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I moved away from the RSD crew over 14 years ago. There is truth in what Owen is saying, but you have to understand his motives and where he's at in his own growth process. His tactics are based on manipulation, lack authenticity, and do not come from a place of self-love. If you have to try hard to get someone to like you, then you are not loving yourself (this is a complex topic). Also, not every girl or guy is going to like you. So stop trying to impress them all. As you grow, you will gravitate towards kind, loving people with similar values and some shared interests. A lot of what he is talking about is a side effect of growth. Not a way to behave to get and keep someone. Act with integrity and stop trying so hard. Figure out what you want, do it, be direct and honest, face your fears, take care of your health, and act with integrity; and that will set you leagues apart from others. A solid partner is going to know what your flaws and weaknesses are. That one will encourage you to keep growing moving forward in the face of adversity.

I'm not sure if this is going to be true for all, but for me it was necessary to be around greens all the time before I came to truly understand them. Or, at the very least, not be repulsed by them. I still don't use pronouns, but I am considering it just because I have some trans friends now and want them to feel supported. At this point, I am tired of hearing the term "woke". I feel blessed because I live in Portland and I think many are going to miss on some good shit out by living in centrist communities. Go to a green school, join green communities, join a sangha, stay at a monastery, make friends with trans people, etc. I think that's what many on this forum are going to need. We don't change in isolation or by dwelling in echo chambers. It takes humility to learn from people around you.

100% I used to be one of them, by the way, until I moved to Portland and met true green folk that actually knew how to think, many of whom I have come to admire. I still feel that I'm filling into my green shoes. I'll never believe in the woo woo spiritual bullshit that green believes, but I am biased socially and politically, and could care less about yellow. Right now, I think that orange needs to be held accountable for the mess we are in and I think that some need to pay with their lives. This kumbaya mentality towards all members of society can piss off. We need greens with bazookas and AKs. That said, there are also people who know nothing about integral theory or development psychology, that think they hold an enlightened perspective because they see things from multiple perspectives. They claim to be progressive, but demonize woke culture 24/7 as is if it were their job. The enlightened centrist.

Are you saying that free health care is a good idea?

I'd have to think this through some more, but I don't think we necessarily need a conscious society for democracy to work. What we do know, is that the US constitution needs a major fucking facelift to protect against the bullshit we see now. Private and corporate donors, for one, need to be eliminated from eligibility. We need term limits for senators and judges. A major fucking vetting process for workers in all branches of government. This is more complex, but the two party system that we currently have is totally fucking BS. They demonize each other and split the country in half. So depending on who's elected, 50% of the country thinks they aren't being represented. Granted, a lot of this has to do with lack of intelligence on the peoples' parts. Our education system fucking sucks. People have no idea who they are voting for. Many don't understand policy so they vote based on personality or charisma or bullshit like "They're going to take your guns" / "Trans in womens' bathrooms" etc. Anyways, there's a lot that can be done. Just because what we have now did not work, does not mean that democracy doesn't. We have a lot of work to do. Corruption has to be weeded out and we need to find a way to keep it so.

Well said.

This isn't a bad idea. But good luck finding this on the street. Find someone who really specializes in LSD and can tell you what kind of crystal it is, and who the chemist is. I agree with some of what you posted, but it also depends on how you define "good". I like visual, euphoric types. But also, the amount that you take can have different effects. The stuff I have now is great at 250ug. But when you go over 300ug you just get confused as fuck. There are two chemists that I have really grown to trust over the years. But even then, they mix up their recipes, refine them, etc. So the effects change. And sometimes they just have shitty batches.

It drives me nuts.

This is a fantastic explanation. Thanks!

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Exactly. My recommendation here would be to go hang out with some kind trans folks for a few months and see if you have the same opinion All I hear on this thread is ignorance

LSD doesn't taste like anything. Liquid LSD is usually mixed with vodka or everclear alchohol for drops so if you take a drop, it might taste like liquor I second the motion about getting an LSD test kit if you're getting it from the street. Or just find Dr. Seuss

I can relate to what a lot of you are saying here because I felt the same wzy. I didn't understand them I thought they were mentally ill I would not use pronouns Since moving to a city with lots of trans people, being around them a lot, them being kind to me, I now support them. I don't care what the reason is, I will be kind and respectful and treat them like people deserving lo love and respect. The same as all of you hjere Part of growing up is love , tolerance and accepting of people who are different from you. Don't forget that

Well, this certainly does seem to be the actions taking place right now https://bsky.app/profile/sarahkendzior.bsky.social/post/3lgsyqiznks2o

I have another storage question. What is the best way to store liquid LSD and LSD blotters? I can only find anecdotal evidence on the web so I have no idea. Recently, I took a tab that I had sitting in a dark, mylar bag, for years and I was surprised how hard I treipped given how long it'd been sitting around in my closet. I'm not sure if that even mattered. Now for the real question. I have a vial of liquid in a dark glass that I keep it in the fridge. It is Dr Suess 3.0, I thought I would mention, it is my favorite LSD. And yes, for those that don't know, quality matters, and this is the best. Extraordinarily pleasant and entertaining powerful visuals. Giggles all day! Anyways, the question I have now, should I keep it in the fridge? I'm a little worried someone might come over and do something stupid. I'd feel terrible. Next question, I also have tabs. Should I keep the them in the freezer? I'm afraid they'll get condensation if the fridge breaks or again if someone discovers them. Last question, I have read that LSD on blotter lasts longer than liquid. How is that so? What does seem to be common knowledge, is that light, heat, and oxygen can degrade the molecule. I usually store my shit in an airtight jar with a desiccant and an de-oxidizer packet. But! There there seems to be so much disagreement about how long this shit actually lasts. I have heard people say that they've had LSD that's lasted 20 years. No idea. :SHRUG:

One more thing, I gave my close friend some tabs a couple of years ago. He recently took them and said they were week. But these were 150ug tabs. He tends to be aloof, so I'm not sure if it was just him not storing them right, or if it was the LSD. I do remember, that mine from the same batch had started to turn brown over the years. Not sure what that was all about but I never took those ones again.

