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I believe in being spontaneous. I don't think about giving approval or not. I Just do it or don't do it. The problem is when you do it mechanically with ulterior motives behind. The problem is when you fake it and not being authentic. I stopped giving compliments when i don't really feel like doing it. I always try to be as honest as possible.

Ι believe synchronities exist. My theory is that if you enter an increased level of Consciousness and you are pure of egoic bs ''you'' can alter your reality and even manifest miracles. Maybe like lucid dreaming. Only very few spiritual people will be able to do this though. God's power is not available to the average Joe. But this is a very tricky subject. I am still not convinced about many things. And definitely there is a lot of possibility for delusion. Once i believe that i was able to speed up time. But still i am not sure if it really happened or not. Maybe i was just deluing myself high on psychedelics. Dismissing paranormal is underestimating God's infinity.

Leo says that ''i'' already have experienced everything. Also other gurus have said that everything has already happened. I agree with this notion. But i am not grasping it with my mind. How can i have experienced already an infinite film reel when it seems that i can keep on experiencing the film reel forever without an end. This seems to me like a paradox... Or i am not getting it. If there are 3 movies , i can already have watched them all. But if i attempt to watch an infinite movie, i will be forever watching and never manage to watch the entire movie..Basically i am finding hard to understand how everything has already happened when it is meant to forever be happening.

I've got a weird arrythmia where basically my heart kinda stops abruptly and then restarts all over again (This is how it feels). Lol. This has made me think that i could die at any time. Maybe one day the heart won't ''restart'' again. This doesn't happen all the time but it happens on a monthly basis. Still though i get this delusional sense that i am gonna live another 30-40 years for sure. (I'm 28). I think almost everybody thinks this way. That they are gonna probably live for many years to come. This is not grounded in reality. Because the reality is you cannot be sure how much you're gonna live. Statistically you could make assumptions and estimations though. My fear of death is at a level of 3. Even when i think i'm gonna die, i don't usually panick. I don't get paranoid over death. BUT having said this, at the moment when i am dying, when i know for sure that i am gonna meet my Creator, i don't know how am i gonna react. Maybe i will get utterly terrified when i realize that i am actually dying. But now i am kinda cool. My grandpa actually, before he died. He got so terrified that he was no longer responding to any of our questions. At that time he knew his time was coming. He got extemely Terrified and just didn't move. After that he went on a coma. I still think that his mind made him go into a coma because he didn't want a conscious death. (Maybe that's bs , idk for sure). Because generally he feared death more than most people. He didn't want to face death. He was always avoiding it. Even when he was in his 80s, he thought he could live for many years still to come lol. How much would you say you fear death from 0 to 10?

@vizual Yes i can relate a lot with what you're saying. Many people say they don't fear death. But when death comes they get terrified lol. But some people don't get so terrified. I know this from experience. And one time where i was close to dying i was fearful but not terrified. I was kinda accepting of the idea even though i didn't want to go. Einstein is a remarkable example of someone who embraced death.

@mandyjw The scale represents some degrees of fear though. 0 would be total fearlessness. 10 would be utterly terrified. Whereas 5 would be a mild fear.

@PurpleTree It depends. If it is painless i don't mind going slow so i can get into a deep meditative state. But if i get captured by a Mexican drug cartel (i get nightmares about it lol) then i will be praying to be over quick. These animals really enjoy torturing you. Lol. Not fun at all being God sometimes i guess. This is why Kiki Kamarena is a hero of mine. This guy suffered more than Jesus did and he still didn't betray an of his co-workers. Truly amazing. Truly god-like.

@Godishere I just wish taking a psychedelic was easier. Sometimes i get incredibly jealous of Leo. He has massive access to tons of psychedelics whereas i need to risk few times a year to get my hand on some shrooms lol. Shrooms are the best though (for me). Always provide me with an enlightening experience with no crazy visuals or weird bs. Just pure heightened awareness. I love the clarity associated with some psychedelics. Much mind bs goes away and you just see thingss for what they truly are. As for the infinity part. Only once i actually became conscious of infinity. Still the most incredible realization of my life. And i am chasing the same depth of englithment ever since. This was truly an enlightment. This is when i got my hands on some acid.

@Nahm Thank you for the kind encouraging words Nahm. I hope you're having a nice day

@Loba Sometimes i get a sense of a relief because i am thinking that if i heart suddenly stops beating i won't experience too much of a painful death. It seems like an easy way out lol. Have a nice day also.

@ZzzleepingBear It is a hell of a ride

@Vibroverse God has experienced everything because he is Everything already at this moment. All possibilities are here right now.

@Vibroverse I think God has already experienced everything though because God is everything.

@Nahm I like entertaining this idea. Thank you.

1g gram is a good starting dose for most people. For me it was too lil and not worth it. Just got a slight buzz. Take no less than 1g and no more than 2g for your 1st time.

@Nahm I also want to make that feeling go away. That is also a problem i think.

Sometimes i do enjoy highly pleasurable things without any cravings afterwards. It's a gamble most of the times. I liked what you said about the ''sticky'' effect. Its true. My brain never gets stuck into meditation sessions for example lol.

@Loba Thanks for the advice :-)

@Loba I am not taking any medication. I've done tests and seen a doctor few years ago. I have this issue for the last 5 years. But it may not be dangerous at all. It has something to do with how the electricity flows. It doesn't happen most of the time.

It would be absurd for reality to be other than one. Reality being one is the simplest thing for me to understand. But i don't know why other people argue about this point. Even people who seem to be more intelligent and with more credentials than me. Anything other than one is a projection. A fantasy. A social/mental construct. One/Unity is the only reality. You cannot actually divide anything (unless you're deluding yourself) in your own experience. You experience a unity. Have you ever experienced anything other than one seemless flow of Consciousness?

@Thought Art Same thing here.

@The0Self Why do we fear death? From my experience i don't fear death. But i fear pain and suffering. The only reason i fear death is because i don't know if i am gonna be in a comfortable place right after.

I've called my sister fat once years ago. And she still remembers it. Thats a solid advice for sure. Women don't forgive/forget easily if you've made them feel bad.

Interesting. I was taking creatine back when i was lifting weights. They say it is a good nootropic.

@The Lucid Dreamer One of these next lives, is gonna be eventually me being born as a billionaire. I'm still waiting. My turn will come.