sausagehead

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  1. Sounds like an existential crisis to me, I took just one gram of penis envy before and got my ass tore apart lol. I would start lower but that's just me
  2. How would Ayahuasca pills be much better or different than say taking shrooms? I feel like they are pretty similar and could be used for the same thing in my experience unless maybe we’re talking about having a breakthrough
  3. I take Tadafinil and it does nothing but help with my erections ? Since when does it make you feel different
  4. I’m also interested in this, hoping more people can chime in
  5. How do you ultimately decide what to learn about from moment to moment to improve yourself efficiently? If you’re someone like Leo how do you know whether to be reading spiral dynamics, learning about heavy metal toxicity, politics, game, a new psychedelic, or some other topic in each moment? Do you just follow your curiosity and what’s most relevant to your life at that time? Just kinda feel it out and always be seeking to learn and grow in ways that seem to make the most sense for you to live your best life
  6. Does Kriya yoga actually work? I feel so skeptical probably because I did Kundalini yoga for months and couldn’t tell if it did anything
  7. Anyone here follow Joe Dispenzas and have success manifesting positive changes in their life? I’m super skeptical about this sort of thing
  8. I watched this video where this guy talks about how putting energy into the universe is how you receive from the universe. Essentially the more action you take the more the world gives back. I mean it sounds like common sense on a practically level (nothing just happens on its own) but it also seems true on a deeper more universal level. Is there any teachers or books that talk about the importance of putting energy into the universe?
  9. I seem to have a problem with neediness even while seeing girls in my life. During this month I’ve slept with 2 new girls (that were pretty attractive) and have been seeing my main girl about once or twice a week. Despite that I still feel like I’m starving for more love, affection, and just sex. If I’m not having sex everyday I feel like I can’t be happy. What’s this all about and what should I do? I would see my main girl more often but she works two jobs and is busy most of the time so I’m trying to find someone else who can meet my needs
  10. I’ve suffered an inconceivable amount in my life and I’m at this point where the story in my head about my life is telling me that my life wasn’t “worth it” and that I would’ve been better off not born. This is still the case even if I woke up tomorrow and everything went perfectly for the rest of my life. It feels like nothing could ever make up for the pain I’ve been through. I feel like this is such a scary place to reach in your mind, it’s like nothing makes sense anymore. All I’ve known is suffering and it makes no sense as to why. How can I stay positive or at least be at peace with all the pain? Maybe if I somehow knew that I was paying off a karmic debt or something then I would have a context that allows me to just accept and be at peace with all the suffering but instead nothing makes sense and all this thinking about it makes me want to end it
  11. Seems like it could be posted on the blog or something. Some people might not be able to experience awakening on their own due to mental health or some other type of limitation
  12. I'd like to commit to a regular meditation practice but I struggle to find the motivation because I have some doubt that I will achieve any noticeable improvements in my mental health and well being. I'm curious about other peoples experience who have committed to a daily meditation practice for over a year. I'd like to know if they found it worthwhile and what kind of results they got out of it. This would greatly help me believe in it and commit to it long term. Hopefully this post will also help others who struggle to meditate regularly to become more committed as well
  13. How did you experience both? Did you recover from DPDR and then take a psychedelic without having any issues? I'm mostly recovered from DPDR but I'm afraid to take a substance that could potentially make it worse or even bring it back if I wait until im fully recovered
  14. Which psychedelics would be the most powerful for increasing a persons baseline level of self love? I’m assuming a full breakthrough on a substance like 5meo would be the most helpful but given my mental health I don’t think I’m ready to go that extreme so I’m hoping I could benefit from mediating after taking something more mild like mdma or lsd
  15. Did you pull her straight from the club?
  16. In what ways is your "actual life" different than a dream, especially when pertaining to other people? In a dream the people you talk to aren't real and don't have any perspective of their own. Is that the same thing that's happening when you're awake? (awake as in not sleeping) For example, when Leo is hitting on girls (lol) or shooting a video, isn't he actually experiencing that or do I just think there's some guy experiencing something?
