BlessedLion

Thanks for the insight @Michael569! I had never heard of the age factor before in Tao, interesting. I am in my 20s but the more i read on Semen Retention , the more i feel retaining could give me the extra energy and drive to get the shit done in life i want. Also, couldn't agree more on if it is to be expelled, doing it only during actual sex. Wanking is for chumps

Hello fellow self-actualizers, I would like to get your insight on this, especially if any of you have done something similar. Currently I am living alone in Mexico by the beach. All day i sit on the beach, read, meditate, surf, and do some work on the laptop if needed. I have never been really this alone and not trying to socialize while i am hereo. I was inspired by many of Leos' videos with the theme of us losing our essence and joy of "being" because of so many distractions in todays world. I am finding the more i sit around without much to do, like on the weekend i remove all distractions even surfing and books and just sit there.\, a lot of shit comes up, anxiety, restlessness, anger, and i begin to feel depleted and depressed. A conscious part of me is able to witness it and let it go in a sense but it seems to come back harder and stronger. As the days go by i feel like i am working through a lot, but how much of this is actual detoxing, like this restlessness and anxiety is leaving me and how much of it is just illusion? Like i am just restless because i am sitting around doing nothing and suffering unnecessarily? Will this go anywhere? I want to believe that a state of peace in being will come if i sit with myself in awareness long enough but it is getting more and more tempting everyday to fall back into old distractions (porn, drinking, partying, etc). I suppose this is ego backlash in the moment, just hard to see when i am burried in it. Anyone have experience with anything like this? Thanks! <3

@GreenWoodsThank you for the video man, will check it out!

@Chumbimbawow man thanks for the encouragement on that, i needed to hear this. I will keep what you said in mind and stick this out to the end and see what unfolds. Congrats on your success with it

@Maya_0 Thank you for the insight, I just needed to be re assured that this is actually a purification process and not just sitting around for no reason. Mindfulness will help @Nahm Uh, yeah i am...haha

You don't have to give up sex forever, just until you stop letting it control you. I am working on the same shit, but watching porn and shit is not getting you anywhere. If you give it up for a bit to do shadow work and transcend that need it will come back as a joy and not a need.