Flatworld Crusades

If you have lived in a somewhat toxic environment most of your life, I'd guess your self esteem is pretty shaky. I think a qualified therapist should be able to discover the origin of your anxiety. Can you get to a general doctor soon to ask for medication and therapy help?

To be clear, you are stating that exhausting and torturing your rational mind is a positive thing to do?

You don't say what the actual pattern is. While you state it's about romantic love experiences you've never even had, you don't say why. Is this about specifically not being good looking enough Personality not good enough communication poor too shy Did someone in your past make you feel worthless Was your parents relationship dysfunctional there will be a reason behind the pattern. What specifically do you mean by "working on yourself ,

I agree that the Universe is extremely large and it's not a successful way to create. I also agree that you need to separate concepts for effective imagination. So this is where you want a separate criteria for the purpose of thinking? Gosh, I've been staring at this screen, walking around my home trying to explain this in words. Here we go. I'm an artist and writer. I do digital art, although I get my paints out and go crazy with abstract when I feel the need. To categorise what I do, its all broadly universe spiritual, article writing ,poetry & digital imagery. Then there is my spiritual practise that feeds a lot of ideas into the artistic, and would be the most creative aspect. Each room is decorated if you like with artwork, crystal etc condusive to the creativity of that category. So I have the universe and the 4 criteria underneath feeding up & universe feeding down. I create a cosmos for each. Yesterday I had an energetic task that I thought would be simple, but turned out to have requirements that I both underestimated and were new, plus the end game was not clear. So I had a situation of needing a way to interrogate all of the criteria I already had and look for something that I hadn't defined, other than "looks like". I was working with a colleague whose contributions had to be translated to my system. Im about to create this now and won't call what I think it will look like, as I was pulled up yesterday quite a few time on assumption.

@Peter124 @Inliytened1 I agree that a medication protocol to wind down the severity would be helpful. Its possible that a significant amount of your anxiety is attributable to childhood abuse. You don't mention if you have ever had therapy, however I feel that a short program of counselling will make life much easier to cope with. If you don't know how to access therapy maybe you can find someone on this forum who is familiar with the Canadian system.

Hi, your have posted about quite a few issues, and you have asked many questions. I'll give you my honest response to the things that I think I can add value in. firstly accidents happen. That's why they are called accidents. In the country that I live in there are special insurance components that parents apply to their car insurance to cover them for the types of incidents that you described. Young & inexperienced drivers have accidents and incidents, just a fact. If you own a car and you allow an inexperienced driver to drive your car you acknowledge & take responsibility for any damage to the car. If your parents aren't prepared to accept their responsibly over the car, they should never have allowed you to drive the car. The bike accident. Once again accidents happen. You feel that you have ruined their holiday even though they haven't gone yet because your mother has a sore knee and no glasses. One of the things that you need to take responsibility for when you wear glasses, and are dependent on them, is you have a spare set. Because if something happens to your only set you are walking around half blind until you can get a new pair. So while you may feel some responsibility for the damaging the first pair, that is as far as your guilt or responsibility goes. Your mother is responsible for her eyesight and having adequate glasses or contact lenses at home as well a relationship with a optometrist.

Brisbane, Australia

@leintdav000 have you seen Leonardo Dicaprio's movie "catch me if you can". This guys is a charismatic chameleon who adapts to different social environments and becomes successful in each one. That's the kind of idea that came to mind for me. so what you really need is a more sophisticated social environment.

It's not the talking to yourself that qualifies as a crazy, it's when a different voice answers you in your own head .

You've said you are at the point of having to create your own framework. Does this assume you have been using other frameworks to this point ? If so why have you discarded them? i was doing some work today where part way through it was obvious the current method was not compatible so I am doing something similar at present

I have a question about how to replicate blissful sleep. At times I wake in a state of weightlessness and joy, I don't remember anything about the sleep except other than waking up. I would love to be able to replicate this state every morning. Does anyone have any suggestions?

You have my sympathy in your struggles. I'm not a specialist in personality so there is not much I can do. One question does stand out for me, why are your strongest traits buried under the surface? Surely you would want to lead with your strength?

With respect, this individual spent a lot of time explaining and describing to us about their background and current situation. I feel that dropping a one-liner response in referencing "killing the ego and become enlightened" is thoughtless at the very least. You've not provided any assistance or direction. Frankly it comes across as very dismissive

Yes, I see how this would happen. When you absorb yourself into the other environment how is it that your consciousness awakens to the situation? Is it some kind of energetic realisation and suddenly you realise what is going on, or do you see/hear yourself doing/ saying something that you wouldn't normally do and it brings you back to yourself? Or is it something different? Just thinking if you can keep yourself present with your own belief system and consciousness, something might come of it.

@DrewNows hi, thank for responding again . The sleep meds are from some serious mental health issues I used to suffer. I am slowly coming off them. yes I mean creating more carefree habits. I can see the possibility of mind chatter, and in the past daily tasks would have resulted in some anxiety related behaviour, but I'm all clear now. In fact having an up to date to do list makes me feel organised and peaceful. I do have a meditation routine after going to bed. It's about 10 mins and just relaxes my body mainly. I'm not overly experienced with meditation. I had a very bad experience about 5 years ago and I think my mind is better relaxed in other ways. I have been writing my blog articles on a very ad hoc basis. I'm going to get my white board out and workshop possible topics or areas of interest then develop a list of articles to write so I have them ready to publish well I advance. Thanks for your response, it got me thinking about a few things.

@DrewNows hey. I'm pretty much mental health free. So you are right it was probably being surrended. I'll make an effort to as much a possible complete a task that clears expectations and any residual stress everyday. Which will give me the benefit of having blog articles to spare.

Good questions. When I go to bed I'm in a pretty happy place and I really enjoy sleeping and I sleep well. I take sleep meds which is why I think I can't remember my dreams. Oh!! I've just remembered something. Recently I started to create a blog for my writing, poems and art and it's very satisfying to create and work on. Yesterday I wrote a piece on a subject that is both close to me and one that I'm well versed in. I really enjoyed writing it and I felt it was a very productive day contributing to "my life's work". I wrote a few other pieces for other things I've got going on. I really love the challenge of writing and explaining concepts.

@Serotoninluv I'm really at a loss as to the specifics, but yes they adapt and blend. I do know that this causes them conflict and pain as they are often acting against their values and beliefs. I see where your going here. Serendipity @Gabriel Antonio I agree about using "low vibrational" I was simply reflecting his words

@leintdav000 so you sound very much like a chameleon or a Social Chameleon. I don't know a great deal about them but I have met a couple over the years. I believe that you do lose your yourself in their "lower vibrational energy " I'll contact a friend and come backs to you with what he does

@seeking_brilliance @seeking_brilliance great direction

@David Hammond I appreciate you responding. However im after more daily tactical advice that I can use on my path, not a statement of where you think my path is heading.

I completely agree

I suppose whether or not you defend a situation in your life depends how you feel about the situation. If we have guilt, anger or something like humiliation you may very well get on the defensive. I lived through 5 years of trauma & would practise my responses so I sounded like I was all cool, which gave me more anxiety. Ultimately I realised that my life was absolutely my business only so I stopped giving answers. If anyone pushed I'd say I don't want to talk about it. Extra benefit taking the focus of my issues helped me heal

It's just the definition of natural that is being questioned. In any case Jealousy, in my opinion, is not an emotion that we should be experiencing. Animals evolving in the wild is Charles Darwin, Survival of the fittest, not a jealousy attack.