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Yes I am. Before I forget, if I'm not mistaken NoFap is a recently formed ideology (5-10 years ago) similar to the black/blue/red pill ideology, so this is actually a good time to observe how you attach yourself to this 'addiction recovery program' at an early stage, and how this attachment grows over time, and if you can compare other ideas and beliefs you're attached to for decades. Also pay attention to the suffering that comes up when someone points out any limitations of NoFap. Even though the founder did say that this recovery program is not a movement, he did not take into account that movements come form the majority of followers that Subscribe to the idea and blindly believe what is proposed, thanks to how fast information spreads in the internet. The only difference this new recently formed ideology has compared to older established ideologies ,like religions, is that 'benefits' occur faster and is backed up by more persuasive evidence like neuroscience and hormonal effects. I'm happy for the one year journey I had with NoFap, the positives and negatives, and now I can say NoFap is good to a point. NoFap, like every impermanent object, will one day have to be let go and detached, because this too shall and must pass. Good luck with your personal journey!?
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As long as you don't get blue balls frequently, hyper aggression towards men and women, and staring at the ceiling all night, then NoFap is for you!
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I'll give my take on this. It seems like the man on the video is immersed in stage Orange thinking: he rationalizes this issue of men having less sex by first presenting himself as scientific and rational, and shifts the issues of decrease in sex drive to external factors like pornography and female hypergamy, and subtlety blames stage green groups (#metoo) for young men's decrease in sex. Interestingly, female hypergamy is actually mostly a stage Orange female based view on men(with few elements of stage red thinking/manipulation) based on physical attraction, material luxury increase(more make-up, dress, jewelry...), Out doing her female friends, ect... He hasn't realized yet that his view is very relative and changes meanings based on where you're at in the spiral. At stage baige, these things are insignificant, because the organisms here are immersed in survival. At stage purple, these issues are almost insignificant, except when there's tribal warfare at play. and seed honouring takes place. If you happen to be within a tribe, and you do have sex problem, their solutions include prayer to the sex god/goddess, and magical ritual and offering a wild boar's penis and testicles to suit your peculiar issue. At stage red, because of the increase in egoic impulse and selfishness, this issue is insignificant, unless he/she has this issue. Their solutions to this sex problem is, more sex! Get more women! And blame it on that suspicious looking man there, or that other woman, or anything else but you. Most solutions will be impulsive and selfish and heavily manipulated. They wouldn't care if this issue affects other but themselves. Mostly criminal and evil ways. At stage blue, if this issue effects most of the group, solutions will mostly be based on traditional ways, religious ways like abstinence until marriage, mostly Orthodox ways of dealing with the issue. At stage Orange, this issue would be treated using rational thinking, material ways like western medicine, and empowering the individual's self confidence through putting that man/woman into competitive situations with the hope the person pulls himself/herself together. If failure, then it's just them being lazy, or there's something wrong in their heads, or something wrong with their sex organ, or maybe this person's a snow flake or a LGBT thing. Maybe this person's a victim of those darn smelly hippies, they softened him/her up with their wishful woowoo nonsense! They're turning young people into veggies! And so on... At stage green, a solution to this decrease in sex is filtered through their values of emotional connection, love, community that has a wider circle of concern, humanism, higher moral development. They may include alternative medicine and methods that are unconventional and outside the mainstream conventional ways, maybe channelling sex/love related spirits and use of psychedelic ect... At stage yellow, this issue is dealt with systematically, taking a more holistic view of the person's sexual health/ young people's health, their biological health like the hormonal systems, their nutrition, their innate genetics, psychological needs and traits, upbringing, social conditions. They would solve the roots cause of their individual/collective problem, and work with experienced experts at specific fields in relation to the individual's issue about sex and various other factors, ect... At stage turquoise, the issue would be dealt with through use and synthesis of spiritual methods tied to paranormal and energetic methods. The solutions would be a fusion of high science with high magical means, and mystical experiences, through encouraging the individual/ collective here with this issue to integrate themselves, ect... Finally, even the words I write is relative to my and your level of cognitive development, moral development, lines of development, words with meanings tied to different shadow selves, and language barrier, as well as subject to the mind's ability to generalize, distort, distract, deny, substitute, blame, judge, demonize, idolize and conveniently forget information and habits that has very high chances of killing it. I tried saving a stray cat that lost a mating battle, and consoled it with my high levels of understanding, empathy and compassion, because cat lovers told me their kind and gentle cuties, and I agree too!? The cat, however, was having none of my understanding and compassion. It swipes it's paw left and dented in my right cheek.? despite the hurt, I now have a pet cat, and I still show my love and understanding to the stray cats that visit, including the swipes left cat, but at a distance.? Thanks for reading, and have a great journey!
