent, there's a certain pattern that repeats when I begin to surrender and rest as awareness. It's always the same trend. It's like on LSD i've gone 100% of the way of a release, sober meditation gets me like 30%, and weed can get me like 70%. I see no reason why someone with more diligence couldn't have my exact LSD experience with just meditation. Granted all this became clear after the LSD breakthrough so maybe you can argue none of this would have been possible without the initial LSD trip blowing my mind open

@WaveInTheOcean Haha nice. I'm with you man i'm all about neo-advaita. I think there's a level of diligence required at first that a lot of people overlook. I've probably gone back and forth now like 1000 times

@WaveInTheOcean I'm not touching this any more I don't want to get banned

These blow ups are really valuable, the key is just not to do lasting damage. I already have 0 reputation so I don't have to worry about that haha. I have to get my shit together here and start acting like a god dam adult. Meditation is the key. 1 hour a day will work wonders if i combine it with some solid habits.

@Javfly33 What did you expect lol

I've been unconsciously trying to get myself kicked from this forum for months. I've done like 10 things that are worth getting me kicked out haha. If I go out i want to go out like WinerKnight

It's all about learning to move through the chakras. Most of us are stick in our lower chakras, stomach, gential etc and it limits us. That's why some people aren't into poetry, beauty etc they have a closed heart(heart chakra). Rapists, murders etc are unsafe and they have unresolved trauma in the lower chakras so they can't move up. This is the root of emotional immaturity. People get stuck at a certain chakra pattern. If you open your heart up and then someone bombs your country your heart will close to survive. Aggression and fear will keep you alive, who has time for love. But some people get stuck at that point of development and don't move up. Want to be smart. Want to know. Knowing. All pointing to the same experience of an active third eye, upper head chakra. People who live in their heads have an overactive third eye, and they are stuck in their heads and don't experience the other chakras in the body. That's how you get a true sociopath. That's why these serial killers etc are so smart. They live in their minds and they are disconnected from their bodies so they can't process the pain, trauma, grief etc. I honestly want to know how many people on this forum have this level of understanding.

So a person's ability to be spiritual is predominantly genetic? What about intelligence? Is a person's ability to be intelligent and reasonable genetic? This is very slippery

Interestingly all this anger and hatred has made me more productive at work over the past few days. I always did well when push came to shove but it's hard to simulate this in normal life. Anger>Depression but Peace>Anger

@fridjonk That's really cool. And yeah when I go out there in the summer it always lights you up a bit just to be in an open area with some nature. I have a great view of the mountains too. We are the 3 farmers haha

Okay enough of this nonsense. Let them be. None of these people have what I want. Helped about a woman at work and she had huge smile and randomly asked me for date and went out of her way to say bye. Not going to lie most woman I work with not so great but shes probably cutest. Zero had best advice when he said don't listen to woman about how to attract woman.

@Preety_India Thank you

I need to stop going back and forth with people here I instantly regret it. I bet If ask 99% of people here are you happy, if they are honest they will say no. It's the blind leading the blind. I know I do this a lot here. I remeber growing up I said I'd never marry an Indian girl. Most of the woman in my family took on masculine parental roles and I still have an underlying hatred/anger towards my mom. Hearing an Indian girl say she would never date someone like is good karma. Within 1 year I bet all these women who threw subtle shade would be eager and willing to have me as a partner. It's so easy to find people who understand non-duality and how to work through chakras. Ha. Give me a break. 95% of men are retarded

@soos_mite_ah If there was a community of advances aliens who figured out lots of problems we are struggling with I would hope they would help us

@soos_mite_ah You can't comment on solutions because you aren't black? Your answer is to go to war with sexism and racism?

@soos_mite_ah Assuming what you're saying is true. What is the solution for the black woman and black culture around issues of beauty/femininity, single motherhood/broken families, and catching up the black community with other communities of color

@fridjonk Wow that's insane. My family has a farm here but it's like 100 acres total across two farms. Did it pass through your family? How much does it cost for that much land jesus. You could start small kingdom with that much land haha

@Zigzag Idiot Wow that's a lot. Haha that's before my time man. Good luck dude appreciate the support when I was at a low

@Zigzag Idiot I was asking @fridjonk but I know you have a farm too. @Zigzag Idiot How many acres are you on Thanks but honestly I want to cut it back. I'm too radioactive

@fridjonk Wow sweet farm. How many acres do you have? Do you only raise cattle or do you grow crops too?

I wonder what % of men would satisfy what was being talked about in the discussion. There was always a small % of men I never talked to growing up, and everyone else I talked to was more or less a typical man to varying degrees. Maybe there lots of emotionally intelligent conscious men walking around. I don't hold tightly to any beliefs about dating honestly, maybe I should have said that too when giving advice. First and foremost I'd say integrate with no-thing, ala Rupert Spira. He has a great quote, Be in Love and Do Whatever You Want. This is my philosophy first and foremost. If it feels way better to be wrong about all that stuff then i'd happily drop all my conceptions. I thought it was kind of funny when a bunch of posters insinuated they wouldn't date me haha. I guess because i'm foreword looking I don't put much stock in who I am now because I know how rapidly things change when you can surrender, but I was tempted to respond. I really don't know how many men my age are as conscious as I am, plus I'm tall good looking and I have family money. I think people can sense my psychopathic psychology so i don't blame them for being put off, but if a woman was smart and looked at the trajectory of my life and how my mind will develop I believe overall i'm a total catch. But I also wouldn't want be interested in the posters either so to each their own. I think I look down on too many people here it must come across aggressively. I know some posters trigger me just how they post haha I can't imagine how I make some people feel reading my responses. But I feel confident that following their advice is a mistake. Give it to god.