Actualizer777

Hey fellow actualizers! I have a huge problem for years already. I am constantly afraid of diseases and I feel like I am sick all the time. It is always the same: I notice some symptoms like headache or chest tightness and I immediately think that it must me cancer, a heart problem or something like that. Then I google symptoms and all of the sudden I notice that I have more and more symptoms of cancer or heart disease. (I am 20 btw.) After months of anxiety I go to multiple doctors which tell me that I am fine. Then I feel relaxed and the symptoms go away. After some weeks or months I am worrying about stomach ache or something else. And the cycle repeats. I always have some symptoms but I am never really ill (thank god). My two questions are: How can I deal with this hypochondria? How can I stop being afraid of cancer, heart disease etc. in general? I am afraid because sometimes they come out of nowhere.

It seems like you are trying to transcend Orange before being actually Orange. Like Scott Peck says in his book "Road Less Travelled": "We can only transcend what we have!" You can't transcend your desire for money, without having enough money. You can't transcend your desire for winning, until you are a winner. Because then you are just a loser. Don't try to give something up that you don't have yet. Also look at Maslow's hierarchy of needs. You probably have some unmet needs. Take care of them before focusing on enlightenment or self-actualization. Otherwise it is fake.