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Its alright. I don't think it is at odds with what we are doing. I'try to clear it up the terminology of what he is saying a bit, with some extra spices of mine. I've been exploring this level of being quite a bit, so I think I might have something valuable to say. By happiness he most probably means: - Pleasure, instant, even delayed. - A constant state of comfort and joy. Its the rat in the wheel. A cat chasing its own tail. Its what 99% of people pursue. By suffering and sacrifice : (with some extra spice, it also is not a coincidence they are used in pair) -Suffering - the states of absence of pleasure, comfort or joy. -Suffering - the urge and the will to hold on to known comforts. -Sacrifice - deliberately letting go in order to transform. -There is no gold at the bottom of the ocean. There is gold and a kraken. -There is no gold in the darkness of the cave, there is gold and a dragon. -Something valuable in the midst of the dark, protected by unknown chaotic wisdom. Accept that there will be suffering, accept that you will sacrifice and that that is the way to grow. You can not change and remain the same at the same time. Something will have to go, and you will want to hold on to it. Even when you transform and lets say let go, you will find ways to hold on to those new things, a new transformation will be on its way, you will yet again hold on before letting go and transforming. Point is, do not avoid suffering and sacrifice. Embrace and own them. Most of what seeking happiness is the fear of these states. Seeking happiness will create suffering, disowned suffering, lurking beneath the surface, eating one away. To folk interested in astrology this is Neptune and Pisces, it is the gateway to Pluto, The guardian is Neptune, the gate is Pluto, to tarot folk its the Hanged Man. The archetype of Jesus on the cross, or even better Odin on Yggdrasil. I know that I hung upon a windy tree for nine whole nights, wounded with a spear and given to Othinn, myself to myself for me; on that tree I knew nothing of what kind of roots it came from. I did add and interpret things ofc. But I am sure if Elliot read this he would nod in agreement. Also I might not be there yet, but what I've seen Happiness is, is the radical acceptance of Love, and Love is everything, its the master emotion, one where-from everything originates, it contains everything, its not pleasure, its not Joy, its everything.

This may be a stupid idea, but here it is. If there is a way for him to stream on his website... while being able to link the users with their forum accounts, that would be great. If anyone is there to monkey around, perma IP ban. And there you go. This is far more difficult to do with you-tube or twitch. You can't moderate thousands of accounts, even with AI, its better if the creation of those accounts is in his hands and that will be on his website or the forum. This will also lead people directly here, instead of youtube. Simple 1 hour QnA streams might do. Sometimes it is difficult for people to read of what Leo means when he does a 3-5 word replies on the forum. No voice, no face, you've seen it.

Mostly neutrally. Plus some added neat bonuses. -It outsources my excuses to go outside for minor reasons. -Big food stocks clear up a lot of mental baggage regarding nutrition. -Toxic internet environment made me hook off from social media. -Daily workout/nutrition habits are easier and way more desirable to maintain. -Meditation and other spiritual practices are easier to maintain, plus there is more time for more of them. -My apartment is cleaner than a baby ass. -More time for reading. -More love and focused time on the art/music project I am doing. I am loving this. Pickard - Damage report!! -PC repairs have been delayed quite significantly and is affecting my income, found a semi-replacement, I'll make it. -Insufficient psychedelics, insufficient tegridy weed. -Chillin around with some very potent alcohol. The idea of me going somewhere away, isolated from the city, stocking up and doing my work/s, while going out once/twice a month for a restock, or for some trance/goa, dnb/neuro or metal show/festival started to grow on me.

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@Preety_India Alright, you know best, just be careful. This is how I have deceived myself in the past, beat myself up over things, not admit it and play though and in control. Most people wont admit this, especially while they are going trough it. Its just a friendly reminder, I am not claiming anything.

Alright, good luck. This might lead a way

It is, but it is also a gate to blue and even red.

Yea... this is what I was worrying about. Its rock bottom. I think you did well. Good luck with it.. Just be careful not to hoard any anger,guilt ....and all that stuff. Its best to express it and work trough it. I know you know this, its just a friendly reminder. Times can get dark and muddy.

Try out the Orbot app on your phone, you can route apps trough Tor there, it also has bridges option. Its free and open-source.