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@Lento NoFap is an ideology that is designed implicitly as an addiction recovery program that specifically targets strong addictions to pornography. I've done some self experimental work on NoFap on myself, because I have had a light addiction to watching porn and masturbating to that, 1-2 times a day. I joined because I had personally suffered from some degree of lethargy, laziness and Brian fog. This is what I found after a year of nofap: some peaks of energy, some increase of productivity and not so much brain fog. Also increase in confidence, less social anxiety, more will power, clarity in thinking and more presence/appreciation. I also discovered somethings I didn't expect: Insomnia, increased aggression towards men and women, paranoia around failing to 'beat my nofap streak', paranoia about my sexuality, and others sexuality. Obsessive resistance to horniness, disappointment to random erections I had. Strong negative attitude towards 'sex addicts', and Pornography, putting celibate monks and spiritual master's on a pedestal, and too much thinking and supporting NoFap that I sometimes find myself dogmatic. Increase in mood swings(perhaps the same conditions Victorian women suffered from). I identified as a 'fapstronaut', 'nofaper', and clung to those labels. If you do have strong compulsory behaviors on Pornography, then NoFap is for you, from my experience. However, if you don't have severe pornography addiction, and you have benefited from NoFap, I think it's time to forget it and move on. I'm in the process of getting rid of this ideology out of my system, because I'm already benefited from it. To me, it's good to a point. Of course, every ideology and it's following hates whistle blowers, but I think NoFap is weak: it relies on demonizing pornography, reliance on spiritual literature/techniques and praises celibacy despite having nothing to do with the original aim of NoFap, and demonizes masturbation regardless of the individual and his/her circumstances. To me, it's starting to be similar to black/blue/red pill ideology, and it's limiting me. I hope I'm not offended you or anyone reading this. @Lento Your welcome! ?
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@fridjonk @Johnny5 Transcending hate is not an entry requirement to transitioning to higher levels. You can have hateful immigrants coming from stage red/blue villages, to arrive at a stage blue/Orange/green society, that still have the majority of their psyche as stage red/blue values, who is will hate different cultures and places and circumstances at the beginning, and very quickly will appear stage blue/Orange/green in that society, will still having that hate in their psyche. In the short term, that hate is actually useful for you to use against people who're as toxic or more toxic than you. And compounding that hate is just differences in worldviews and personality between people and the lack of awareness. Part of hatred is a natural occurrence when trying to transition to a higher stage voluntarily, but not involuntarily. Involuntary transition is a forced circumstance on the individual/group (running away from a war, to a different land, forced to adapt to the land and people there). Voluntary work to transition to a stage is where you are more receptive to this hate, while involuntary transition is treated as a given. You're right to transcend hatred, actually! In the long term. As we're growing up, we soak in people's views and the environment. When we experience negative feedback from people or the world, we tend to disown that part of us that triggered that negativity. Furthermore, when we encounter people resembling that disowned part, we project outward onto that person that negativity, denying we have that negativity in us, further disintegrating ourselves. This is how shadow selves are formed, with the common negative emotion like hate. That's why doing shadow work and understanding different points of view, voluntarily working on yourself, is very important. I'm not dismissing you guys views, I'm elaborating on this.
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Danioover9000 replied to Malekakisioannis's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I agree about the distinction between psychosis and enlightenment. the psychosis is more commonly dormant in the person's innate limitations of brain and body, whereas in enlightenment, during awakening, it can bring up powerful energies that can either temporarily cause psychosis, or permanently cause psychosis. It sucks for people who have psychosis, Because it really can create dysfunction and more misery. I worked with these people, and someone I know suffers from schizophrenia that he couldn't function normally in his life, having to depend on medication and additional support. It's a horrible way to live. I don't care what or how you got to enlightenment, you're gonna have to come back to the market place, and be of service. Conflating psychosis with enlightenment and acting as if it's no big deal reeks of ignorance and unsympathy to the people suffering psychosis. For those who still conflate psychosis with enlightenment, go and help out in the asylums, or care home, or are you scared of losing your enlightenment in a moment of annoyance, thinking that it's still all illusion, all nothing? -
And for the husband, if you're gonna practice either karezza or Tantric sex, it's possible to experience orgasms that's non ejaculatory. I've had them, and they're great! Though typically it's likely you might get blue balls early on. So, it's ok to release most times and be mindful of any negative emotions that come up later.?
