Sukhpaal

Hey guys, recently when I've been trying to move deeper into meditating and spirituality, I always notice it almost never works out for me. For example , I'll watch a video of Leo's and I'll be excited to use his advice then out of no where, I just decide to go smoke weed and please my ego rather than actually strive for real happiness and do things that target my upper self rather than lower. I have a feeling this might be due to my ego's self defense system being activated? Any thoughts guys? Thanks.

Hey guys, I realized after meditating for a few months everything in life seems more refined to me now. For example when I go out, the trees and nature in general amazes me with its beauty. I feel like I could not see the beauty of nature before I started meditating but I can now. Everything just looks amazing now. Anyone feel this way as well?

I recognized a pattern in my mind that keeps recurring. For example, last year I began my meditation and I was 3 months in and I felt at peace. But then I had an anxiety attack and my whole belief on meditation went out the window. Then couple months later I started meditating again, I found peace but then another anxiety attack after couple months. Now I'm into my 2nd month of meditation this year and I had another anxiety attack again. I'm guessing that I am having these anxiety attacks because I don't let my emotions out as often? I'm not too sure. Because today it felt like all these emotions came at me like a roller coaster. Any advice guys? Thanks.

@Draconis Chaser I think it's this. I have a feeling it's homeostasis kicking in. Of course there are other factors but I think this is the big one.

Thanks guys for the help !

Hey guys, I recently started meditating again a month ago for 30 minutes a day. I realized that I feel a lot more at peace than I did before. But, recently I feel like I am so at peace its scary, like it feels abnormal. Anyone else feel this way sometimes?

Thanks guys!

@WelcometoReality well it felt like my mind was trying to bring up problems on purpose. I was very mindful of it, so I paid close attention. I feel that I am at peace majority of my day but sometimes my mind starts to bring up my past or future. I usually just laugh it off but sometimes it gets somewhat scary, because it doesn't like to go away.

Thanks Leo!

Oh, that makes a lot of sense. So if I keep meditating that ceiling will keep stretching? Thanks! By the way, thanks for all the work you put into your videos. Your videos have made a huge impact on my life.