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@theleelajoker The major lesson this will bring to your life is your going to be more selective next time entering a new relationship, its unrealistic to suddenly break up with her now because your already in the tick of it and attached, so its likely going to play out till the end. This kind of elastic push and pull relationship has a bitter ending where she will likely not acknowledge all the effort you put into keeping it together because she doesn't recognize herself as the drama creator and problem, instead she will blame you in the end and think back at the entire relationships with selective negative memory leaving her with a negative outlook on the whole relationship, a unfair assessment. This is one possibility how it can play out. Another issue with dating bellow ones level is the reason they are attracted to you is not the same reason you are attracted to them. When things come to an end you will still view her from a positive perspective but for her she cant do that, her emotions for you will change and she will just see you as some random guy she doesn't like. To survive she needs to strongly distance herself from you and that means demonizing you.

Its unlikely she will change in time to save the relationship, if she's going to grow up it will be after years of failed relationships or she will more likely settle down with someone at her level who doesn't challenge her and doesn't make the invented "mistakes" you are making. Its significantly more enjoyable and 100% worth it to be with some who is closer to your level. It sound to me this is less about SD and more that she is immature. If you often find yourself saying something and she gets triggered by it randomly its not working out. Got to identify signs and not be over tolerant to them. Playing the tolerant role is mature but it actually backfired over months and years because the unforeseen result is the constant exposure to unhealthy patterns of others slowly chips away at your emotional stability and you end up shaping yourself to be more like them. It is not healthy to be exposed to peoples constant drama, it doesn't matter how developed you are. If I learned anything from my experiences with dating bellow my level its that you need to have standards. These standards protect you, your openminded and non-judgemental and tolerant, yes you are and thats great, but you still need standards and cut people out if they create to much drama. Being tolerant does not mean you can handle peoples constant problems and negativity for a life time. Help people as much as you can at a distance, but for intimate relationships and friendships cut out negative and unhealthy people and stick to healthy developed ones.

To loss control of ones mind has got to be pretty dam scary, it would be natural then to question what is real or fake especially if its the first time the ego was no longer in control and had to accept it could not control what it has never failed to control up to that point. I guess its related to the fear of losing control and what many go through when they have bad trips on psychedelics, the ego clench's. It seems your more sensitive now from the spiritual breakthrough you had, so it will take some time to get used to your new powers. Progress!

Thats true, but i think this says more about a failed implementation and not socialism. We need to motivate people to do the job and we do see this in Holacracy business structures.

Normally when imaging something there is a process to it and your aware of the steps you made to summon the image into existence, before and after. So in this case it looks like fear was the main culprit and maybe not that you couldn't tell it was fake or real? You knew it was fake because you remembered creating it but then spooked your self like a kid scared of the dark after watching a scary movie late at night. A heightened intimacy with ones surroundings and imagination coupled with fear. So like the scary movie trigger it will pass on its own hopefully?

Im glad i clicked this topic, when i see your comments its the first i read. Legendary Commentatorism. Wait but... if i speak to a women with out her consent... is that...

There is a pattern doe, after eating meat for a year or so it reduces gut bacteria that cause a lot of the stomach issues hes having, so he might be able to get off meat once her starves the bacteria out.

I was probably my mother and father.

Ask for more money, they will give it.

With the student load dept crises i don't even consider an education in a for-profit school a realistic option, its better to do your degree online for free and no one will know the difference. What degree are you in?

Interpretationless

Women can be a pain in that sense, they can interpret it as neediness and get turned off, all subconsciously. The more a woman flip flops and changes her mind by random subconscious emotional queues the less developed they are. If they score high on the flip flop spectrum its best to avoid them at all cost. lol

Wow, red flag, RUN.

@Vrubel its odd that women are flaking on you this much. I think there might be a reason or insight here, what do you think it is?

@Juressic All good man, start a AI business does are bound to do well.

Optimize your base level of consciousness. You need to a consistent high functioning state of mind over a long duration for everything. What ever unhealthy non-sense your addicted to, cant help your self but to keep doing, not sleeping enought, junk food, sedentary, masterbation... What ever puts stress on your state, be done with it, its far less rewarding then a optimized default state. Consistence Optimized default state IS KING. Consistency creates the momentum for exponential growth. You need to build up speed before take off and you cant do that if your not consistent over weeks and months and you cant do that unless your on point everyday with the best state you can naturally achieve. Insights, Wisdom, Improvement, learning, rewiring and performance is exponentially effected by state. In both directions. Things that effect my state: Poor sleep - Get your ass in bed by 8pm Eating most foods in the morning with out exercise Lack of exerise with high intensity daily Ejaculation - destroys ability to recover - makes colors gray for 2 days Nutrition deficiencies Eating when not hungry or on a schedule - Eat when hungry this optimizes state What effects your state? What can you do to optimize it to be consistant everyday?

Im a web developer, the first week there is a learning curve, it takes 2 weeks or more to get comfortable with the project if its a big one. Stick at it until you learn everything and all the stress goas away.

its legal because its highly profitable. lol yes it has a skunk like smell, i would not say its pleasant. Its annoying not being able to avoid it and knowing THC is entering my brain second hand.

its been 100% legal where i live (Montreal) for a while now, everyday I go outside for a walk with my dog i get hit in the face with weed. I smell it while driving around the city everyday, i smell it randomly when opening a window to get fresh air, its everywhere. Kids in highschool all have weed in there vape sticks. Its unpleasant and really unhealthy for underdeveloped children's brains to be smoking it but i don't think the alternative is any better.

@Squeekytoy I'm sure there are a lot of people that trick themselves into ideologies. In this case all my symptoms are 100% reproducible. I can masturbate this second have 3 ejaculations and the skin on my face will peal off. I'm not inventing this. I can exercise at the gym build up muscle pain all over the body (lactic acid build up) and then ejaculate all of it away so that my muscles feel no pain anymore, that same day. These things I am observing repeatedly happening and tested hundreds of times now. I also have a very good memory of every detail and can recall accurately my past experiences when I was 20 and healthy vs now. That's about all I can say I guess no point trying to convince anyone, you will know it 100% when it happens to you. When i was 20 i could orgasm all day 10x in a row with no symptoms. Now there probably where symptoms it just wasn't significant enough to notice and I fully recovered with a good night of sleep.

I think more dangerous then effects on the brain is effects on the gut, i have not noticed any long term issues using LSD but in the short term it shuts down my digestion during the trip, i think it prevents bowl movements. If i eat the wrong foods gas will build up causing major cramps and pain.

Its possibly not nutrients loss, if so i have no idea what it is. The main indication that makes me believe so is if I hold the semen in during orgasm i dont get fatigue and if im in a state of depletion and eat eggs/milk/bell peppers right after I can get back to normal fast but if I eat foods with out good building blocks it takes a lot longer.

One step at a time. Steps: Job After 1 month of pay move out to local apartment and try to live there independently and hope nothing goes wrong Start dating and don't settle until you find a good guy you connect with, have the commitment to quickly prune does that just aren't good for you Get married

Notes: Goat milk improved recovery of lost semen but it was drank late at night causing sleep disturbances, its also stimulatory taken during the day. Skin in mouth peals off from drink milk to many days in a row, its some kind of stimulant Another semen leakage during intercourse, I didnt expect orgasm and was not ready to squeeze the muscle Tracker # of Consistent Days In a Row: 0: Semen Retention 0: Perfect Eating 0: Eat When Hungry 0: Exercise Appropriately 0: Good Night Sleep 0: Loved Being Alive 0: Inspired Work