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The law of averages and probability. Literally, if you approach in an area with enough bodies, go through an elimination process, you're bound to get the one girl that resonates with you. But, you're gonna have to go through lots of bodies til you lose count. Probably refering to physical/mental disorders, the kind that makes you liable to see a therapist/clinician or hospital. You know you, so if this applies to you, seek help. If not, ignore and develop yourself. Just be careful not to pigeon hold yourself so soon. And that way of thinking is what's gonna slow down your journey painfully. You gotta ask yourself what do you want out of this? What? More sex and honeymoon? Long term relationships? Approach every woman with that goal in mind, like a transaction. Your gonna be putting hours into this, arranging the location, and engaging each date socially. That all takes time and energy. Your paying that cost for what? Get that clear for yoursel and yourself only. Think about Hercules, and the 12 labour's he had to go through, to take up that princess's hand in marriage. I've got good news: you're bound to meet your goddess, who is highly sexed and loving, and told me she agrees to submit herself to you as your future soulmate and wife. Here's the catch: only if you agree to submit to her 1,200 labours, each one her follower, each one capable of bringing out your fears, your hang ups, your weaknesses! And if you fuck up even once, she'll add another 1,200 labours, cuz right now, she knows you're too full of impurities right now to even be worth her time, and she's a bit evil. So! decision time, gonna answer the call to action? At least you ain't slaying Monsters.?
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Well, not only does it depend on the stage, but also the moral development, cognitive development and lines of development that you're at. Keep in mind that to transition from a stage to a stage, you'd experience what's called a transformational dilemma, which can feel uncomfortable to go through, because each stage has this homeostasis, where if you're born and raised in this worldview, your psyche also sums itself up with ideas, life experiences and the culture of that stage. It's like you're made up of colored jelly, and your moving through to a different colored region, but there's a barrier that will shred most of you, the jelly, in order for the psyche to make space to assimilate the next region. Except, it's still stubborn, and there's no pain killers to numb the pain. You'll have to feel it throughout, and integrate it. In this case, you'll be traveling to stage green, so my short advice is to take it slow and steady. I recommend Ken Wilber, who added these developments onto spiral dynamics, and Carl Jung, for the shadow work. Definitely, this process can sometimes be slow and painful, but hang in there. Might be also useful to develop visualizations for a lifestyle that looks like the next stage, and keep integrating, along with spiritual methods like mindfulness and so on. I'm keeping this short, not to derail the OP's thread, even though it's relevant. I can easily do hundreds of pages of deep analysis, on and on. But really, that's just me doing your workout routine. I've shredded myself more than enough, and am not gonna steal your shredding process onto me. I don't even know what you actually are (pun). Go and do practice, and practice will do you!? Have a good journey, you and OPs.
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@Rebecca Kalamata @Lento @Shin Again, nudity, porn, and masturbation is relative to where you're viewing these on the spiral. If you were raised in a stage blue society ( religious, traditional culture, conservative, national...) You would have different views on these things compared to a stage Orange rational scientist or business owner, realist or pragmatist, compared to a humanist, hippy, millenials, SJWs, feminists on stage green, compared to visionaries, Revolutionary thinkers on stage yellow, compared to zen masters, taoists, and yogis on stage turquoise, compared to stage red gangsters, rapists, con artists, psychopaths, sociopaths, compared to tribes in Indonesia, Africa, on stage purple, compared to other creatures on stage baige. Of course, there's plenty of psychological needs and baggage around nudity, porn, masturbation, mostly unconscious. While shadow work lacks the complexity of spiral dynamics, it makes it up with detph and intensity, especially around traumas. As I'm working on myself, I'm beginning to appreciate how tricky it is to do deep work on myself. I'll leave you with two cases that happened in Africa, you can verify for yourselves if you want. These are just food for thought, take it or leave it. The first is a case about a woman. She ended up getting raped, and the rapist was shot dead by the armed police. The rapist here is unique, because he's not the same age, the same race or even the same species. It turns out the attacker is a gorilla. Yes, a gorilla was forcing itself onto the woman. The next case involved multiple deaths among African tribes men, and a pair of British hunters were hired to hunt down two killers. Turns out, the two killers were young male lions, that developed a taste for human flesh, and together they stalk and hunt down tribes men, like a sport. So, it appears that humans are not the only evil perverts on the planet. If this is possible, what else is?
