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Just had my best cold shower experience so far. I did some breathing while slowly turning the water to its coldest setting. And then performed som palm motions such as wim does after getting out of the cold, after that I felt so good I just started to dance like som raving maniac but in a graceful manner, lmao. Safe to say I felt like a divine being after that shower, if I'm ever feeling down, a cold shower and some dancing will instantly get me out of that I can guarantee. Tomorrow I might add some music while performing this sacred cold dance ritual hehe. Was not feeling like doing today's workout at all after staying up till 5 AM last night following the election, while eating candy and drinking little soda (which I never drink), woke up feeling like an utter disaster. But I just did the workout at a slower pace and listened to Leo's science part 2 video. Felt really detoxing and nice. My wake up routine has gone in the gutter after I stopped being able to go on runs. But I'm going to make sure to wake up at least around 7-8 for the while I'm not running. I'm definitely feeling like giving it a shot again soon. Especially since the upcoming Mushroom trip I have planned. But my leg is still pretty bothersome so I won't rush it.

Ego is needed in order for god to create beings that can realize themselves as god, that's how nature works. The ego has no control over what happens. It's all pre-planned/created in the moment, for the highest outcome of love possible. Maybe I'm just chatting shit...or maybe not

You need the survival of your body in order for god to experience itself. So if you neglect staying alive, you defeat the purpose of god which is to create yourself right now in this moment out of love for itself. Other things have their own survival, that's how you exist in the first place. If everyone were to give up their survival, there would be no experiencing reality.

Just finished a great workout and a cold shower. This was by far my longest time under the cold, bit more than 12 minutes. And my god it feels heavenly afterwards. Cold showers are becoming the favorite part of my day now. It happens occasionally where I just would do anything rather than going under the freezing cold water, but it's in those moments where the biggest wins are to be found, you realize that fear before was just illusory and it was all worth it in the end. I've never ever regretted a cold shower and doubt it's even possible. Sometimes I do the Wim breathing under but I've come to like more just letting go of all resistance with deep slow breathing instead of the faster-paced breathing. But I think I like the Wim breathing more once the shower is over, usually feel more alive and energized.

@Nahm Still waiting on the book! No pressure though.

A family friend of ours also got crushed under a bus which he was working under a couple of weeks ago. And then a week after that another worker got killed when a massive bulldozer fell off a mountain and hit him. Strange times. I agree as well with the funerals. My last request should be that all my family and friends are to take mushrooms in the forest or I'll hunt them forever.

I just had a dream where I had like a 3-hour discussion with Leo while playing basketball. Safe to say it's one of my favorite dreams ever. Actually got a lot of "real" advice out of it.

There's no reason to speculate before trying it, that's just mental masturbation. The direct experience makes you directly aware of the experience of knowing truth. But first, you must not-know to know. That doesn't mean to be so sceptical that you're closing your mind, circle jerkin about it. It does nothing to speculate beforehand, no pun intended.

I second that. However, I won't post a gif of that. ?

Look at your hand for an hour and you'll realize what is.

Me and my friend just picked up some liberty cap mushrooms on Saturday. It's been a while since I last did a mushroom trip, probably around 10 months or so. I've mainly been working with LSD for the majority of my trips the last years, alongside a few other chemicals such as Ket, M, edibles, etc. I'm really excited to dip my toe into the mushroom world again and am expecting a great trip. I've got to get my meditation on point before I enter, which may be around 10 days away. I really want to work on my life purpose for this trip and believe mushrooms are a perfect substance for that. It will be a 2g trip, so nothing too crazy. I've done many 2g and 3g trips before and have always had very profound awakenings on them. I'd say it's the sweet spot for a purpose driven trip. I've also done 4g lemon-tek which was just utter chaos, haha. I'll also make sure to go with the stream. If the mushroom is not feeling like giving me any vision towards my purpose then I won't fight it. I'm always up for a deeper god/love driven trip as well. I'm going to watch some Matt Kahn, Spira, and ofc Leo before I head in, so I'll be in the right mindset, but meditation and contemplation come first. External content has its place but it's more so to keep my mind on this matter. Internal observation is what I'll be mainly watching the next days. I'm really excited for this trip. I've been really contemplative recently, usually after reading. I've been re-reading Conversations with god again. That book never disappoints I'll tell you. It always puts me into such a deep state of mind, it's like lube for contemplation. Also been thinking about diving back into Ken Wilbers The religion of tomorrow. It's really dense though so I'll really have to get into my reading groove to plow through it. Really been observing my inner dialogue lately, to catch how sneaky my mind is. I believe watching your thoughts is one of the fastest ways for personal growth and dissolving that ego slowly, shedding the layers of the onion so to speak.

have you tried to meditate before bed?

@PurpleTree What's your sleeping schedule like?

Don't see what you're on about. But as long as it ends with infinite love, then It's all good.

and not.

You take god for a fool? This is all happening out of pure construct for the highest love imaginable. To an ego, it certainly is out of control, but absolutely, it's all moving in perfect unity. No coincidences.

That's a materialistic thought. Nothing happens by accident.

Went out for a t-shirt run yesterday with a friend of mine, was pretty cold but I've grown to like the cold a lot so it's no problem. However, what is a problem is my leg. I'm still getting this extreme needle pain and numbness in my foot and up to the knee. I've suspected it could be cuz I was running slower with company, but yesterday we did pick up the pace a little more but it was still not as fast as I run on my own usually. I'm going to go for a run likely tomorrow morning at my normal pace and see if this problem still occurs. This problem has really disrupted my 5 AM wake up which is unfortunate. It's really tough to wake up this early unless you're going out for a run or working on something at least. I've still been working out full time and going for the occasional run.

When you're in an absolute state, there is nothing but truth, you realize you are truth. There's no point in talking about it really, one has to experience it to realize it. It's like, you are, right? You are. I am. That is true. So when you're in an absolute state, you just see truth for what it is. It just is, like this exact moment. Can't really be put into words.

Direct experience vs ideological ideas.

It was always love and always will be, it does not go beyond it. You'll see it in the end; God is love and you don't go past god. Love is what made water a possibility in the first place. The selfless act of god, accepting everything as equal out of its love, made water a possibility. So it actually doesn't hold water, it is water.

The majority here are still at orange with hue of green. We just have a very green government. Well aware of that. Or just both. No shoulds or shouldnt's, no will's or wont's.

I realize that. I was just noting how it's not really the deepest awakening if your mind is still filled with cultural norms. But I guess it doesn't really matter. I've just yet to find a stage blue enlightened person that speaks about love as the highest awakening.

The deepest awakening is love. How could they ever be racist or homophobic if they realize oneness? They should know they're mocking themselves. Isn't the deepest awakening the highest state + the highest worldview? More pure mind=more pure awakening.