I can understand him, he is in very dark place right now, trying to get hold of anything he can regarding this relationship, the thing is, its not going to work and it will even make it worse, it drips like water trough his fingers, there is a lot of pain connected to it, the ego can't handle it, it will do anything, blame, project, play victim, play - the above, bait, anything to assure this attachment persists, severing of this connection causes pain, and he tries to establish new connections any way he can, mental, emotional it does not matter. How can I relate to it ? Because I did the same in the past, it all sounds way too familiar. It was actually what got me into personal development,act.org and into stage orange. It was a damn heavy chain Tower moment. One where your relationship breaks, your career breaks, your hobbies, health, everything.... and the last question you would be asking is - do I kill myself and end it all, everything around me is pure unknown and chaos anyway. Luckily there was voice that said - you start from what you know, learn, grow, you've been trough hard times, you'll make it out again. Not everyone will have this voice or more likely listen to it, when the thing hits you, dark portals will open up, leading you to a bottomless pit, baiting you to make that "wrong" choice. Suddenly weird things will become reasonable. You yourself may be the last pillar of light there is for you. My point with this is, when you will cut him off, it will be the peak of the Tower moment for him, it will all become black. So I think it would be honorable to cut him off at least in a loving and understanding way, so there would be light at the end of the pitch black as he falls. You don't have to, you are not obligated ofc, but it is honorable. It will also help with reducing the chance that he will see you as someone against him, which can turn later into - the whole world is against me, which can turn into - let me make this weird dark choice that may also include you. All this may be an overkill, but still it is worth having it on mind. Tell him that it is final and that you are not replying any more and commit to it. These would be my thoughts/advice. Honor yourself, honor the "other", tell the truth, bow, turn away, start walking, accept whatever may from that interaction. That is what I would do. I wish you well too. Just wrote this in this spirit so you may understand better regarding what may be happening with him.

Ah, damn, this whole thing may last for long. Try going to a fitness-supplement shop and buy couple of bags of protein. You can have about 30 shakes/small meals per kilo, you can cook with it too, people aren't going to the gym now and regular folk will overlook it, it also might be on sale because of this reason. Other than that, if there are any stores that do delivery around you go for it.. As a last resort I would do a quick research and find the nearest market dense area, protect myself well, get a big backpack, avoid crowds and head there.

I use labradoride combined with a clear quartz cluster for a lot my of work, including healing work. I like to approach it from the point of transformation . Here are my doggies.

Yeah, I usually click the "blog" button that is up here on the forum to go to the main site. And on the main site there is a "forum" button. ts linked well I'd say. Btw It would be so amazing if there were an android app for the forum

@Applegarden Nice axes man! @modmyth You remind me of Teal Swan,

WhoOOO!! Disturbs !!!! I forgive you for your trespassing. And I will grant thee my eternal knowledge of tag deletion. It is..... .... one heroic toke of Changa. For the machines, its press and hold the backspace key, it just works. Maybe something got stuck in your case, duno, I didn't want to be deleted I guess. Its natural

Neat!, I love the guy. I've only seen him on rebel wisdom so far.

Woah this was an amazing ride. Channeling starts at about 24m in, but still the first biographical part is worth watching. This is the YT channel bellow, more long, 2 hourish channeling videos there. https://www.youtube.com/user/themooreshowofficial/videos Enjoy!

FitNotes is amazing for tracking workouts and other measurements. It is super easy to use and has almost no unnecessary clutter. Generates different graphs and charts where you can visualize your progress. Its free and ad free ....... damn I love charts ...

It sounds like old school norwegian black metal band story. Tolkien was a master at capturing these archetypal stories, a lot of human wisdom in them. Reading the works of Jung and Campbell, along with x10 marathons of LOTR is a valid spiritual retreat.

Hand washing on 5g+ shrooms during the pandemic.

@Bittu Lets try this my friend. Can you scry, get a glimpse of how my face and head looks, if so describe it as you feel like, at least the most important features. I am very interested how exact can this thing get. Thanks

Just be thankful and humble guys. You won't find many people around the world doing this kind of work, let alone chewing it all down, creating forums and spreadsheets for you. If there is something that you start resonating with, try it out, see how it goes. This guru penis measuring is going nowhere. We all know it.

