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You're not in control of your life. did I fucking choose to be on this forum spilling my shit ? absolutely not. but then I m thinking, I should meditate work on others things, because I m in control of what I do ( but where does this idea come from ) but when I'll choose to do it, did I choose to do it ? where does come my choice to act upon X or Y ? Why a belief that I should be doing X or Y. Can we trust our belief, at each time, for which context ? or did the world choose to change my sense for whatever unconscious reasons. for me the biggest realisation is that everyone is a pnj believing he is a player. even the player have been made by the game to looks like player. You didn't choose the pack of experience and knowledge you gathered so far. You didn't choose to wake up, you asked too much questions because the game itself is a mindfuck. when start the moment you own yourself ? never, but when does start the time where I feel in control ? when I m not stuck in ego. You can only be aware that it is all a movie running the show with you. the real "let go" should be on the entirety of your beliefs, thoughts, mind, paradigm, experiences. when you ultimately become aware that you're nothing, and you choose nothing. You live up the movie outside your head, but in the meantime, what's in your head is part of the game, ultimately, it's all a screen. when you look a movie, do you try to change the end while you're watching it ? why do we keep doing it for real life ? non sense. did you choose to reach the moment where you start to choose things ? why did you reach this moment ? I m not saying accept what others told you, nor your society, nor a god, nor a guru. I m saying if you feel like you have to beat others, do it. if you feel you have to love, do it. if you think you have to think do it. if you don't give a fuck about thinking do it if you don't want to do it, don't do it

connecting to their inner bullshit. very blue thinking and all the clients can only be blue or lower.

no reward, no punishment, no karma. no low, no high no left nor right litteraly. a story in your head. there is "law" like in physics, but thoses laws doesn't work according to your awareness/self referencing system. ( could be, I don't know, doesn't seams like ) because all choices are rooted in ego, in delusion. choice of being love or selfless, a delusion again. wanting to do the right or wrong things, that's already living in delusion. there is only pure breathing and acceptation of being a pure observer. Enjoy crying, suffering and everything, you cannot avoid being a physical spectator of this all interactive movie game of art. you're all just playing with your mind and words salad, there is litteraly no higher states of thinking. unless you choose to stop thinking and start only "being".

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look the entire course on the human brain on youtube from the same dude

depend, if you do it mindfully. I read many tantra exercice about self pleasure. someone awakened could still put his life to the service of giving sex or be a master at sex. but surely this is a drug. but guess what, everything we put our hands on, is a potential chemical release ( energy depletion ). so surely if you cease an activity that depletes you ( like if you fap 5 times a day ) of course you'll feel like shit when you do, and feel good when you don't. if you see yourself as a phone, with battery everyday. it depend aswell how many time you abused porn:fapping. you can seriously live a healthy life while fapping on porn; But it depend the porn, depend the practice you do, depend how you do it, why you do it, and HOW many times you do it, and how your body react to overdoing it/ not doing it. I would try period without fapping for days ( just to effectively, cease the ritual pattern and become aware of it, if there is ) I think the shame from fapping, coming from religious belief

I m almost sure that coffee is worst than weed on the overall health, but no one will back up this. Smoking / & smoking with tobacco, probably lower this rate. I m only talking like if we were injecting thc/cbd. the effect on health is probably "better" especially for creative purpose. maybe a reason why Charles Baudelaire writted book about cannabis.

how would look conscious porn ? no porn ??

somehow, my fapping knowledge is huge, and I got many insights while doing it. most of my biggest insight about life was while masturbating in fact. fapping is backed up by me, I tryed aswell no fap. ( aswell have a girlfriend, but someday, I just want to fap anyway ) I would call about "balance" but it should not be used for "bad/fear/avoidance". that's a BAD way to fap. Avoiding the work by fapping. nofap, or being abused by a cycle of fap abuse, both a toxic. fapping should be part of the work, it should be done mindfully. if you abuse something, of course it will lead you in a hole. ( I mean, metaphoricaly speaking ) same for absoluly everything, find the "abuse line" of everything.