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More importantly, are you actually doing the approaches? Best time to contemplate is while you're interacting with the subject you're interested in. After a while, you compiled a long list of mental images, sounds and feelings with each approach, and here you then contemplate from memory. Good luck!
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Not sure about the hoaxes, but I like to think that trump won with pure skill of manipulation. He's just too good to overcome. As for Brexit and the resurgence of conservatives, it's a majority decision to vote out from us only. The EU and UK just have this historical conflict with each other that any changes in policy is bound to be slow. I mean with both cultures And the UK is an island, with limited geographic resources, your bound to feel and be conservative wherever you are.
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Well, Brexit is finally here. This day will be in the history books as one of the most triumphant moments for the British people, and for some one of the most impactful, positively if you're British conservative, or negative if you're neither, or negligible if you're something else! I'm both excited from the energies I'm feeling from the people, and nervous for the future of this country. But I smell blood! New opportunities are starting to pop up, and niches not possible are becoming possible. As well as suffering buried deep within, interpersonal/intrapersonal, to a culture and the world, would resurface, to once again liven up those to life again, to be overcome again. So, as both a welcome and warning sign to Britain and the world, let this day bring whatever it brings, Because one way or the other, we know that he would return, and they would follow him, whose name brings fear and Jubilee to all who witness his presence, and chant his name... Lord Darth Vader! Today, the Empire strikes back!?
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@Shin @weareacouple Before I forget, I actually didn't address your actual question, sorry. Nudity, porn and masturbation are only considered bad relative to the individual/collective's view from their stage of the spiral. When a tribe king (stage purple) wants to visit the royal family and Queen Elizabeth (stage blue) the queen/royal family refuses the visitation, because of the traditional/monarchical and conservative view about nudity that disallows a savage looking king, despite how the king thinks that they're both equal because of title and rulership, and how he normalized to his and his tribes appearance. The difference in world views is too great for both to recognize. Same with Pornography (Sigh), and masturbation. How bad it is is relative to the individual/collective's stage and worldview. Sure, viewing porn videos and paying for their services is supporting that industry, but is masturbation still bad? How about when I go old school, memory is so detailed and vivid that I masturbate to that memory of porn instead? Still evil? Is pornography bad that we should prohibit it? Remember the alcohol prohibition era, where criminal gangs thrived off of the ban? What would that look like with porn instead? See how counter intuitive calling something bad, then moralizing an action against and using a means to spread this ideology? have that running beneath a following's group consciousness leads to more evil, by virtue of their collective ignorance. It all depends on how it's used, and if you're doing it consciously. Conscious nudity, conscious porn, conscious masturbation, and any issues that creep up in your awareness will auto correct. This is key, because evolution is still ongoing, and Maya is continuing to refresh it's illusions. Porn industry today, mostly stage orange with a few red elements, will die off in several decades, a century or so, and become stage green porn, tailored to stage green people. Is it still bad, then? No. With enough consciousness, you won't be too bothered by it any more, because of other factors like old school masturbation, having a relationship, development of sexuality, integrating the shadow, on and on. Of course! Relative to what we got now, To a healthy psychological person, on the path of growing more consciousness, that future is good to work to. To sex workers, pimps, sex traffickers, porn stars, prn industry CEOs, porn consumers, all mostly at stage Orange, that future is so threatening they instantly call it evil, and will find ways of demonizing that version. Have a good day, and if this isn't really an issue for you, then continue doing what you both do, until you both are satisfied and move on to newer experiences, creating more joyful and fonder memories together. ?
