Danioover9000

@Conscious life ?

@OctagonOctopus @mandyjw Thanks for posting! I'm actually a pretty healthy guy. I've been not sick or ill with the common cold, flu, sore throat or hay fever for the past 2 years. Today I felt like a zombie, I couldn't get any sleep last night! At the moment the coffee is keeping me awake during the day. I really felt medicated throughout the day, like I'm zoned out. My diet isn't quite the issue as I'm very picky on what I eat. The headaches I'm noticing are now coming and going not as frequently, and the strange light is getting a bit slower and a bit faded, now it's over my curtains. And I'm searching the web, looking for what the hell this thing could be. I also noticed moments of cramping on my right shoulder. I'm going to bed soon, and I'm worried it's gonna be another sleepless night! Come on, any ideas on what this is? I've never had this before. I did a post about the haunting I had, but this is quite different from that. Is it likely something paranormal? Then again, I get the feeling it's coming from someplace very distant. Is it related to me overworking myself?

Am I getting colder? As I'm typing I feel a bit chilly and the faint light is still over my towal. It's getting slower in movement. This fogginess I'm feeling is still the same, along with the headaches (sigh). I actually wish I feel more tired now, Because whatever this is is keeping me up. Along with the annoying feeling is now some anxiety and some fear. Slight shaking is occurring. Have I done something wrong? Before bed I did some visualizations and concentration on my breathe. I probably was over concentrating on my breathe and images. I'm now counting sheep and doing my very best not to freak out, and am trying to be mindful and let go of whatever is happening. I don't want to trigger this light into some frenzy from any sudden movements from me! I got a bad feeling. Guys, I could really use some help! This is a first for me. I almost don't have things like this happening to me daily. Jesus, the room looks like it's getting a bit thicker, and I'm having some weird thoughts coming up. Ok, breath in and out, in and out...

It's now past midnight and oh boy, I'm seeing the lights again. I'm feeling a bit awful and tense. A bit more headaches and fogginess. Jeez, at this rate I'm gonna be up all night! I'm trying to not directly look at it, turn around and just sleep. But I just feel on high alert, that whatever is on my towal is danger. I'm starting to feel annowed on top of feeling fear and foggy. What's going on?

@Buba It is possible to resolve your own issue. I agree it's difficult and sometimes painful to change, but it's possible, not impossible. I've resolved my gayness this way. You wanted positive affirmations and visualizations that follow your intent? There's plenty in the internet, but nothing compares to this: your own intention, your own visualizations/affirmations, and the will to keep going. You designing your own way to resolve your issue yourself! However, there's a price: lots and lots and lots of hard work. Work on your will, work on your affirmations, work on your visioning, work on your prayers, work on your actions, work on letting go, work on your creative force! How do you think Allah came to be powerful? Just sitting and doing nothing? Or extreme hard work, to the point it does not need it's own image?

Ok then. I wanted to point it out for anybody reading. Wasn't my desire to start a debate, sorry if I triggered you. I find it's too obvious for me that it's silly peddling black/blue/red pill ideologies. Somehow, people still get charged up and dogmatic over it. While I don't know much about anyone's upbringing, personalities and preferences for these ideologies, I'm still learning and open minded to them. Exploring and experimenting. If you don't mind, could you share what brought you to your understanding of red pill? Thanks for reading.

I wouldn't know where to begin either? Black pills taste too salty for me, blue pills are too bitter, and red pills have this minty sweetness, especially after a blue pill. Probably placebo. To me, black pills are negligible, while blue pill is actually more worthwhile than red. Why? Without the blue, there'd be nothing for red's standing, it has to prop itself onto blue's victimhood and women's manipulations. That, to me, makes it worse than toxic garbage. Like some disabled ideology that needs other ideologies and victims to parasite off of. I don't know if reliance on pills is sustainable for the long run. Even worse, as we're being, we're swimming in a sea of shit yet realized and perpetuated by most people unconsciously. Maybe this is it. The real deal.

@Dumuzzi @Kalki Avatar are you both satisfied with where this thread is at? Went from one user asking a simple men's dating advice to intensely charged discussion on patriarchy/matriarchy, men's rights/women's rights, PUA dating/classical dating, swathes of narratives for women's victim mindset/ men's victim mindset, maybe hints of black/blue/red pill (maybe another pill), MGTOW/metoo. I'm not bashing, I just noticed a pattern forming. Also, keep in mind that we're still inside a egoic collective that consists of male egoic collective and female egoic collective, sub divided into different cultures, sub divided into age, into biologically body parts, into gender roles and sub roles, into sexual directions. With a mix of narratives and a dash of distortion and denial with a pinch of suffering, and we got a mean Monterey of a problem. a collective problem firstly, not an individual problem. Took me a while to notice it, but wow, it really isn't an easy problem. I don't mind mentally entertaining a Leo guru PUA, but it's not an ideal use of time. I'm tempted to find something more valuable than a man or a woman to pursue. We've got more than enough bodies here. I don't know anyone's or OP's intentions to pursue dating, but further theorizing is'nt the solution. Maybe the OP's topic is already answered, regardless of OP, and this thread has/is mutating issues from different topics, cramming into one, compounding the issues. I don't know if continuing would shed more light into this morphing problem or add more confusion from related to unrelated issues, but it's worth a shout out to anyone's awareness in case this slips under the radar.

