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@Mahyar Armodafinil has been amazing for me too. I've been able to work more than full-time (job, business, and work towards my life purpose). Rarely it will make me feel really anxious or extremely horny and it makes it hard to get thing done, though. I haven't been able to figure out why it has a negative effect sometimes.

This is insane: https://edition.cnn.com/2022/02/04/business/jeff-bezos-rotterdam-yacht/index.html "Rotterdam may dismantle historic bridge for superyacht reportedly owned by Jeff Bezos"

Your website looks neat. But well you'd have to market it. If you're okay at writing you could try writing about your creative experiences on Medium for example and build up a following. Or write tutorials etc. And then write those same stories on a blog on your own site. It could also help you grow your email list and drive more traffic. Example: https://uxdesign.cc/how-to-fix-dragging-animation-in-ui-with-simple-math-4bbc10deccf7 People have quite some success writing tutorials on how to solve technical problems everyone faces. Anyway this is just some random idea on how to market your site. Try out different things and test for what works. Other than that just continue to challenge yourself with creative projects and showcase a lot of your work for free as well.

Haha my guess was way off... Either way I wouldn't go even if it were free

Lol. Since you're making a thread about this I expect it to be high. My guess: $1500

Perhaps you could research possibilities such as working part-time or with a flexible contract (I personally got a unique job at a tech startup for 2-3 days a week) Now if you add up income from a part-time job and you focus on increasing your online income streams, move out to a small apartment, and keep your living expenses low, then you might still have enough time left to do what you need to do to advance your creative career.

This is hilarious

Before you get yourself involved with NFTs, wactch this video: I know NFTs are very interesting to creators/artists and to some of you here. And there might be real value to at least the idea of a non fungible token. But most of what is being sold regarding NFTs right now does seem very scammy. So watch out and do your research.

Here's an interesting list of "Happiest Countries In The World:" https://worldpopulationreview.com/country-rankings/happiest-countries-in-the-world Note that the countries at the top are places where most people have their basic survival needs met, are actually closest to Spiral Dynamics Stage Green, and have the least corrupt goverments. So it looks like the "average person" in those countries is relatively happy. I also think that it helps not to have to worry about basic survival needs as much because it will free up your time and energy to focus on other things in life. Personally my awareness of who I could be and what my life could be like have not always made me happier. But it has given me something better. I feel more alive and engaged with life. Like I'm less of an NPC going through life like a "happy" but lifeless robot. I think that living life like a warrior gives you a deeper satisfaction than "happiness."

Take it in the morning and take very little. And maybe use armodafinil instead. And try using it only once a week or so to get some important work done.

In the Netherlands it's 16. I guess it's fine if it's 15-16-year-olds experimenting/exploring with eachother and not with older people. As long as they do it safely...

Others have already given great advise. But I'll share some of my own thoughts too. I summarized some important points: Realistically you need to become financially independent from your parents to move out. Set this goal for yourself for 2022. I understand you say you have no time now. You need to set some things straight in the short term and it's really hard. But once you improve your situation you can start to focus more on long-term goals and experiment. And even fail. It's all necessary. I also recommend working on many diverse artsy projects (Small Bets concept in Leo's course if you bought that) once you are able. You can set goals for this too. Such projects can help you learn where your passions and talents are, and eventually perhaps help you earn some money too. What would you ideally want to study in university or a school? If you already know it then set that as a goal (even if it takes a few years until you can do it). That might not be possible where you live or in Morroco. I don't know. But I personally know people from India and China who study in the Netherlands or Germany. Of course a lack of money is the biggest obstacle here. Although some people can get a scholarship. Maybe you can work towards getting one? I know ''Holland Scholarship"' (govt program) can give non-EU students about €5000. Maybe you can gain some experience by taking an internship or job related to graphic design/illustration? Is that possible where you live? Maybe you can find some opportunities online? And maybe you can find a mentor or someone who was in a similar situation as you. Maybe you can find such a person online. Don't spend years in university stuyding something you're not interested in. You will have less time for everything important. It's natural to seek approval from your parents. To feel their love. But don't feel ashamed of yourself because of how they view you. It's also fine not to focus on your passion in the short-term to make money. But it's better to frame this as a nessecary step towards finally being able to pursue your passion. Might help motivate you. Anyway I understand your frustration. Your situation doesn't sound that easy. But keep up your spirit and don't give up!

It can be. But at the same time I don't recommend it. I tried edible weed a couple of times and realized the potential for addiction would be worse for me than alcohol. Started with the intention to do personal and spiritual work and ended up using it because the music and porn is 10x better...

I think another part of the problem is that psychedelics can bring to the surface certain problems that you hid away deep inside yourself. They key would be to focus on those things and fix up your life. But for some it might be too much to handle and then drugs offer temporary relief. I only ever microdosed on LSD and experimented with edible weed. And in a sense I'm still working through my first, mild LSD trip. Had to do some painful work on myself and work towards some specific goals for about a year. I think an incremental approach to psychedelics might be best for most.

Yes this seems to be the only realistic exit strategy at the moment (that I'm aware of). We don't know too much about Omicron yet. Let's hope it's not as lethal as other variants.

God

Democracy has its limits. I remember back in high school people could vote for the "smartest kid" just before we graduated. And the results were published in the year book. It was really beyond cringe. The same was done for the most "handsome guy" and most "beautiful girl" and some other things. It was terrible because it also turned into this big ego game. These contests and naming people "the best this or that" is probably fun, but also a waste of time

Alcohol makes things "easier" for me. Because I start to care less about what people think of me. But alcohol really kills my libido and sex feels less intense and I'd rather sleep lol

The only good use I got out of dislikes was when watching tutorials on YouTube. Makes it easy to spot low quality or scam. So the dislikes were not all negative.

I've never really played Factorio all that much. I only tried it a few times but found it a bit too boring for my taste. But some people go so far as to create an entire game within Factorio...I just thought it was so amazing I wanted to share it here. I can't quite put my finger on why this reminds me of fractals

99.99% of people or so can't handle it. Even most monks can't. Isolation is a broad term though. But only a very small exceptional group of monks could go through "solitary confinement." It being forced on you doesn't help of course. It's very different when it's a conscious choice you make for your spiritual advancement. And a big difference is that the monk can choose to stop it at any time. And they're trained, gifted, etc. On top of that prisoners that end up in solitary confinement probably already have a very low level of consciousness and development so yeah...

Yes! But it does become easier, especially if you learn to enjoy the socializing

Yeah... isolation can do that. I guess early in life when going to school and through college your "social life" and "role in society" is more automatic and unconscious and it's much easier because of that. And it's hard after that to figure out how to live a social life or be a member of society. But on the upside: Now you get to consciously create it... I'm sorry for your bad experiences. But it's possible to heal simply by socializing again in a healthy way. I was going through similar things as you (at least socially) and set a general long-term goal for myself to significantly improve my satisfaction with my social life. I had a lot of bad experiences while working towards that goal but by being persistent I found some people I can really connect with after about 9 months of work. I also found a better way to balance being introverted and being in solitude (and not feeling lonely, Leo's recent videos on this topic are amazing for this too) and socializing. Other aspects of my social and sexual life are much better now too. The good experiences really do help to heal. You gotta learn to forget about the failures and accept them as necessary. It's important you really sit down (multiple times over a longer period of time) and contemplate what you want out of your "social life." And then set a number of concrete goals to work towards. By having this goal in your mind you also start to notice you can learn a lot just by observing how others do it or people similar to you. Also watch a lot of YouTube videos on this, read about these topics, and take a lot of action.