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@weareacouple To be honest, this is the first I've come across users this open about their sexuality. So, congrats on an amazing, higher than average sex life! I'm now motivated towards improving my own as well! I would consider it an addiction if it becomes compulsory behavior. Like if while I'm working, I have the urge to fuck, and I'm resisting more than usual to relieve myself, and if this occurs daily, I would consider that compulsory. Or when I'm doing my hobbies, like drawing, and a mental sexual image comes up and I feel pretty horny and now I'm resisting it trying to change the nature of my subject, and it's gradually increasing, that's compulsory behavior. Or when with family and friends, if I'm really addicted, and resisting the urge while being with them, that's compulsory. Or secretly wanting to fuck some of your friends, whilst resisting it on a daily, that's compulsory behavior. Or any bad habits that are personal, like nail biting, fiddling with fingers, slight rocking back and forth, these are subtle compulsory behaviors. Yes there are obvious intense compulsory behaviors, and subtle compulsory behaviors. Or if you're doing something online, like banking, or Facebook(any social media), or watching videos and there's another window about porn, I would consider that compulsory if that's repeatedly done. This would ultimately come down to one or both of you deciding to either maintain or change this lifestyle. If you're familiar with spiral dynamics, and interested in moving up the spiral, then your values on sexuality and sex can change as you go up. The sex, overtime, say used to consist of mostly normal sex positions like doggy and missionary or other variations that is mixed with intimacy/dominance with the thinking about how useful/transactionary this sex is, expecting to receive as much as you give (stage Orange thinking), might at some point look like stage green, were you involve more intimacy in positions, hands, feet and kissing, regarding more about how the other is feeling than you are,even involving other people (stage green thinking), and if you keep at it, it might become something like Taoist style sex, karezza and Tantric sex, with the aim of having mystical experiences/awakening/paranormal experiences/ enlightenment through the sex, and it could keep getting more radical and spiritual, that even comparing Tantric sex or Taoist style sex to these newer forms of sex is too bizarre, yet it's evolution happening. So, I hope both of you are not addicted to sex, and if you are, then I hope you both recovery over time. Good night!
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Alright! Finally! My issue is being resolved. An external source has verified to me so far that this is a curse sent from America. The source says that so far it started a decade ago when I've accidentally bumped into someone, and that person took it too personally and was charging this thing with energy with a moodiness. I'm like WTF?! I'm suffering for something so small?! The source is continuing the investigation. I'm feeling much better, headache is going away, and my energy is back! And the lights significantly faded and am feeling much better! It was an expensive service, my piggy bank took a hit, but it was worth it! The source is currently reversing this curse and is tracking it through the astral and locking down this person's negative energy towards me. I have zero clue how any of this is working behind the scenes, but the source is pretty experienced.
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Lol, I can relate to the feeling. My first date started at a café. Was a Bulgarian style cafe. As I came in I see lots of color, decor, two double Windows on main red door, six potted plants on top, and a leafy long grass plant on right side. There's a guy with a light bluish Long sleeves on right, sitting on a dark brown chair at red table on his MacBook. On my left a disheveled light bearded man, a geek, at a light brown table, his black jacket hangs on his chair with his black backpack on his right side and he's using a small desktop computer. I saw five more tables that're yellow, cream, dark reds and light browns with chairs that're varied in size and color, like the café is diversified! In front of me, after the yellow table I saw a brunette at a light brown table in a pink long sleeve, dark blue jeans, pinkish skin, chubbish, doodling on her iPad with her unpainted nails. There was also a staircase, which was after the yellow wall that had about six b/w paintings of musicians, which was after the long grass plant. I've been up there before so I know how much lighting the area has and how much more uniform the chairs and table were. It had fancy lamps that give off a dim Orange light, which would be perfect for night outs. I decided to sit at the yellow table, on a black chair, Because the lighting was brighter, the rays next to the table give me a clear view of date. It was a sunny clear day. Two tables behind me I saw a dodgy looking man , with a black cape with a dark grey jacket, facing towards the red wall which has four small paintings of landscapes that's grass and forest, away from me. So I'm sitting there, having a large mocha, tapping my feet lightly on the dark wooden flooring, when I hear the little bells on the red doors ring. I see my date arrive. She's blonde, has tan skin, and wears light make up and is dressed lightly, with a floral dress past her knees, and a bluish light jacket. So I greet her while she walks, her high heels clicking on the wood, and she helps herself to the brown chair, scraping the legs as she sits. I had to re position myself and leaned back onto my chair, while I see She's up right and slightly forward. I felt insecure and a bit tense around my body, I was getting a bit of a