zeroISinfinity

Cracked up from laughter. Ain't no problem. It really isn't. But there is no point in staying here too. I really am ready. I want to my True Home. I suffer every morning when I open my eyes. One more day of Faking. I really do not care. Already dead. Nothing to "Reality" smoke and mirrors. There is no love found anywhere else and as such dream and pretending is not worth of anything. There is no possible trick I can pull of which can convince me to "dream" about anything. Pointless. All "love" from all people is conditional and it's false and not worth of effort when "forgetting". Nothing to them but lies. I do not belong!

How you actually feel as wide awake is how Merle Haggard and Leonard Cohen describe it. So place this here, answer and solutio. will come. I am ready I really am can't open my eyes every morning and fake it dqy by day. Tired of it want to my eternal timeless resting place. Day by day it really is suffering. Fakeness, lies, keep the ball rolling, pretending, there is literally nothing to it and yet again like. Completelly dead and yet... Like prisoner literally. It's not bitching it's how actually is. Done I am fucking done. Completed dream and dreaming.

Even this like what you experienced 2/3 of your dream worst psychotic devils there are, abused, yelled at all the time, blamed, scourged, physically abused, emotionally psychologically you name it. Reality is for devils. Also nothing to it. Every way you look at it you know your destiny. Fucked up but it's pointless.

If setheer song didn't convinced you that you are just Mind interacting with itself and that's not of enough of proof to you+ not getting banned here+ how much Self Realization experiences you had so far There is really nothing to it. C'mon grab balls and do it. It's time to stop pretending that there is a "reward" or that dreaming is worth of anything it's pointless same as your True Self. There is nothing to it at all.

Drag it out what else. Really can't fake it forever causes suffering. Pretend that you care, Fake it, Drag it out. It will be nice that it finally ends but it is what it is. Not just this but all of them but ya know. Fake it day by day.

OMG full honesty. Yes hahahahaha

@JayG84 Don't be so nihilistic. Also don't confuse Imagination as what human mind would think of Imagination. It's God it's Pure Love. ? is not Truth.

@zeroISinfinity lol narc, mistake. @Nahm Ok want to bitch about. Talk about Love. I am blaming apocalypse and talking about Love for this. Can't bare it. Everything feela like actual Love. Including body literally. ❤️ Is felt so strong that it's like someone drilled holes both on my chest and backs. It's not only that body is literally fwlt like Love it radiates it too. I blame this God damn forum for it. Can't function. Will not survive year of this.

You know what instead of raping my mind will place all possible sexual fantasies instead. No humble girl in rainbow dress and new one as much as beautiful, boring as hell.

You.

Oh boyo wqit until Leo see this. Desire for mahasamadhi will sky rocket. Really have to care 'bout', it seems even Jed gone down that route.

Why anything exist at all? I dunno maybe because everything is Love itself. Maybe that's the only thing there is at all. I might be deluded I dunno. I do deserve to be on leash. I really do. Pls pls pls.

@SQAAD Enlightenment =Death, actual death. Proper meditation, psychedelics such things not BS yourselves around.

God mode. Sorry guys but you will not be here to even type anything. You want that you will actually die. But yeah spiritual games I guess.

Delusions. What enemy? YOURSELF?

No devils. All you. All Love. Always great to see ego self creating God id.

Kinda mods here forget that I am black zero you know just an average guy who seeks Truth.

My tango buddy is back. Yes! Nothing brings more joy.

Nothing more enjoyable then destroying "life thingy". Just want to add that.

@Nahm If I want to create modelling agency(already in motion) and stuff I really want, that's ok. Don't have to be sadhguru if I don't want to be. I am free to play with real me and to create real me in any way I want. This is right now real me. But you know real me can be anything I want it to be. Yes even twin dominas. Oh sweet Infinite Conciousness. Haha

This text right here is beginning of my existential crisis and few years from now middle age crisis. Life is so cool. No words for it.

Is it ok to be this honest and have epic laugh. Speakin' from grave. Why, don't crush their hopes. I won't. Will be good will continue to pretend but there is nothing to it.

This is real lux. This is flase one. emotions and all human stuff OMG

Every place is your Home. Relax accept whatever it is and be yourself. Do you. (Don't you dare to judge peeps playing video games and jerking off on porns, help. Could be life coach or something in regard helping peeps yes even this spiritual stuff too very legit. It's all about Love anyway we will see for now I want modeling)

So outplayed myself lol.