  17. I think this is the one in his live demo https://www.walkinlab.com/products/view/dd-toxic-metals-urine-test-kit-doctor-s-data
  18. Why does this supplement only exist on a few websites?
  19. Is there anyway you can increase your level of consciousness to reach a state of love permanently (while sober of course). David Hawkins would refer to this as calibrating between 500-599. I'm not talking about being enlightened just thinking/feeling from the heart. What would it take to reach this state permanently if it is at all possible?
  20. I can't explain it but when it comes to learning how to be more smooth or successful with women, I feel this desire to explain myself. There's a part of me that wants to tell woman that I had to learn how to be likable and someone that they would sleep with. It's like I want them to reassure to me that learning game involves learning stuff that's kinda arbitrary and that I'm lovable either way. I think I have an unconscious fear of being unlovable and the process of learning how to be successful with women by learning techniques and all these steps seems to reinforce that I'm unlovable. I never really think, oh sweet I can learn game and have more abundance and better relationships. I think more along the lines of, "why do I gotta learn this stuff... why am I so creepy that I have to learn how to properly touch a girl the right way to escalate smoothly... why does a girl just expect me to somehow know how to say and do 100 different things right, and if i dont I get no love from them". I don't have a problem with learning this stuff, I just almost wish girls could tell me it's normal to have to learn and that it's ok to screw up sometimes lol. Otherwise I feel unlovable at the start of my pickup journey and then if i get good, I can see myself developing an ego because I proved I'm lovable now. If I got into a relationship with a really attractive girl I would deep down want to tell her (i wouldn't actually do this) that I had to learn game in order for her like me and sleep with me and then hope that she reassures me that that's a normal thing to do and that I didn't do anything wrong (so cringe lol). Is this all just a fear of being lovable? Also is any of this normal as a guy trying to improve his dating life and options with women? Would higher self esteem just fix all this
  21. This is what I needed to hear but didn't want to lol. Oh well, tbh I'm not much better/different, I kinda just want girls to look a certain way and wouldn't date or sleep with them just because they have it harder from being overweight or whatever. I just have compassion for them especially when it's something they can't help. What I come to realize in dating is that both men and women both have their struggles and neither side can get proper empathy from the other gender because their realities are too different for the most part
  22. I’m not sure how many of you are familiar with a guy by the name Jason Christoff, but according to his research coffee is basically poison and terrible for your overall health. I believe there’s also research out there that states it’s good for your health. Here’s an article that goes over the damaging effects it has. What do you guys think? Has anyone given it up for health reasons? Maybe this guy just bashes coffee as a part of his own agenda ?‍♂️ https://bit.ly/3bcnRbd
  23. Who would you say is the best at actually picking up girls?
  24. Yup, based on my own experience and reading many many recovery stories this is going to be anyone’s best bet. Unfortunately not everyone is physically capable of exercising but I’d say the majority of people are and it should be known by this point that this is where you want to start when seeking recovery. It would have saved me years of torture and trial and error if I knew to try this first. I’ve tried everything from meditation to driving from Las Vegas to Ensenada Mexico (12 hour drive) to smoke Bufo Alvarius and exercising is still the only thing that’s even helped me remotely lol
  25. I already went this route in the past, don’t take psychedelics to try to cure dpdr. It basically just aggravates the disorder and makes it worse. Exercise regularly, eat relatively healthy, process emotions by feeling them whenever you can, and try to stay busy and engaged with life as much as possible. I personally have reached about 98% recovery and I contribute most of my recovery to exercise. Buy a stationary bike or ride an actual bike for at least an hour a day to help your mind/body release the right chemicals and you should start feeling more normal everyday. I had extreme dpdr for the last 14 months and have literally noticed very subtle improvements every single day from doing the things I mentioned above. ps: psychedelics I’ve tried using to cure dpdr. Acid, mushrooms, 2-CB, Bufo Alvarius, 5-meo, ayahuasca, and MDMA. Acid is probably the worst one you can do for this purpose and MDMA was the closest one to being helpful but just don’t take any drugs or medication and let your brain sort itself out naturally without introducing and taking away different chemicals. Exercise exercise exercise that’s all I gotta say. Don’t know why that would help? Doesn’t matter just do it and see for yourself lol. Also too much bread and sugar would temporarily spike my symptoms like crazy so you might want to cut back on those if you’re the same way