zeroISinfinity

Nobody knows it's terrifying terrifying terrifying. You can become it in 'sober state'. Terrifying Terrifying Terrifying don't want it. Easier to play games. "Free will" "Awareness". Who can bare actual thing. They have no efin idea. Don't want to be this thing. Who wants to be it here take I don't give a fuck. Fuck the day I got interested in Self discovery literally. Regret the damn thing so hard. Freakin God you have no idea how it 's like. Who can bare this. Not normal it' s just not normal. Wish it just like mumbo jumbo, lightworkers lol. But ok I guess have to do it, sick of bashing constantly. Why me, why this guy will never know I guess.

Nail it down silly magician. I can but it's like this. Lol. Trump, Putin joke but you don't want such dream. What have I've done I really do question it a lot. But ok. Time to be really creative.

?? Same thing Leo did to me. God damn you Willy wonka God damn you. You suck at vacation. ??? This goes on my bathroom mirror. I said I will regret it. You suck at vacation. Nooooooooooooooooooooooo

@Consept ???? OMG. Yes my tango buddy. My best man so proud. Or I am smartest guy ever or most foolish one for wanting that. I will regret it.

@Consept Well how to Contemplate Awareness? I beleive I won't get to answers with thinking. It is just mental circle jerk. But I do feel. But when body dies or when I stop imagining what would I be. Can't be some black Void? How nothing looks like at all? So many questions.

Well when I discovered second main fuction of wee wee I hurted my wrist more severely then after flip hand © spiritual practise.

Well it is ephemeral but it's not nothing nothing. My intuition tells me different story don't know what to trust now. So I must be some sort of screen behind this body?

Well I don't know but I type this by some miracle.

@LfcCharlie4 I am not cranky I am just foolin' around. Nothing new I guess. Yeah coffee sucked balls drinking this turkish black one need to change it but got addicted. In all honesty confused af what to do, with enlightenment devil completelly dies and you lived for it even this spiritual games are for it. Don't want to continue this but I have to, real mess. Ignorance is a bliss sometimes. If I could choose again would delay enlightenment til age of 75 then I would be ok have a good laugh and will die in peace.

@James123 So I am just some sort of camera or empty bubble and all of this happens inside bubble but when body dies I will be empty bubble?

Pingu! Omg thanks for bringing memories back. Thanks @nistake .

Thanks for inducing suicidal depression. If everything is me and I know myself, not some great guy lets just say that. Then we need to end it all. ASAP ?☺️ I can't be God I am afraid of ?. I Despise ??. Oh yes and that guy from gym thanks to spiritual practises. Wanna taste backhand on your ass well better then 5-meo I guess. No amount of meditation will clear my dirty mind lol.

@Artaemis Sorry. Just... Maybe I don't know but I do speak Truth. Want enlightenment you will face actual death. It will really be that way. I do not lie about that. Why would I? Am I full of shit, yes I am. Very concious of it. Doesn't prevent me to have some fun.

@LfcCharlie4 There ain't no actual awakening with teachings. Also there is no awakening with actually facing death. What people consider death to be leads to actual awakening. Sorry for bursting bubbles. You experience your own death for awakening that's how it is. No amount of satsangs can replace that. Becoming vegan or whatever.

All well and fine until ? or ? starts chasing your ass. ☺️ (stop projecting your own fear of teddy bears) I will burst from laughter there are just so many jokes possible. Imagine Rupert Spira and his disciples on road trip and they end up meeting some cannibalistic tribe. Trying to teach 'em. OMG that scene of mass hysteria bet they will all drop those flowers so quickly. RS:Conciousness blah blah blah, free will blah blah blah.... Tribe member: please man be short we are hungry. RS:ok I am done. Entire Tribe:Good, finally. Disciples: spontanious joy in each passing moment. OMG.

Imagine I decide to be like lavender or guy with only 2 shirts and one background. Client comes and starts to talk. For me it will be like. Lie, another lie, bullshit, ignorance, delusion, another lie, some more lies oh problems I see, lies etc. Wait a second please stay there. Let me go to basement will come back in short. Please just give me a minute. Then I enter basement and here it is shotgun or zen stick. Ok this time I will be kind. Then I enter room and shoot client. Yeah God's work. Go help. (will rather continue slamming my head against the wall, less stress + might help me forget )

Yes as Full God Infinite Conciousness I have no needs which also means right now I can't have them. That's very True. Perfect thing can't have needs or is deficient in any way. No freakin wonder I question dream continuation so much. 10/10 trick.

It's all Love. Eternal Love. It 's not felt as Awareness it' s felt as Love. Awareness is for ?.

Layers you say. May I remind you that on actual Serbian wedding proper one, last 3 days sometimes. Shirts are mostly off by the late hours. No rules baby no rules. ☺️

If you don't exist who will give me wedding rings? Sorry man you'll have to wear suit I know you do not like it but some sacrifices has to be made. Yes loads of cotton cheese will be there. ☺️

@Javfly33 Just my ramblings one day I will most likely have to help (yes banging my head against the wall trust me). Shitload of ignorance but if you say Reality is Love you are nutcase. Need some tests regarding survival but it's like some wise man said it's about Love and yes it's supposed to be fun not what 99.9% peeps beleive. God provides you with everything so why all these "power grinding" crap.

It's a 10/10 trick. It's my fault no one's else. But on other hand you have no clue at all. Great escape=chimp creation. Development of selfish mind and as such forsaking yourself into survival. How deeply selfish you are larger Self denial. There ain't no single survival treat to this body for such a long time once "Alex" is out of mind. Curious 'bout that.

So I am all that is. Truth itself? (stop pls, just stop foolin' around)