they call me 10/10 everyday

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there was an illusion, all there is "is illusion" in fact, all there is before : - Illusion of ego - awareness of concept : "illusion and perspective" - you become aware of the idea of illusion and perspective. - you're now aware of the process of illusion & perspective. - you're not the same : now you have illusion of your own deluded illusion. even if words are flat, pointer to true metaphysical points are "accurate" for a moment, context . . All things change, unless time reverse itself

if transcending and having insight is just a troll to find how lel I feel my pov, and I feel the world, I m alive. I had to find that life was just beautiful and I m complete. this isn't enlightment, this isn't even being woke, that's being utterly deluded. if for PEOPLE here, finding your tails and accept the tail is part of growth, it's lol knowing the illusion was not an illusion, you didn't fully woke. fully woke means you cut off your tails, it means you killed all illusions, even the illusion of being an human in a pov, cause it is another illusion; the illusion of being the illusion of oneness the illusion of illusion the illusion of "full circle", there has never been a circle to start with NO. ultime is knowing entirely you're god, god god point. not like an idea, but like you still believe that rock are rocks, you know that yourself is god, just like the rock appear as a rock to you. god appear as god, that's all. a character in the system could reach god through himself; when you wake, you come from a place of being a content to being a structure. things change forever, and you'll never be the same, and nothing you want to call oneness exist neither. I can realise myself fully and still act as Hitler, no one fucking knows who will become the joker, who is good, who is bad, blablablabla. it's all masturbation to grow up. you sounds like a flower with rage and unconsciousness doesn't exist neither, everything is conscious, and you become like the flower, more & more close to the sun.

Let go of wanting to improve. Let go of life purpose Imagine you're going on a rollercoaster. In fact you are in one right now. Psychedelics and you become aware that It's spinning by itself

For me that's the contrary. I struggled with learning content. Especially cause when system are deconstructed. You Can predict everything and loose the 'fun' Or having the New fun of a creator'. Trying to make aswell my own vidéo game at 13 ( with frog creator' / rpg maker though haha ). It open up the mind to Matrix thinking

It was very serious. Your mind create the idea that I play with you. And that's probably a projection created by imprint of reading others around. I wasn't and my message is very serious. I m god. Everything. Universe. Absolute Not this not that. But everything and nothing

In France there is I find two astrophysican PhD in physics ( teacher ) & PhD in philosophy : metaphysics' / epistemology. But sure yellow/turquoise. I m listening all his teachings and that's cool that he always break down langage & science / against scientism

Why so triggered. Non realised awakening : this guy is believing in duality & belief Awakened : sure that's me boi Non believing = belief No mind = belief sensation created by the mind. Living the non dual life = delusion There is only mind. You can't transcend god. Cause god is what you are

You're the most spiritual ego deluded of the whole forum Adveita bear

How can you know for sure ?

My favorit video. Need to be listened more than once. But right you need knowledge and be self grounded if you want to know it is truth

it's a huge question. you mean cbd alone ? no effect on consciousness ( not really, it's not psychotropic )

I love your recent enthusiam nahm. Your post are more lightfree and centered. Will think of buying a simple blender for Christmas and start my own potions. @pluto what kind of herbal plant or mushrooms ? Are detox more legit than the stress from doing it ?

Don't try to do or be anything. Just 'be' Maybe you and I will never be high musician' in this Era. And for good reasons. You won't follow the recipe for success cause you don't aim it. Most success artist nowaday self actualized their brains to the point of just becoming tool of the industry. ( Electronic music ) Some people like to follow recipe and 'what works' Others do their shit. I see myself having a tiny success in music 35/40 but for the good reasons and without my music and soul being zombyfied by the industry. It's a dream that being a musician is better than being where you are. Consciousness doesn't evolve only because of the path. Your mind is the only path to freedom. Of course you will or not be a musician..but I wouldn't worry about it. Focus on your soul. Your soul will tell you what feels right. You don't even need answers back. In fact you have all your answers. There is just a piece of your mind that feel threatened by 'loosing your dream'. Loose everything - see what remains