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Makes a lot of sense, I didnt expect you to be the party till you drop kind of guy. ? These difference between human bodies needs to be studied deeper, definitely a missing piece of the puzzle or treasure to be found. I'm looking for that enlightenment pill. That treasure could be found in some where related to why some bodies are more sensitive to others. Why haven't we figured out the right drugs that will turn off the sympathetic system with out any side effects, in a way that works 100% with all the moving parts of the bodies complexity. These got to be a new time of drug revolution that intelligently works 100% with all the complexity in the system.

Thinking about it more i think the reason is similar to why coffee puts some people to sleep at night, including me. In that is puts you into a more body focused state, the brain is working better and its easier to be presents in the moment, so the mind calms down and you sleep. For your body that does not have over stimulation or sensitivity issues, it gives you a bit of a mental boost to help focus on the present moment thats creates calm. I just experimented with a B-complex in the past hour and my base heart rate went up and hands went cold, its difficult to relax, breath and I can feel a tension in the system. I can bring it down with mindfulness but the i can feel that my base stress level is higher.

When I experienced this it is true it could be that I was going back to baseline and I was not ready for it so it made me go insane, another take and what I was thinking when experiencing it is energetically my mind was in a state of highly sensitive exertion and the limit of my stress meter, if that makes any sense. Like any kind of stimulant if it where visual like a video game or watching a movie would send my heart pounding, cant breath...this is highly abnormal for my personality, its my body do to extreme sleep deprivation and other factors was under so much stress that a feather would push it over the limit, If i had a negative thought it would send me into a full body spasm and seizure, just 1 negative thought. I was at the limit of my stress meter. A hyper sensitive state and the b-complex pushed it higher.

@LordFall The graph shows that at each stage of spiral development masculine and feminine polarity shift and people can be at different stages of spiritual, sexual and anima/animus development. So for example someone can be at Blue with a spiritual developer of 5, a sexual developer of 4 and a animus development of 1. At Yellow and up there is a balance or merging of the masculine and feminine dichotomy or it can be expressed in many different ways.

@ValiantSalvatore @LordFall The graph is from the book Integral Relationships

Oh no his advice was great! Where miscommunicating lol

That's it, its a relative. The body of the individual will react differently depending on many factors. I made the statement that it was stimulator and can cause anxiety but that does not match your personal experience. All of this is lost when googling things and forming beliefs with studies and data.

If this is the case I think its a reasonable idea catch yourself projecting your stress onto her. Its like you subconsciously blaming her or blaming others for not achieving your goals yet. Got to learn to sit with your feelings more and identify what they are trying to communicate to you instead of reacting to them and projecting them.

I dont think its an indication of higher development but like jesus sais It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God. Disclaimer I do not endorse everything Jesus said. ? Full Orange Women with type 3 spiritual development are a pain in the ass and tend to be very masculine leaning. #personal experience Of course its because its a bad fit compatibility, when they speak its boring basic worldview I grew out of when I was a teenager or early 20s. Because there masculine nothing can change there beliefs and there not really open to exploring new ideas.

Why would that conflict with what I said?

Do you think the reason you keep breaking up with her is because your goals in life are center focus and you feel she is holding you back, there is anxiaty and your projecting that anxiaty on her.

Naa nothing wrong with orange, I personally find orange alpha women high pressure to date, why they are dating you is a impossible to maintain status game, they always are looking for options and high status alpha males are always hovering around.

They crossed the line into illegal with does pranks, youtube should sensor this content.

Fear of death, wants to be immortal.

Are you stressed about other things in life and feel its not time to be with someone when you haven't got your life together yet?

What type of physical health problem do you have that is contributing to the burn out?

Purpose Motivation to keep Consistent, its public even if i know no one will read this Reminded of what im doing (avoid forgetting the plan) Track daily state (mood, performance, mistakes) Narrow down the things that work and the things that don't Goal Optimize default state for consistent mood and clarity of mind over a life time. Feel free to comment and give suggestions.

Hilarious! Side tangent, it look like hell dating orange style alpha women, not sure what does guys are thinking.

I think your best best to regenerate the gums is to stop brushing in anyway that comes into contact with the gums and to eat foods high in vitamin C.

Sound good man, post again on the next insight hunt. ??? What algorithm are we talking about here??

Explain a bit more on the issue your facing with work and maintaining a stable job?

No thats the end of logic, play a different game now.

@Michael569 After this comment I've been searching local shops for whole spelt kernels everywhere, cant find them!!

Its a gift to be able to relax like that, breath into the orgasm and let it do its thing to make it deeper. I don't even think you know why its happening for you, your naturally good at it with out needing to learn how to. Its a very real skill.

lmao you provided all the insights, answered all your own questions. Good move. That's an important point, my personal experience with all women i encounter is after they meet me its instant connection and they want to be around me all the time, even if we are not dating or friends they say "we have a connection". So the game your playing i find difficult to relate to, I've seen it a lot in young and insecure youth that still haven't come out of there shell yet and allowed themselves to be there authentic self and just relax. But its seems your very sensitive and educated and feel the need to restrain yourself in fear of misplaying things. Once your in flow and tuned in to the woman's needs it becomes effortless, these games and uncertainty drop away. There is a lot of this kind of reverse engineering how she feels with evidence . When your tuned in to her you know exactly what she is thinking and feeling and you don't need external evidence. Being her friend is not black and white like that. The way your talking about the masculine vs feminine polarity is people who have a unhealthy imbalances. They both need to be in balance in one person to reach your full potential. What vibe does a guru give off to a women? That's the kind of strong connection you want to give to a women. Its balanced in masculine and feminine. To be her friend is so she feels 100% comfortable with you to talk about anything, like your the first person in her life that she feels she can be her true self around and not be judged. There world changes when they meet you, every time you speak it shows them a new way of living they didnt know existed before meeting you. They have no idea how they lived there life this long with out you. That's the value you want to bring to her life that makes you into a super star in her eyes. That then needs to be in balance with sexual energy and passion that she feels for you. Passion + Intimacy + Commitment = Integral Relationship