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@now is forever I totally agree with you. Nor did i say the hallucinations were true (in case you imply that),

@Shadowraix Maybe that's it . I don't know . I remember having crazy "delusions" while tripping.

@Shadowraix Only once i had this problem (privacy about drugs etc). Nobody bothers me in my room.

@SFRL Personally my father is never at home. & my mom works most of the day. She takes care of myself & doesn't want to be alone at home & girlfriends is something i despise. Leaving my family to live with another family (gf,kids)? No. There is no reason to torture myself just yet. You have your own standards & i respect that but not everyone can be like you.

@SFRL Find my Life Purpose & be financially independent.

@SFRL I don't care about getting laid at least for this year. If i was to be living alone at this moment of my life i wouldn't have much time for self-developing because i would be constantly worried /working on my survival. Either way one day i will be forced to live alone but for now i take advantage of the situtation. I believe i am self-developing at my own pace. I understand your point of view though. Being able to survive & take care of yourself is very very important & definetely one day i want to be on my own but i don't see the reason to hurry. Nor do i want to find girls. If i was to live alone i would probably rent a small hole that i would be embarassed to invite someone or a chick inside. I don't know where you live. Here in Greece most people my age & older live with their parents. It's not an excuse though.You can survive on your own but it is extremely hard for most people when they barely get their needs met.

@SFRL Why not? I spend less money this way. I don't have to worry about cooking or washing my clothes. Plus i enjoy hanging out with my mother.

@SFRL No but i had plenty of sex before this incident.

When i go outside for a walk & a girl doesn't even notice me/look at me many times i get annoyed & pissed off. It happens only with women i find attractive. Why do i get annoyed so much? & What can i do to stop caring? -Thanks.

@John Iverson I have dealt with it. Maybe not enough though. I just want to understand why did i do it. I have accepted it now. But i am curious.

@David Hammond I have done it. They all said that they made tattos of symbols that mean a lot to them. Still though i couldn't penetrate more deeply as to Why they did it...

@Farnaby I do the above you said a LOT & definetely i have to stop it. I try to stop it but it's very very powerful to resist. Sometimes i am succesful at it, other times i give in the ruminations/compulsions... Thanks.

@Salvijus Do you have any source you can link so that i can visit & learn an effective form of yoga that will help me with my sexual abstinence/nofap journey? I see many things on the internet that i don't trust (Too many videos/articles).

@jbram2002 I agree & that's why i want to understand why they do it. (tattoos)

@Salvijus What should i Practice then to dissolve the compulsions? Buy Crash course of inner engineering? I need something practical.

@Emerald Very interesting!

@universe How can i grow out of that?

@ivory I am not denying/suppresing or avoiding anything. Having sex/masturbating is overrated. It gives you a temporary pleasure & then you want to do it all over again. It never truly satisfies me. I just want to transcend it & be able to control it much better so it doesn't run my life. Also i want to accomplish 1 year of nofap/no sex because i notice tremendous benefits with semen retention. The positive effects are so big that it's not even funny.

@Aeris Should i become a monk? I don't want to yet...

@Leo Gura Lol What can i practice to overcome sex?

@Salvijus Ok so if i practice nofap for years is it safe & in my "biology" / "normal"? I ask because i am serious about doing at least 1 year nofap/no sex. It's a goal of mine. I notice very positive effects when i am on nofap mode. Only side effect is i get very horny after few weeks BUT even when i have sex or fap the lust never goes away.

@Salvijus After many days of nofap i ejaculate in my sleep while dreaming.

@Farnaby How can i work on my self-esteem?

@Shadowraix Well i have been rejected a lot from women in the past whenever i tried to make something happen. Few times i have been succesful but it never worked out in the long run. My childhood was kinda good. But i was never particularly good with women even though some girls wanted me. In highschool i was very shy with women.

@flowboy I disagree. Women decide if they would even sleep with a guy in just a few seconds before they even get to know the other person. If they find you attractive first then they will bother getting to know you afterwards. With just a glimpse they make that decision and that's why i call it rejection. If she doesn't bother to look at me i take it as a rejection even though it's more complicated than that. Maybe i'm wrong but that's my understanding so far..