If she was here to learn, then there would be more asking questions from her to other users about whatever topic is discussed on thread and giving advice when needed. I agree that it may look harsh for banning her, but she executed poorly, being religiously dogmatic, again and again and again. Also, her 3 latest posts, on top of being dogmatic, rubs against meditation, spiritual work, psychedelics and awakening, which is Leo's leading purpose here, which some mods and him are doing the work. What do you expect? A slap on the wrist? Especially on awakening and enlightenment? It's brutal work not for the faint of heart. Ideally, keep it very short. If you gonna give advice referencing religious material, keep it short, and paragraphs that follows are to elaborate and relate that info to whoever you're addressing, without the dogma. If you can't execute that without getting triggered and dogmatic when some user questions back, don't reference religious material, and either find some other way of explaining or close it off. People's times are limited. Hypocritical, coming from me when most of my past posts are not useful, and I've trolled on other websites, but I had my moments when I've helped some users and given lots of questions for them to ponder. And for Leo, congrats on your awakening experience!? You looked like a toddler re experiencing life. The post man's timing couldn't get more perfect than it is! ?

@Stakres you are right in that there are multiple models of truth that people should consider to stay open minded. The issue that follows is two fold: these are 'modals' about truth, and confusing ego for 'true self/I AM'. Every modal about truth and frankly anything in reality is partial. It's partial as long as it's an idea. And you can create modals that don't even need to directly interact with reality( modal about gravity vs modal about fleminitynityle): your mind is powerful enough to conceptualize anything and twist it to suit it's survival. Furthermore, through repetition, the modal is made into a belief with a list of justifications for the belief, further complicating things, and all this eventually becomes unconscious. And there are many ways to realize this. If you've had mystical experiences, getting glimpses, depending on the method, it sounds like you had the one were the self dissolves in a moment, revealing the SELF, then self rapidly reforms whilst you're basking in it. Somewhere along the way, you're so amazed at it, it becomes concept, and repeatedly justified as 'true self', becoming a belief you cling to. common mistake. Solutions simple: question your modals, keeping in mind that it's relative, keep open minded, and now work on realizing the 'no-self', however you get there.

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I've accepted the Nofap for 90 days challenge because I used to watch porn/ had sexual fantasies and fapped 1-3 times a day. I wanted to know if all these benefits are either true or false. I'm posting what I've discovered for 42 days of hard-mode Nofap and I'll be posting weekly what I discover. Before the journey: I'm 25 years old, currently living in the UK. I sometimes feel ill once or twice a year. I exercise once a week. I suffer from laziness, fatigue, feelings of defeat and depression. I have little to no contact with people outside of my family, I'm introverted, I'm unable to focus or listen to people. So far into the journey: I haven't felt ill at all, especially the cold I usually get in November-December time. I don't feel as lazy as I used to feel, I'm more productive. Feelings of defeat and depression are significantly reduced. While I somewhat still feel introverted, most people I come across I don't feel as bothered by. My ability to focus, listen and articulate my thoughts has significantly increased. These are some of the benefits I thought were not possible to experience: week 1: I felt more energy, confidence in myself and more sex drive. 2-3 days felt stressful, but I meditate my way through it. week 2: I felt more energy, confidence, more mental clarity, more present, more appreciation of some things, felt more self-control. week 3: I felt the horniest I've ever felt! I felt more energy, more confidence, more present, more mental activity, more grateful, more self-control, more willpower, I felt my dick and balls are larger, I felt more strength and endurance to the point I nearly injured myself doing too many exercises, more emotional, and less tired at night. week 4: Overall the same benefits, except I feel stronger, endure more and feel pressure on my forehead. I felt more alert, present, and could visualize things more clearly, more grounded, more emotional, more happy, more mindful. week 5: I felt more energy, more confident around people, less sexually aroused yet more random sexual feelings arise, more mental articulation, more joy in hobbies and life, more self-control, more discipline, and motivation. physical effects: I sometimes have harder, random erections are more sensitive and harder from random arousing thoughts. My hair feels smoother, my skin is slightly smoother. Side effects: I felt I was going through a strange flatline, had weird dreams, I struggled to relax while sleeping, sleeping less, and I overdid most of my arms and some of my legs and core and had DOMS almost all over. And headaches, headaches everywhere! Been slightly lazier, depressed and had weird dreams. Week 6: all the above, more amplified that it scared and amazed me a little. I really felt so much happiness, creativity, and proper philosophical to the point I could focus, contemplate, self-inquire and meditate so much more powerfully! I've lately picked up new habits like drawing, doing tai chi, and listening to new music. I usually don't like remixes, but lately I'm liking them, especially the Luna Remixes and that artist's music. I could easily create loads of stories and drawings and even start having ideas of making animations and not being bothered at all!

