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Loved this book! Especially how in the beginning he says that a healthy king unites all other Archetypes within himself. Does anyone know a similar one for woman?

So happy & proud Yey!

HereÄs a great, simple video that explains it very well Also, this video was eye opening for me a few years ago and got me to understand what really happened to me:

What really helped me was realising that, when given enough time, things can only change me for the better.

You feel like that because there’s quite literally is a little boy trapped in a concrete box living inside of you. He's in a ton of pain. Trauma. What happened when you were little? When no one would help you when you were desperate? You numbed out back then to protect yourself from being flooded with pain. But no one ever helped you to re-visit those experiences and work through them. So you're stuck in time. All the pain and imagery is your body helping you by pointing towards the parts of you that want to be healed.

An addiction is always a symptom of something that lies deeper. It's an attempt to avoid pain and thereby a response to human suffering. It doesn't matter much whether you eat chips or cupcakes, smoke cigarettes or gamble. You're looking for a substitute "high" for feeling unwell, because we're typically not taught how to process emotions and trauma. From what I've seen so far working with people, trauma always underlies these compulsions and addictions. A person who's not psychologically damaged in some way doesn't get addicted. You might want to reflect on the relationship with your mother growing up. Has she "nourished" you? In the broadest sense? So you learned that you're worthy of being fed and kept alive? Just throwing out guesses there, but in our younger years our mother is teaching us how to take care of ourselves. However she treats us, we'll treat ourselves later. Having a normal & healthy relationship with food is one of the most basic and primary needs we have. So It's not a weakness or failure of will that you can't "get it right". No tweak in habits or gimmick will help you solve this permanently. I personally struggled with overeating for years. My weight was fluctuating quite a lot and I was always afraid of getting too big. I'd make myself work out, go on diets, but nothing fundamentally changed. It's like I had this intense relationship with food, while for others, it was just a normal part of their day. I hated eating, and I loved it. But I just couldn't get to "normal". Trauma work and deep therapy is the only thing that helped in the end. I understood & re-experienced all the things that went wrong when I was growing up and could finally leave these patterns of self-punishment behind. It's obviously a process, but 95% of my struggle was listed through this kind of work. So start thinking in terms of: Which needs did I not get met as a child? (I made a video about this where I listed the most important needs in case you wanna check it out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bt9rEJnBhH8&t=186s) At what times of the day am I overeating? What's going on in my life then? And how is it linked to my (still) unmet needs? What in my past is unresolved that needs addressing at some point?

I had a lot of fun creating this video Love this community! Much love to all of you guys And Leo of course! You had such an impact on my life!

Thanks everyone for leaving such kind comments here Love you guys!

Haha, couldn't agree more. Cool that you can relate Now this comment made me really happy. It's a little side dream of mine to read audio books on my channel Haaaah, awesome! I love how niche this forum is And yeah the bed needs to go anyways... Did those jumps too many times

@At awe @Thetruthseeker Aww thanks guys I won't be able to sleep tonight from all the nice comments I'm getting, haha @undeather Exciting! Griass di Where are you from?

That's because "men are... " Just kidding!

I just "awwwwwwww"ed all throughout reading your comment. Much love to you!

I've been caught by this feeling It's calling me into the void Nothing to believe in And nothing to call my own

I've done mushrooms maybe 10 times and just haven't found them particularly helpful in terms of trauma integration. LSD is the most psycho-analytical when not taking too high a dose. Great when set & setting is right + you're well prepared. MDMA is ideal, but only if well prepared, with a guide and a very clean substance. It's the only substance that consistently resolves conflict for me, which is really mind-blowing. I remember being so angry at my sister and her boyfriend a couple of years back, when I thought about it on MDMA, it resolved and the anger or upset hasn't come back since then. The situation is completely solved on my end. I only take it max. 1x/year though. In any case, getting in touch with traumas before and working them through to a certain degree will be the best preparation you can do. The trip should ideally be seen as more of a "supplement", than it doing the "heavy lifting".

Haha, me too Thanks so much for your kind comment Much love to you!

Reach out to @flowboy, he's helping people with ADD all the time + has dealt with it himself

Systemic constellation

I made a video about it. Become aware of your needs & what you missed is the first step:

I had a lot of fun creating this

Beautiful. Keep us updated

That's probably true. The problem is that we don't have this kind of awareness as children and all we hear is "I loose support when I go my own way." Children can't put things into perspective yet and they unfortunately always make themselves wrong.

I don't recommend it at all. My experience with mushrooms is that they can be very unpredictable, especially at higher doses. If you do take them, start with very low doses. I also haven't found them particularly useful when it comes to trauma healing. They can make everything even more confusing and have no long lasting effects. There's way better psychedelics out there for what you're looking for. But most importantly, I'd do the foundational work first, before getting into psychedelics. Dip your toes into healing... Keep reading books, consider therapy or retreats <3 What is the specific problem you're dealing with?

Start asking the right questions What happened that you've struggled with depression all your life? What's the root of all of this?

You finish your "unfinished business" with them first, so you can move into real spiritual growth. The problem isn't different stages of the spiral. You haven't fully realised yourself as an autonomous person yet if you still need them to be happy with your decisions, if you're trying to change them and if you're still seeking their approval. I know because I've been there. Until not so long ago, coming home was such a drag. It would end up hurtful every time, someone getting triggered, someone being unhappy about the others life choices. So much pain bubbling up. They are not accepting your true self. And the sooner you realise that, and feel the pain of that, the better. You said you've done trauma healing... What did you do specifically? Has it helped? Have you dealt with the agonising pain of not being wanted for who you are? No amount of intellectual understanding of spiral dynamics will do here ime. It's a feeling process. I understand. My situation is very similar. You can't make your parents happy. You can feed their conditioning, but you can't make them happy. They can only make themselves happy. And you can only make you happy. Much love!