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I know I dont want to live in America because I don't like the culture. It's too materialistic

I am in between chasing big success and having a simple frugal life where I have the simple things.

@28 cm unbuffed You're right, I just feel a whole in my soul if I don't carry out on my life purpose fully and give selflessly

LOL tinder is beating my ass. Barely any matches for me. I am much better at interacting in person. I am using tinder to burn the neediness out of me. I message them even when I am afraid

Also I would love to travel. At the same time this all seems selfish. I would love to have a huge contribution on the world too

@Roy Good questions. I guess I based my concept of success on how Leo defines it (watched too many of his videos). I want a slow life. I would love to live in Spain. Sedentary I don't like moving fast. I also don't want to be a wage slave. At least 100k a year. Probably a partner but no children (maybe one son ), day to day.. meditation, coding, watching movies, reading, learning, chilling. Hope this gives you perspective

This one of the best books i have ever read hands down !! If you are serious about enlightenment or you just want a really good story to read pick up this book. It made me realize that I don’t meditate nearly enough towards my ultimate goal of awakening. It had me on a emotional rollercoaster the whole time. I couldn’t put it down

As my LP is unveiling I realized I need a lot more knowledge in the two fields I would like to integrate. @Leo Gura you talked about reading textbooks from cover to cover. How has that benefited you ? would you recommend it to someone in college studying two majors ?

Thanks to my mom I had a really deep insight/self-reflection about myself. Last year, me ex girlfriend and I of about 18 months broke up and I have really been shooken up about it. I also lived with her recently and now I know who she is sleeping with so that doesent help. But ever since then I have been deeply bitter, critical and jealous of other people in intimate relationships or people who have more sex or sexual attention than me. I have been for pretty much all my life. Not only jealous of people in intimate relationships, but everyone. I have a belief that everyone is doing better than me in life and that my life sucks and I have to put all this extra work into my life to make it just a little bit functional, but it seems like everyone around me is thriving, Money, career, youtubers, spiritual teachers, even some of you on the forum who have mystical experiences because I have yet to have one. You name it, I will find a way to be jealous/envious of it. The insight came: Me and my mom were driving to walmart and I see a couple holding hands walking down the sidewalk. I say to my mom "It seems like everyone is in a relationship now." In like a cynical, judgemental tone... She responds "Good". It suddenly hit me.. it is a good thing that people are in relationships. Why am I so bitter and angry about that.. then I realized how deeply jealous I am and that I am huge hater pretending that I am so loving spiritual person whos shit doesent stink and that everyone is unconscious but me.. SELF DECEPTION IS A BITCH !! A huge weight got lifted off of my shoulders and it made me realize that I have been suffering from that without even knowing I am suffering from it. It opened my heart up. Anyway my point is how can I create abundance in my life so I can nip the jealousy and hater thing in the butt/bud (I don't know how the saying goes) or just transcend the whole game altogether? Thank you for listening

I have tried and tried and tried again. Yesterday I HAD TWO POPEYES CHICKEN SANDWICHES. I tried to fast today and I broke it in 3 hours. I cant get over my cravings to sugar. Its a huge ego backlash because I cut out sugar and bad food and now I am back on it harder than ever. I dont know what to do. The gyms are closed in my area and I feel myself getting fat. Right when I was doing really good :'(

All I know is I am a wage slave and I want to escape. My boss is a fat fucking dick faced jabba the hutt looking mother fucker.

@Roy Thats why I have steered clear of RSD .Okay ill step back and notice.

How can I be successful on Tinder or Bumble. I have this complex where a girl says I am ugly in pictures but I am attractive in person so how can I win on these apps. If you guys want to know what I really look like I could post a picture Thanks

@Roy I have been calling girls hoes and whores for so long I dont know how to stop. I have been wounded before with women. Girls leaving me for other guys, getting called ugly and laughed and rejection. Thats all i know how to think of girls is as whores. I never thought of a better alternative. I am wounded but I am also in therapy too lmao

Yeah i dont know. Im really confused on this dating stuff. I have had Gf's in the past, but I dont know it just seems like I have lost my mojo. I am looking at tinder and bumble and don't see any women of substance. All I see is hoes, whores and thots. You cant really judge a persons character from a picture, but you can get an idea. Maturity is something I value and modesty. Tinder has the complete opposite. Like girls with their ass out. Maybe they make me feel insecure about my lack of sexual expression, but at the same time the types of women I like are simple and don't try to do too much.

@assx95I have been on NO Fap since November 2017. Currently on almost a month streak. I dont know what I am missing or doing wrong. I still dont feel confident or any benefits like I did before.

One of my favorite games

I am damned if I try and damned if I dont try

@assx95 Im terrible with girls period. In person and on the internetso... I dont know what to do

I had an intuitive dream.In my dream I was a stand-up comic and I made everyone laugh. I felt very energized and blissful when I woke up. My intuition wants me to move to New York and pursue stand up comedy. This is completely left field from my current interests of Psychology,Computer Science and personal development. Also I am not really a performer, and I am not that funny. I am more serious about life, a textbook over thinker and logical. I dont know ever since I had the dream, I have been watching different comedy sets and learning naturally and my vision has become more spontaneous.

Yeah I really like the chakra balancing binaural beats

@Leo Gura He is one of the most underrated spiritual teachers. He is what got me started in this work (you helped too )

Damn bro the balls on you. I COULD NEVER EVER EVER WILLINGLY DROP MY GIRLFRIEND OFF AT ANOTHER DUDES HOUSE TO GET DICKED DOWN. If it works for you though... cool

@Rasheed "Get your ass to the gym" by Planet Fitness

@GodDesireOnlyLove Love you @StarStruck When I lived in Spain I followed Mediterranean Diet. I loved it. I need a more plant based diet because I have a tendency to eat junk food and feel heavy and like an asshole.