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With the student load dept crises i don't even consider an education in a for-profit school a realistic option, its better to do your degree online for free and no one will know the difference. What degree are you in?

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Women can be a pain in that sense, they can interpret it as neediness and get turned off, all subconsciously. The more a woman flip flops and changes her mind by random subconscious emotional queues the less developed they are. If they score high on the flip flop spectrum its best to avoid them at all cost. lol

Wow, red flag, RUN.

@Vrubel its odd that women are flaking on you this much. I think there might be a reason or insight here, what do you think it is?

@Juressic All good man, start a AI business does are bound to do well.

Optimize your base level of consciousness. You need to a consistent high functioning state of mind over a long duration for everything. What ever unhealthy non-sense your addicted to, cant help your self but to keep doing, not sleeping enought, junk food, sedentary, masterbation... What ever puts stress on your state, be done with it, its far less rewarding then a optimized default state. Consistence Optimized default state IS KING. Consistency creates the momentum for exponential growth. You need to build up speed before take off and you cant do that if your not consistent over weeks and months and you cant do that unless your on point everyday with the best state you can naturally achieve. Insights, Wisdom, Improvement, learning, rewiring and performance is exponentially effected by state. In both directions. Things that effect my state: Poor sleep - Get your ass in bed by 8pm Eating most foods in the morning with out exercise Lack of exerise with high intensity daily Ejaculation - destroys ability to recover - makes colors gray for 2 days Nutrition deficiencies Eating when not hungry or on a schedule - Eat when hungry this optimizes state What effects your state? What can you do to optimize it to be consistant everyday?

Im a web developer, the first week there is a learning curve, it takes 2 weeks or more to get comfortable with the project if its a big one. Stick at it until you learn everything and all the stress goas away.

its legal because its highly profitable. lol yes it has a skunk like smell, i would not say its pleasant. Its annoying not being able to avoid it and knowing THC is entering my brain second hand.

its been 100% legal where i live (Montreal) for a while now, everyday I go outside for a walk with my dog i get hit in the face with weed. I smell it while driving around the city everyday, i smell it randomly when opening a window to get fresh air, its everywhere. Kids in highschool all have weed in there vape sticks. Its unpleasant and really unhealthy for underdeveloped children's brains to be smoking it but i don't think the alternative is any better.

@Squeekytoy I'm sure there are a lot of people that trick themselves into ideologies. In this case all my symptoms are 100% reproducible. I can masturbate this second have 3 ejaculations and the skin on my face will peal off. I'm not inventing this. I can exercise at the gym build up muscle pain all over the body (lactic acid build up) and then ejaculate all of it away so that my muscles feel no pain anymore, that same day. These things I am observing repeatedly happening and tested hundreds of times now. I also have a very good memory of every detail and can recall accurately my past experiences when I was 20 and healthy vs now. That's about all I can say I guess no point trying to convince anyone, you will know it 100% when it happens to you. When i was 20 i could orgasm all day 10x in a row with no symptoms. Now there probably where symptoms it just wasn't significant enough to notice and I fully recovered with a good night of sleep.

I think more dangerous then effects on the brain is effects on the gut, i have not noticed any long term issues using LSD but in the short term it shuts down my digestion during the trip, i think it prevents bowl movements. If i eat the wrong foods gas will build up causing major cramps and pain.

Its possibly not nutrients loss, if so i have no idea what it is. The main indication that makes me believe so is if I hold the semen in during orgasm i dont get fatigue and if im in a state of depletion and eat eggs/milk/bell peppers right after I can get back to normal fast but if I eat foods with out good building blocks it takes a lot longer.

One step at a time. Steps: Job After 1 month of pay move out to local apartment and try to live there independently and hope nothing goes wrong Start dating and don't settle until you find a good guy you connect with, have the commitment to quickly prune does that just aren't good for you Get married

Notes: Goat milk improved recovery of lost semen but it was drank late at night causing sleep disturbances, its also stimulatory taken during the day. Skin in mouth peals off from drink milk to many days in a row, its some kind of stimulant Another semen leakage during intercourse, I didnt expect orgasm and was not ready to squeeze the muscle Tracker # of Consistent Days In a Row: 0: Semen Retention 0: Perfect Eating 0: Eat When Hungry 0: Exercise Appropriately 0: Good Night Sleep 0: Loved Being Alive 0: Inspired Work

Got to relax and not take things to seriously, avoid over analyzing every little thing and taking things personally as a result.