Sorry to hear about your situation. I've been through a similar negative spiral myself and survived. In regards to meditation, I think you're pushing WAY too much. I would do 20-30 minutes of meditation and focus more on hobbies and things I love/like than the negative. Move the body, shake it a bit, because a few of my negative moods occur when I don't move my body enough. Good luck!

I think the main problem is that most people A. still are struggling to fulfill their basic needs, B. have little innate/developed intuition, C. Have little innate/developed philosophical skills and the real kicker, D. don't have access to psychedelics and fear psychedelics. Any chance of immense growth is thrown out the window if you're struggling with all the above, or lack some of them. I'm re-focusing on the more basic videos, as they're starting to be more profound in contrast to his latest videos and I'm getting more value from them. I wish you good luck with your 2020 journey!

It's been more than a month since I've taken on the nofap hard mode challenge and being with a girlfriend. I've lately experienced some side effects: Intense insomnia. Even when I've tired myself out physically and mentally, I still have energy to be wakeful at midnight. Am I experiencing a form of hyper mania or mania that plagued Victorian women? Hyper aggression. Holy shit. Even though I meditate every day, and developed good letting go abilities with doing some tai chi, yoga and meditation, on occasions that're weekly or monthly I go through a phase where I figuratively transform into a werewolf. Do I keep meditating and letting go and treat it like a phase? Too much attention from women. This I started noticing and was brought to my attention by my girlfriend. And this is starting to bother me and my girl a bit. If you have any insight into downplaying this share. I'm at the very least free from Pornography and it doesn't bother me much. I've done a lot of work to unwire this part.

That's a bit tricky to say that. Leo's dangers of spiritual work video do explain that for the majority of mankind, there's either the minority that's born with the right genes or accumulated the right 'karma' from their past lives to have a stronger start for their spiritual journey. And the other minority with the wrong genes, brain chemistry or karma to still work through that makes it next to impossible to do the spiritual work. This is probably why, one of many other factors, that spiritual masters play coy and tell stories and metaphors to their students: to let the students develop some experience with their practices, get some mastery, and let their egos develop just enough spiritual ego, that it could tank these mystical insights and still be able to function. Bad example: you don't straight away give a child a full glass of wine, or else they get dead drunk. Instead, give a teaspoon, and over time, slowly increase the amount, until one day, the full glass does not affect them so much. This had saved my life one day when somebody drugged my punch juice at a party when I was in high school in the past, and I slipped away from that party and walked home by myself, not too heavily affected. Also, there are problems with the classical way of teaching spirituality, because you could waste a lot of time in one spiritual path, so being so direct with the listener, telling them straight about what's really at the end of the path, can both save that student's life if they really are not fated to do spirituality, or if they are fated to do spirituality and have experience, this 'preview' could help them prepare themselves much more and help speed them to realization compared to the classical way. So, suffering from damage onset muscle soreness might be more helpful in growing stronger than gentler exercises if you want stronger muscles. Actually, sleep and nutrition help much more in growth, but that's something else entirely! And yes, Leo said in one of his videos he's working on a better way of delivering his teachings, that's more compassionate, less icy and rough. Give him a break sometimes.

Well said.

Thanks for your suggestion. I might reconsider being in this Nofap state. Both my girlfriend and I love to experiment around with our lovemaking, including making it spiritual like astral sex. She'd be the death of me if we'd do it in diamond lotus Thanks for your suggestions! All I got to do is exert myself a bit more in my exercises, my hobbies and take some melatonin and get used to chamomile tea. When you say soak in the horniness, do you mean 'sexual transmutation'? I've heard about it somewhere before. Suggest any methods for sexual transmutation? Speaking about horniness, I've experienced what some would call edging and the 'blue balls'. What I haven't found yet when Nofappers talk about this is that it's even more painful the longer your on Nofap. A week or two in, no problem, just uncomfortable for roughly an hour. A month or more in, was enough to give me cramps for hours. So if I transmute my sexual energy, I keep it short and simple?

Have you learned anything new since you came actualized.org? Anything that helped you?

Basically, don't shoot the messenger, and any disagreements are with personality and presentation.

Thanks, already on the gratitude journaling.

For me, I'm learning way too much theory from him and taking less action. Also, this really depends on where you are at in life and who you are when you discovered actualized.org.

Well said.

I would tell that friend to probably take a break, and just focus on more basic stuff.