boner and my abdomen is a bit tense, reminding me of some experiences with some boys and a few girls that bullied me in the past, and on fewer occasions became violent. Her voice was smoother and her flow of the conversation nicer than mine, I was juggling between keeping myself calm and maintaining my tonality and part of the conversation easy going, and my voice ended up being more monotone and flattish at times. While we were talking, we shifted our positions a bit, from leaning to forward, listening intently on interesting parts of our stories, and she'd be sipping her cappuccino. At the end, she left first and I remained sitting there, re ordered a mocha, and stayed for 2 more hours there, thinking about what a colossal failure of a date this is. To this day, my first date and I still remained friends. I then still continue dating, changed locations from time to time, and did about 50 dates in total. I did other methods like PUA stuff, and other dating stuff, until I stopped avoiding to do the one other method I wasn't keen on doing: magic spells, cuz, well, hippy new age woo woo wishful mistletoe thinking crap. Before I invested heavily on it, I decided to do some browsing around an oil spell shop, and there I met my now witch girlfriend. The end of my dating! Don't forget what Leo said " People's opinions of you are irrelevant", which does mean that other people's opinions on anything is irrelevant. Learning and practice while in your direct experience and visualizations is what got me to burn through 98% of people's bullshit, including my own, while verified the other 2%. that 98% consists of opinions about fucking the girl's brains out, one night stands, moving on to the next number, over enforcing your boundaries, being super polite, under enforcing your boundaries, letting the girl dictate your schedule and time, all irrelevant! So, good luck with your dating journey! Remember, this is all an echo chamber of opinions hanging about in space, like in the night sky, when you see the stars, some of those lights are stilll traveling, but those stars are dead long ago.
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I think to develop personal development ethics you need to research and experience. That's it.
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@Conscious life ?
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@OctagonOctopus @mandyjw Thanks for posting! I'm actually a pretty healthy guy. I've been not sick or ill with the common cold, flu, sore throat or hay fever for the past 2 years. Today I felt like a zombie, I couldn't get any sleep last night! At the moment the coffee is keeping me awake during the day. I really felt medicated throughout the day, like I'm zoned out. My diet isn't quite the issue as I'm very picky on what I eat. The headaches I'm noticing are now coming and going not as frequently, and the strange light is getting a bit slower and a bit faded, now it's over my curtains. And I'm searching the web, looking for what the hell this thing could be. I also noticed moments of cramping on my right shoulder. I'm going to bed soon, and I'm worried it's gonna be another sleepless night! Come on, any ideas on what this is? I've never had this before. I did a post about the haunting I had, but this is quite different from that. Is it likely something paranormal? Then again, I get the feeling it's coming from someplace very distant. Is it related to me overworking myself?
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Am I getting colder? As I'm typing I feel a bit chilly and the faint light is still over my towal. It's getting slower in movement. This fogginess I'm feeling is still the same, along with the headaches (sigh). I actually wish I feel more tired now, Because whatever this is is keeping me up. Along with the annoying feeling is now some anxiety and some fear. Slight shaking is occurring. Have I done something wrong? Before bed I did some visualizations and concentration on my breathe. I probably was over concentrating on my breathe and images. I'm now counting sheep and doing my very best not to freak out, and am trying to be mindful and let go of whatever is happening. I don't want to trigger this light into some frenzy from any sudden movements from me! I got a bad feeling. Guys, I could really use some help! This is a first for me. I almost don't have things like this happening to me daily. Jesus, the room looks like it's getting a bit thicker, and I'm having some weird thoughts coming up. Ok, breath in and out, in and out...
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It's now past midnight and oh boy, I'm seeing the lights again. I'm feeling a bit awful and tense. A bit more headaches and fogginess. Jeez, at this rate I'm gonna be up all night! I'm trying to not directly look at it, turn around and just sleep. But I just feel on high alert, that whatever is on my towal is danger. I'm starting to feel annowed on top of feeling fear and foggy. What's going on?
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@Buba It is possible to resolve your own issue. I agree it's difficult and sometimes painful to change, but it's possible, not impossible. I've resolved my gayness this way. You wanted positive affirmations and visualizations that follow your intent? There's plenty in the internet, but nothing compares to this: your own intention, your own visualizations/affirmations, and the will to keep going. You designing your own way to resolve your issue yourself! However, there's a price: lots and lots and lots of hard work. Work on your will, work on your affirmations, work on your visioning, work on your prayers, work on your actions, work on letting go, work on your creative force! How do you think Allah came to be powerful? Just sitting and doing nothing? Or extreme hard work, to the point it does not need it's own image?