Aeris

You should embody more your masculine sides. gnarling & roaring

This topic résonate but you did a lot of psych tho. Tell yourself that I was like you for this questions at 7 years old. Not easy to navigate when the whole world looks totaly asleep. Something has to be wrong with me having Infinite questions. Of course at 12 I was into complotism stuff esp with internet. Then I go sleep myself with vidéo games and shit for almost a décade Just giving a side to my experience about my own spirituality You are getting the green very good. keep your tools for inquiry sharp.

Does it work then ? Look my stack seams to work without Théa or coffee. But more efficient for my very work is a bit of weed. Or sometimes coffee but it is a poker card.

Marc Dorcel is a spiritual movement from another persp

If you stopped add drug. All of that is easy You should observe that all this are addiction to you. So you don't own your life purpose enough. A strong goal and a loving passion that clear your mind and allow you to set your life to be optimal for that goal. Then you see why this Time could be spend better for you Aim for experimenting. There is no such things as wrong behavior but if this doesn't help you. Why are you still on it ?

concept are truth if you can experience them.

You didn't réalise. If so. You would know there is no séparation between drug and god

that's why I only have few friends in fact now that I m clear with my way. I have no time for 10 relationship. the more you got, the more hollows they are aswell just what I observed on me. and with girls, one is already taking me too much time. When I would use my time to makes music and all sort of things if I was around 2-3 girls ? and I need aswell true dedication, a girl who fucks around and stack MST is not my thing, I cannot accept to share emotion in her mind with thinking about the others guy who fucked her yesterday. I need aswell someone worth to trust and that I could totaly be vulnerable with. with friends I m the same, loyal and trustful. and I hope for the same. I m not really into pick up life dedication is not a disease, it is bliss and true passion, the only way to accomplish solid things long term. when you'll one day be 30y + you will hardly have any solid relation with anyone. of course fix my love in a few range that I call "family" is dangerous, but having no solid attachement, then no family, no deep spirituality. depend what you call spirituality, of course people bother me etc.. it takes work to keep real relations but I m not sayin your way are wrong, you should just not believe that "family" is a thought story, it's just one of the main aspect of the metaphysical aspect of reality. Even monkeys have a sense of family and fixed relation ( especially for rising a child, but still ).

there is no brain, nothing to fry. or maybe a conceptual thing that act on conceptual outcome could be fry. you project that we fear death or loosing some non existant smartness. real self actualization is spartiat/samuraï, it's the way of thinking warrior. you fear drug, you fear sword, you fear experiences especially. psychedelics are more of an hacking tools. of course there is cons to brute force hack and many loose it without "grounding" or solid way of integrating the experience for what it is. tools are used stupidly, I did mushroom 2 times in 2 days 2 years ago, then wait 1 year to be on LSD/mush for a month alone on microdose and little trip, then I didn't do more. I clearly see that you go into delusion world after those experiences, but after delusion truth. It's like pushing the process quickly, of course psychedelics turn you INSANE, you start being aware that everything was non sense, how could you make sense of knowing that all was non sense? it takes time

so it's not a thought story to use it to understand myself and aim my LP better ? would you believe it ? I m a natural brainstorm, and like to disrupt all emotions in conversation of people, only for excitement. Of course I m not a "adhd" I just observe what I do, maybe wrongly, it could be. I makes everything I touch exciting or make it, by all ways and all means. Everything that excite me is worth doing. Even joking about Hitler or killing babies, if this create emotion in people, I always feed myself on those. I could create "fight" only for not being borred, without any ego attached to a concept I relate to. Alright true, we have a lot of fun with people who cannot be bothered by talk. ( but it can go as far as laughing about killing babies ) just one exemple on how dangerous it is for me to have this behavior, most people are asleep or touchy, I keep awareness for months, but I always in a natural way ( especially when "sober" ) I m tingling people around with all sort of trigger. I could destroy all my relations for not being borred. And I cannot obey someone more stupid than me, I give him free teaching or free suffering for not being above me. I makes people stand on my ground, or fall in hell. Weed saved me from being a total disruptive chaotic man. But kind of exhausting and very COSTY, and very banned in France. thanks all for your replies.

I did ritalin for 2 years straight ( and with weed on top of that all day long ) one day you'll now why I m completely out of using those drugs. ( I did without weed aswsell ) can help for some production work like "mixing", but there is two things with ritalin : - big crash / stacking no sleep ( using sort of sleep pills or whatever to sleep ) - high pressure in the ears ( more "high frequency", your ears are more "alert" so opened ), ( and I think all stimulant do it, even coffee ). Not good for producing music long term. now my drug is not pushing my self, but doing all days a total aware session of work, I changed my way to see how I m productive, more observational work and internal visualisation than raw production. I still smoke weed, but less, like 0.2g per day at night, before it was like 1,5g a day

this excite me.

it's not a paradigm shift to be with more than 1 woman. the trick is, if no one complete you, you believe that is self actualized to be fully independant, that is right indeed. but in the meantime, not having solid relation with someone, no spiritual connection, you will always been seeing people as mere experience, however it's your choice for now, maybe a day you'll like a woman enough for not wanting the others. relation "exclusive" are not a thought put by society totaly.

Fuck your sister' mwhahaha joking'

Heeee. I m still an angry junkie

They litteraly pushed me toward good tangible result in my way of processing work and thoughts. I didn't loose my mind. I enhanced my way of using logic. Maybe a misunderstanding Can you define me exactly what is this thing you call 'logic' ? We could then agree

Lol this one is not cosmic He prob never learned anything' he looks more of a red-blue comic

indeed, but unless you're aware that you're not an human/identity, litteraly seen that. anyway, what you call survival we do, but we do not really this neither, we just do things, that maintain this "mind ego driven to survive". I m aware of working on a self imagery, but this doesn't mean it is not aligned with what I deeply enjoy. "true artist" for me, is someone who can only pursue pure beauty for the sake of it did you reach a point when you stopped totaly to cling on your survival ? I m sure psychedelics can put you in those states for a time, but the ego probably come back again & again, just as long as you hold the body or whatever hold consciousness.

hum no, I like dancing on drug for the sake of it, and it's far from a sexual parade to get all the sexy booties. On the contrary, I m probably a survival failure then lel

Any books to dig this subjects guys ?

Who knows if you current so call'd judgment is truly making sense to someone else than yourself / or maybe what you call a 'critical judgement' is a misshaped cloud that you totaly believe is 'reasoning'. Of course if the cloud is all your hold on today. When we say It's experiencing death it is far from poetry. The so call'd logic is just an emotion in the global collective consciousness. When you die you Reborn. You still understand many delusion of the mass and mostly your own and because of this experience with yourself your get grounding in new ways of seeing and so acting. But now you know what you've seen

Being Bowserrr

How can I be possessed guys sounds hella fun and I would so much met aliens That's fucked up to be born satanist you get not that much fun in awakening When I asked the devil inside me. Just me laughing in echo

Haha you're funny. If we live in the false. Why are you doubting when we are certain ?

They show you everything is a misleading certainty Aldous Huxley - the door of perception A good writter describing his experience with mescaline. Hey whatever you're right but the thing is. What you're sayin it does. What you believe it does. This is a thought and pure imagination