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This whole thing is your own dream. So yes spirituality is your own farse. Game you play. Including psychedelics and whatever. As God you transcend all of it too. Just my humble opinion nothing serious at all. (mindfucking myself but it is what it is)

More like this and let your ban hammers serve you well our new Overlords. So sad I didn't become it, if only I stayed normal and actually wanted it. But even with that not mighty toad devotee so I couldn't make it even if I wanted it. Problems with having authority, and not liking to be under anyone costed me this time. ?

Want to hear my honest opinion @Raptorsin7. Like really honest? It will hurt.

That's why meditation won't help you because you will always pussyfoot out of it but most likely with 5 meo you have no chance for that. My humble opinion regarding Spirituality farse.

Why not both? Well if I am. Still here typing this then it's obvious I am unable to give away dreaming or lets define it as material existance. Problem is I am God all the time. That's actually main reason why you guys are unable to actually awaken without substances. You are all afraid to die. No teachings or understanding will ever help with that.

Scorpio snake haha. Laughed so much. Died from laughter at this too. OMG.

So then what prevents you realizing you are this? Also there is nothing preventing your feelings ya know.

I am my own Master and I am Source of my own Love. So what enlightened master can teach me? Can you really teach God? When God decides to finally stops being donkey.... As Source of all Love who can really teach me about who I am or anything else?

Why she cooks why she prepares me for job without me asking her these things is because she already wants me to see her as wife. Not as a girlfriend or anything else. Not blind nit naive not stupid. Why she manipulates, tests and all that is because she actually kniws what she wants. Previous dreamy hippie chick , well with her I could do whatever I fuck I wanted because she didn't know at all what she wants. That's Truth. Glad I can speak about this stuff with you my forum mistress because you actually know culture and how people actually are and live life here.

Was talking about previous relationships. When alarm sign starts ringing when it starts to turn i to something more then just romance or relationship had to always push away that woman and start looking for replacement. Because if I ended up in marriage I would want kids. For me it's pointless to be in marriage without kids and you know, What marriage really is. Not room mates. This one wants it and it's very obvious to me and that's why it strikes me despite all these silly games and such. She looks into that. That's for me worst thing, is that we are actually made for that. Like perfect match for that. So I really got myself into with her. Now I will go into making buisiness once again and I will not be able to get rid of her. That's even more striking. Thing is I actually like her. Oh boyo.

That part I understand and that's fake and manupation. But problem is when she actually like that without faking. When she gets absent minded and lost into her own world.

Yeah it is. Shadow side. I can become very agressive sometimes. Worry that I will harm My own kid. That's why I was into martial arts to learn to channel that energy. If for example you intentionally doing some evil lets say to me or to someone else and you are concious of that but you are doing it anyway I will blackout and for me it will not. Matter what consenquences are. So yes able to kill without thinking. That's tge dark aspect of me. I am Concious of it. That's why that fear. @GalynaWant@GalynaWant to hear scenario for next couple of days and her already pre planned "revenge". She will not come here to my place after work in next 2 or 3 days. I will not call her ofcourse. Then she will send me message asking how I am,I will respond. Next day she will appear out of nowhere or call. Me. To meet or do. Something together. @DrewNows

See ya guy buy love ya all take.Thanks @Galynafor helping me remember my authentic self a bit. @DrewNowswish you well too. Owls oh boyo such a great hunters. Where owl is there is no single mouse anywhere to be found. Yes! Finally feeling God damn normal. No wonder I started to resent "matt kahn". Thank Goodness loving life so much now.

OMG her and her cooking burned my hand because of her. More and more this looks like we are in marriage strikes me so hard. Also started arguing. Food is important not how I look will rather walk around with cheapest mask but eat solid meal on work and not be laughing stock. But because she is sensitive she get offended so easilly so funny. This is so hilarious. ? Thanks @Galyna this is how we slavic peeps are.

Sometimes I want to bring @Raptorsin7over here. He will grow up so fast and be a beast when he gets back to Canada.

Exactly!

Now thanks to my Pisces gf who pushes. Me to be Leader once again I have to go inside devil's lair once again. I love her so much.

Those people are not nice average people at all. Corrupted af. Moody waters to swim. Thanks to my Gemini brother best liars in world we somehow made it.

@Galyna Well to make buisiness here in Serbia is difficult. Took me so much work. You have to be member of specific political party and good with then to get some projects. You have to be good with criminals and what not. It's not like in US. Just some of examples. Very different. Lets say 200 people hold entire country's economy and everything is happening in that circle. Closer you are the better.

Yeah I know that but also want to move to States.