Yes and all these symptoms are identical to people who over masturbate. They go past the limits there body can recover from. For the young that limit is 10x a day for months. If the body is struggling with nutrition absorption and sleep quality then that limit is less then once a day. Its a spectrum, everyone has symptoms after ejaculation it only depends on how prominent it is and if they have the self awareness to notice. If I don't ejaculate for a week and then ejaculate there are basically no symptoms because I stored up reserves, but if I do it once every day or every second day the symptoms get worse and worse, body cant recover the loss of nutrients fast enough. If I ejaculate and squeeze the muscle to prevent semen from coming out there are no symptoms after orgasm and feel rather good because of the endorphins and other hormones released. Ideally id fix this some how.

@at_anchor Got to get a full time job so you have money then move out to any apartment, no one will come looking for you.

Mood: Fatigue morning coming off LSD day 2, slight depression, days with out ejaculation 1 Not Motivated and dull Mistakes: Failed at semen retention some leaked out during intercourse... sense of touch instantly dropped, drank some goat milk in an attempt to replenish lost resources. Ate chocolate Ate corn based cereal Did not exercise midday to balance out over eating when not hungry Improper breathing morning high cortisol computer use sympathetic Did not take a nap when tired, did not listen to body, forced awake Tracker # of Consistent Days In a Row: 0: Semen Retention 0: Perfect Eating 0: Eat When Hungry 0: Exercise Appropriately 1: Good Night Sleep 0: Loved Being Alive 1: Inspired Work

That's true I have issues with weakness and a number of symptoms pop up after ejaculation that i didnt have before when i was young and health. Muscles don't build up lactic acid anymore after work outs, depression and lack of motivation, sleep quality drops, colors become grayish, digestion drops causing burping or what i think is low stomach acid, skin gets dry and can peel on the face if I ejaculate more then twice in a row. @Razard86 @M A J I So if someone stabbed and left a knife in your leg would you say "its all an illusion" and be content with whatever? Or would you remove the knife? With health problems and stressors on the body its non-sensical to simply continue does habits that then effects state. The point of psychedelics is state, happens to be extremely useful. Awakening is about happiness? All suffering ends after awakening? @KoryKat Neurofeed back would be great, ideally id like sympathetic 24/7 detection and protection. Ideally a device can detect sympathetic states the moment it builds up and adjust the environment like turning off devices until the a parasympathetic state is re-established.

@at_anchor The person that can help you in this situation is you, you need to move out completely block and distance yourself from toxic people and surround yourself with new healthy ones. There are no other options, no revenge to win, nothing to prove to anyone for safety. 100% take action today to make plans to move out in secret, get out now. Change all your passwords and phone number. Start a new life with new people who you trust.

@ValiantSalvatore Good stuff man Going to check it out.

I think Leo should advocate more for sexual transmutation. This should be on the top of everyone's priority list. Its a vital component to optimize your default state, its not a choice its mandatory for everything. Its like being handicap with out this.

It sounds good an paper from the male perspective but it isn't at all. Its wrong actually. She doesn't at all care that your a good person or not the way your trying to make it seem to her, what she cares about is how she feels about what your saying and its making her feel bad. Don't say anything and wait for her to contact you. Stop making advancements and showing your neediness. This is the 1# mistake everyone makes, never chase. NEVER CHASE. She wants to have fun and your actions right now are pressure and not fun. Its that simple. Never put pressure on a women. Go out and start dating someone else that is how you solve the frustration and problem, if she still has feelings for you she will contact you. --- Also so to make this clear, she's acting like an asshole who is being immature and inconsiderate get that framing right, stop putting her on a pedestal.