zeroISinfinity

Well Reality =Pure Love Everything turns into fantasy. Need to calm down and work have to find jobs for them. It is all so fast.

Golden nuggets. But still crazy af. Shit just got real found first model. Can't fucking beleive this stuff. I think I'll fucking die whqt is this?!

@ivankiss Yeah lost fire. I really did it's kinda returning. More and more inspired again. It's joke, right, shouldn't take it so seriously. I am just so wierd but all in all have good ❤️. That agression inside just... Just focus it into creation. Time to be an artist again. Time to work. Me and my ideas will just say that crazy af. Wise man said ? so ?.

God's epic story. ❤️ This thing made me look like biggest idiot and fool ever and sometimes I am very angry and mad at it.

Yeah real fantasy. Jed and his vacation. But there is no vacation before you die. So paradoxical. For vacation you don't pay money you give your 'self' and everything that goes with it. Kinda losing half of total package deal. Because of this ❤️ thing I laugh all the God damn time. It really was a set up. But why it was hidden. Why it never allowed me to feel like this? Also caused me suffering because I didn't know anything or what exactly I am looking for in life. Bloody hell.

Infinite Love is not scary it is terrifying. Nothing more terrifying then that. Really wish you to experience yourself as that. This enlightenment stuff is about that.

Do I have to? It's against forum rules. Lots of naked chicks there. Yes even cocaine. Hey never tried that. Don't judge.

@mandyjw Talking with @Nahm is terrifying. Yes that's why I avoid ever calling him on skype. That's the last thing I will ever do. Nothing scares me away more then that. At the same time having deepest admiration and I know he knows this stuff to full extent but at the very same time I am so afraid of him. You know I tried to BS Leo but they do not allow that once you expose yourself kinda expect from you to help lol.

Now lets prove that I made it all up. Entire "life". I date Grace Elizabeth. Nonsensical lol.

Yup baby 6 feet under already. Walking in my own tomb. I love this guy. Very truthful. Knows everything so I can't BS him, verry shitty feeling I must add. There ain't no world guys you made entire thing up. ? There is only you, alone tripping your balls out with everything, including this forum.

@Exystem Awesome man. Need to take lsd. Because of ? I cry and I am extremly compassionate after. This sounds fun. Found ? but where to find lsd. Hard to find it where I live, heroin everywhere but not lsd. God damn. But that type of behaivor is also reason I rejected drugs as technology that can bring me to truth. Had friends who were act that way awesome happiness and love and next day same old story depressed, "problems" etc were taking drugs just to hit one instance of happiness that's how it looked to me. Also had gf pretty much in shitty mood all the time only on drugs ahe could be happy so I rejected that stuff.

Yes exactly like most of the stuff we got brainwashed by society and culture. Be your own master. Don't manipulate be naive sheep when everyone manipulates and deceives you from birth to death.

@Shmurda Develop single pointed focus. While meditating focus on ❤️. Completelly surrender. Forget everything like non of this stuff ever happened like you never lived life at all. Want Truth for its' own sake and that's it. You can do it with meditation but take that 5 meo stuff it will save your time. Self Realization is death and if you are really into Leo's level of awakening then that's what will have to face accept and go through. You don't have to but if you are really into it then you will actually die. Best "experience" there is but it is so terrifying. Hardest part comes after Self Realization it's all sweet philosophical stuff before it.

@IJB063 Yes, God. Infinite Love that's what I am.

Love yourself. Why wasting time, why not test her? Why beleiving her stories about herself when you can actually check how she actually is. If you want to stay with her it's better to actually know reasons why she is staying with you in first place. Some girl said here on forum most accurate thing ever. Woman want adventure they are not with you because you are something special or from love. Also survival aspect has biggest role. Being naive will not bring you any good. There is saying. In war and love everything is allowed. She is with you because of her's subconcious calculation. What serves her. So why not take advantage of that?

Well I done this things when I was younger. Still do them to some extent but mostly to prepare fertile ground. Also I do enjoy doing this things. Now things changed a lot then I was just chimp in Universe exploring. Man are not manipulative, woman are. Men are mostly very naive. Man connect and care about relationship not woman. Ofcourse this is generalization but it is mostly true.

So what you guys want spiritual awakening and everything which it implies or spiritual games?

I exist because I say so. Same goes for this dream. Sounds arrogant but it is True.

May I answer that. Then I literally turn into Love, everything and I dunno what to with it. Then I have suicidal toughts because I do not need life anymore etc. Laughing all the time, body can't hold it, spine wants to blow up. Epic visual hallucinations qhenever I close my eyes also this becones very wonky etc So many stuff.

Well I do not know. Picked something I really feel inspired atm. Modelling and fashion. Real adventure. Like entering complete unknown. I am sure I will make it. Gather balls and jump into ocean type of thing. From someone who had construction company and was mostly making roofs. Also once again thank you Jess.

Oh boyo I have great imagination. Spiritual champs I like it. So inspired. Also Conor my new superhero buddha guy. Will rather worship my dog c'mon lets go for a walk.

Thanks for clarification really wanted that answer. So I am not capable of mahasamadhi because I hold attachments. There must be a reason I can't stay as such forever. Dunno do I really want that anymore. Also need answer to this. Well need to continue dream. All love from humans is conditional and have to take it as such. Which I do accept have no problems with that. But can't delude myself or beleive in lies. Need that discernment. It's all Love I will give you that but well still have to live and have wisdom. Plug off supply line and see how "human love" fades away. I mean I am not stupid. Or maybe I am making a mistake. I mean why I wouldn't I love everything including Hitler all me ain't no problem but possible spiritual bypassing issues etc. Dunno maybe Jed will say cleverness but it really is a big question.

Terrifying it is but not painful at all. Death is awesome. (good luck boyo dying in sleep tonight, just fuck it will not be 1st time got use to. Don't know how to cut myself from feelings anymore and except Jed noone understands or could help dunno what to do, nightmare)

@peachboy Full blown omniscience literally kills you. That's awakening. Oh boyo I like this. Enough of that thing I really don't want it. Pls no not anymore. I am God I accept it np no fooling around anymore just not that pls. Pls no. Enough is Enough.

You are nothing itself all the time. Eternal Singularity. How I come to this. Dunno thanks to dog and meditation practise and wanting God more then anything else I guess. But now sorry have to see my new blondine. Tired of spiritual talk possibility of 40 fingers makes me much more inspired then this mindfuck. Oh forgot punchline. Not only my inner gay awoken it's my inner whore that awoken too. Hahaha(points? Who cares, whole thing is God damn joke what else would it be)