It sounds to me like you need to teach your mind that it's ok to be in the body. You seem wound up, relaxation into the discomfort will offer you some release. If I were you, I'd get serious about finding a quality meditation teacher. I'd start with that since this sounds like a spiritual crisis. From there, i'd ask the teacher if he thinks you should do therapy. The challenge with working with therapists and meditations teachers simultaneously is they can contradict each other.

Ok, i have a few questions here... Is awakening through psychedelics the same as awakening through meditation? Is the effect the same? Also, does awakening through psychedelics make it easier to access the awakened state easier through meditation? If so, why do you think that is on a very precise, technical level? Does awakening the natty way become easier for those that use psychedelics? For some reason I feel compelled to ask this question, based on this quote by Nisargadatta Maharaj : “Wisdom is knowing I am nothing, Love is knowing I am everything, and between the two my life moves.” What does he mean by that? Is the experience of being everything and being nothing a reference to different types (or depths) of awakenings?

They got you twice then. Cuz now you're part of a cult.

That happened to me in the beginning also. I went straight for the big insights. Leo offered some solid advice. If I could go back I'd have started out by doing a lot of calming style meditation practices, exercise, and chilling with good friends; Existential contemplation without a calm mind can be incredibly destabilizing. There's a reason the Buddhists put so much emphasis on Samatha meditation. Reading a lot of books and consuming a lot of video content can also be destabilizing. Eventually you learn to slow down because the suffering becomes too great. Make sure to get help from a teacher that you trust if things get too bad. Meaninglessness can really fuck up your life.

I'm super sensitive to caffeine, I can't have it at all, not even a can of coke or I have panic attacks. In that state I can't handle noise at all. Also, you may want to look into HSP (highly sensitive person).

It seems to me that the US is beyond saving. That's not even accurate, it's just that there's on-one coming to save us. The dems done fucked up by giving into greed and corruption. Anyone wondering why very few are speaking up? It's because they're not going to. This is not an issue of left vs right, or dems vs conservative parties. This is about corruption and what is born out of corruption. Enter fascism. According to Political scientist Dr. Lawrence Britt. Here are The 14 Characteristics of Fascism Powerful and Continuing Nationalism Disdain for the Recognition of Human Rights Identification of Enemies/Scapegoats as a Unifying Cause Supremacy of the Military Rampant Sexism Controlled Mass Media Obsession with National Security Religion and Government are Intertwined Corporate Power is Protected Labor Power is Suppressed Disdain for Intellectuals and the Arts Obsession with Crime and Punishment Rampant Cronyism and Corruption Fraudulent Elections Layer that on top of what we've seen playing out over the last few years and it should start to click. Now that we see social services being cut, protections gutted, becoming a country of isolation, cost of goods going up... What is going to come of poor and other marginalized groups? Imprisonment? Starvation? Deportation? Concentration camps? Wikipedia does a pretty good job in describing fascism with historical examples: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fascism Here's a couple of the more interesting excerpts that pertain to my question: Why in the fuck isn't everyone thinking about leaving the country?

Ok, so, basically I see a few different different threads but I don't know how they are all tied together or how they can all coexist. 1. Trump and his jerk mates have deep, long lasting ties with the Kremlin. Russia infiltrated the US government some time ago and has been manipulating us to cannibalise ourselves with the goal of bringing down the west and expanding their territories. They've made deals behind closed doors but I'm not exactly sure what Trump and the US gets out of it besides getting a share of Ukraine's minerals. Maybe Trump was blackmailed, I'm not sure. 2. Project 2025, we all know about that, no big secret here. 3. Network states. This is some scary shit. These fuckers just want to burn it all down and erect virtual but sovereign nations. Basically, societies that operate like tech startups. The primary industries include AI, defense technology, cybersecurity, and other tech shit. These would be cryptocurrency-based societies. Backers include Peter Thiel, Sam Altman, and other tech billionaires. Network states have been spoken about and written about openly. There are books, interviews, videos, etc. I do not know why this isn't getting more attention and I've yet to hear anyone in the current administration even mention it. Someone on this forum posted this link which led me to look into it a little further: https://www.vcinfodocs.com/ Other resources: https://www.amazon.com/Network-State-How-Start-Country-ebook/dp/B09VPKZR3G Thoughts?

I live in Portland. A lot of marginalized move people here because they can find acceptance and because of state services. A lot of people are worried. Especially the LGBTQ community, disabled, and activists. Trump explicitly said that he's "coming after us" so we'll have to wait and see what that will entail. I'm predicting a huge fiasco once the larger protests kick off. He'll probably really fuck with any funding we get as well.

I love that