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Hello everyone , i hope you are doing ok. So i have been doing a lot of "self" actualization the last couple of years of my life thanks to actualized.org and all this beautiful content. One NEUROTIC problem , the biggest problem of my life actually that has PERSISTED still since early in my childhoold is my NEED for CERTAINTY. My Mind Gets STUCK easily on concepts and ideas DISTURBING me A LOT when i am meditating, self-inquiring and etc. For example i may be having a mystical experience while meditating and right after a while my MIND devalues the experience and brings to mind all the opposing scientific arguments like that consciousness is just an emergent property of nervous system and etc. This makes me wanna stop all spiritual practice even though it benefits me tremendously! These kind of concepts don't allow me fully to experience the magic of these spiritual practices. Sometimes i will have breakthoughs with self inquiry only to doubt myself few moments after. Social conditioning has affected me a lot and my mind always tends to believe the worst possible scenario. Thank you.

@Nahm Thank you!

Thank you Everybody for the comments, i really appreciate it One thing that i would like to comment that BLEW MY MIND and i would love some insight. Nassim Haramein (scientist) was talking in an interview that while meditating he was able to go back in time (there is no time for him) and change one gene. And the next morning a bump he had on his nose dissapeared. BUT he said that if you want to change the weather or win the lottery you CAN'T because there is collective consciousness involved or something along these lines. Can someone please give me an insight/opinion about this?

I hear a lot of different contrasting opinions and metaphors. Some people say that when you put a nail in a tree, the scar remains there forever. But there are also a lot of animals with incredible healing properties who can even regrow limbs. From my experience i believe i have healed many old wounds from the past using holotropic beathwork and other techniques. What's your opinion/experience about all this?

@Bluebird Beautifully said!! Thanks.

So i have been experimenting with various different crystals the last couple of days. I hear a bunch of different opinions. Some people say it's just a Placebo Effect but what does this really mean? I don't get it. If it is a placebo does it make it less valuable? What the distinction? Thank you.

@Gabriel Antonio Actually you can!

Is it possible to completely eliminate thoughts like permanently or is the case that all you can do is just turn down the noise of the thoughts? How does a Zen monk whos been meditating for 40 years thinks?

So i have been watching Leos Absolute Infinity videos and he says that science, rationality etc is a subset of reality so it cant explain the whole. (Maybe this is a wrong interpretation of mine). I have also experienced Absolute Infinity using LSD. So my question is how can a subset or reality like LSD, DMT etc explain the whole of reality? Or it doesnt? Maybe there is no contradiction and i just misunderstood some parts. Thanks.

Did Osho had sex with many many women and if so why? Lastly , according to Sam Harris , Osho was sniffing nitrous oxide. Is that true???

@Leo Gura Thank you.

According to Sadhguru it is best not to have sex with many partners bc your body absorbs memory and never forgets. He even mentions doing the namaste gesture instead of giving handshakes in order to avoid strong memory absorption... What do you guys think about this? As someone who has had sex with many ppl on the past i feel a lil bit anxious about this.

@non_nothing At the moment i am more OCD about the shit i did in the future and i want to overcome all this. I appreciate your advice and yes maybe i need to contemplate this,

@Salvijus Any recommendations to establish my energies better? (besides meditation, yoga)

@Leo Gura Now i am celibate but what you said definetely applies to me (to a less extent now).

@Salvijus Thank you.

I heard Leo talking about monks living in a cave for years. My question is how do they survive? (food, water, etc) Lets say i want to live in a cave (crazy ik) . How do i make it happen? Only serious answers pls.

This man speaks the Truth even though the Truth cant be spoken.

I am NOT talking just about enlightment experiences. But instead let's say you suddenly become enlightened and it it remains that way for weeks or even months. Is it possible after this to "lose" that non dual state? What's your experience with this ?

How many hours do you meditate and how many hours per day is the sweet spot for you? I would love to hear your opinions.

When i sit to meditate i feel A LOT of ''Energy'' in both right and left hemispheres of the concept called the brain and also i feel energy in palms. Why is that happening and how can i fix it?

@Hellspeed How can i do that??? And what do you mean it can mess my cognitiion? Give me an example please if you can. Btw i am from Romania as well.

@ground Meditation is my GF.

Can you bend reality after enlightment for the good of everyone? It seems to me that i exist in infinite possibilities and that maybe i can switch to an ''alternative'' reality. Please tell me your opinions. If you want to call me crazy you are wasting my time.

Ik its an ironic question but really do people who are enlightned have ego backlash?