Just an interesting....amazing thing I thought I would share. My PC broke right before this virus situation all started around here, now it is kind of stuck in that repair-service place because all of these security measures. So now I am almost tech-less. It was so weird, because that morning when it happened I dreamed of a guy repairing my old laptop. So few days later I did few walking meditation sessions by the river ..... and it occurred to me, why not try to exit out of the walking meditation by transiting it into a walking trance and try to converse with my higher self while I am in this focused-trance like state. I was astounded by how effective this turned out to be...ended up with all sorts of deeply known and some unknown shocking answers. So this is the technique: You may adapt it to your style ofc. Phase 1: Walking Meditation -Start with normal slow walking for few minutes. Just to get into it. -Turn it into walking meditation by slowing down your walking speed. -Get the speed to a level where each step is happening at an interval of about 1.5 secs, 2 steps in about 3 secs, 45-bpm. that is what felt slow enough for me. You may adjust it ofc, the slower you can go, the deeper you can go. -The spacing between the tips of one foot and the heel of the other should be about 10-20 centimeters. -Breathe in for 4 steps, breathe out for 4 steps, anchoring/focusing on the breath. Do this for about 5 minutes. -Do some sweep scans of your body to see if you got any muscles that are tense, if you see a one, release it and return on the breath. -After you are a bit into comfortable focus, turn your focus onto the feeling that you get on the base of your foot when you step on the ground. Feel the heaviness of the earth, feel as if you are stepping on something very big and heavy, as if you are pulled towards it, feel its magnetism. (this is great for grounding). Do it for 15 more minutes. -You should end up in a very focused state, where the only thing that exists for you is the feeling on your feet and your breath, and some out of focus visuals ofc. -Warning - Do not do this at places where there are cars and you can get hit, after a while you'll stop noticing people around you and they will stop noticing you too, being almost a static object in the environment by walking so slow. You'll elude peoples perception since you are so empty and slow, most people subconsciously scan for the noise around your head even before they make eye contact. Walking by the river does it for me, way safer and less distracting. -Note - It helps a lot if you did a simple sitting mindfulness meditation first. I highly suggest doing this first. Phase 2: Turning it into trance and starting the "dialogue". -Break the walking meditation by starting to walk a bit faster, just at a comfortable walking speed, nothing fast, nothing slow. -Start with calibration by starting a simple "dialogue" with yourself. -Ask questions at first like: who am I talking to, am I talking to my higher self, am I talking to myself, how do I know I am talking with it, can I trust you. -Let words flow freely without restrain, it can be a combination of feeling and speaking. The timing between an answer and a question should almost be nonexistent. You'll answer intuitively, don't think trough it, just let it flow, whatever you may say, let it happen. -It takes me about couple of these calibration questions to distinguish that the 2 voices have 2 different personalities that are talking to each-other. One is asking the questions, lets say that is the ego, and one is answering them, lets say thats the higher self. -The ego personality feels like my normal self, the day to day self struggling, thinking, solving, wanting, doing ect. Obviously. -The higher self personality feels like an all knowing, wise, not taking it seriously, throws some jokes, may ask back questions in a humorous non-serious way. It may even correct your questions, calm you down, its answers are direct, wise and simple. There is not much explaining on its part. -The ego feels like it is talking from the front of my head, almost if the voice is coming from the region of my eyes. -The higher self feels like it is deep in the back of the head. -The point of these first calibration questions is to distinguish between the voices. When you got that, you can roll with the more "serious" questions. -Its better to talk with a normal tone, loudness wise, or at least whisper. If i try to talk inside my head silently, the voice turns to be -Its good to have a phone/tape recorder to record the insights you will get. Or at least some notepad where you may write key words. -You are doing this in trance, you will not remember it, you will have some glimpses about it, but that is about it. It will feel as if it is a normal walk at the moment, but it is very difficult to remember, at least for me. Record or note as things come, so you can have an anchor that you can rely on later. Something similar like dream/lucid dream/astral projection longing is what I did. -Make congruent notes when you are done and act on them. Fun facts - An extra question that I ended up using in my day to day life when making any decisions became : If I loved myself what would I do. In a split of a second an answer comes trough, simple and direct. You just trust it and do what is needed at that time. - And yeah, when I asked if the PC was taken away from me, it answered.... yea mate, we took it. Don't worry it will be back soon, not much is wrong with it though, its temporary. Focus on yourself now, love yourself, do the things you would do out of love do not act out of fear, act only out of love, love to yourself. -This voice has been around all the time, it has always been there, talking, guiding..... its just that I couldn't distinguish before. Hope some of you guys will find it useful.