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I have noticed some disturbing things in this Reality that noone talks about. The most intelligent, the most conscious human beings have the access to the least amount of 'cheese' possible. The most unconscious, the most egostistical, the most ruthless and the most deluded have the most access to 'cheese'. This whole society .. What is this whole society about? It's about gaining access to 'cheese'. That's it. It's that simple. Cheese is access to the most fertile women possible. Access to the best food possible. Access to the most money possible. Access to the most fun possible. Access to the most attention possible. Just by the fact that you are in the public eye, this activates women's psychological mechanisms and many will perceive you in a different light. Just by the fact that the right person likes you, your whole life takes a whole different trajectory than that it would normally take. The people who have the most access to cheese are not the ones who worked harder. They are the ones who were the most lucky and the least selfless. This whole society when viewd by a higher perspective could be described as follows: "Humans are chimpanzes addicted to 'cheese' and all they care about is their own survival and their own pleasure. Humans deny how much of an animal they are by making up all sorts of stories and giving authority to other chimpanzes who have access to the same kind.of cheese they want." The Paradox of Consciousness vs. "Cheese" There is a fundamental reason why the most conscious often have the least "cheese." High consciousness usually involves a high degree of empathy, introspection, and long-term thinking. The Weight of Awareness: To be highly conscious is to realize the cost of things. A ruthless person sees a shortcut to money; a conscious person sees the exploitation required to get it. The Ego Barrier: Gaining "cheese" usually requires massive ego projection. You have to scream for attention and dominate others. If you’ve outgrown your ego, you no longer have the "hunger" required to compete in a rigged, aggressive game. A Reality where the "cheese"—biological and social rewards—is distributed via a system that rewards predatory traits rather than evolved consciousness.

@Leo Gura Thank you.

@UnbornTao Stop projecting so much. Survival without health is no better than suicide. Survival means you have to do do certain things to keep existing. It's not prescriptive of anything more than that. If someone puts one lil finger to work, he will survive. Ironically what many people do that they consider as survival, turns out to be anti-survival.

@Natasha Tori Maru It's not. At the end of the day you are gonna pay a price for every action. Every extra stress ruins the body. This is unavoidable. I am already taking care of everything i need to. Lastly, you don't know, what i need to know or not.

@Natasha Tori Maru I know all about stress. I used to lift heavy weights for 5 years straight. I don't know. Unless you are pushing your body to become an athlete. Lets take walking for example. After a certain point you are just damaging your body by an excess of glucocorticoid hormones running through your body. Stress means my body is mobilizing bodily resources so i can survive the thing i am doing. If a tiger is chasing you, stress is great for a few minute sprint. But prolonged stress, just ruins the body. An arguement could be made if its worth it or not under the right context.

@Leo Gura Your responses seem kinda odd.. I'm confused. Initially i said that i care about health and money and you made it sound these things can't go together and that i don't really care about money.. Please answer me this for practical purposes: I am a quite active person and take good care of everything i need to take care of throughout the day. I have began doing some things to increase my survival gains. My barrier is this: After a certain point of doing some type of 'work' to earn money, i feel stress hormones rising up to a toxic point. And i know that i lf i continue i will do damage to my body. Stress damages the brain and deteriorates all bodily tissues. I have also felt this. So this has been stopping me from working like a madman. And when i don't listen to these signals, i always pay a price afterwards. I am 32 but i look 25. But i don't have much money. Previous guy i worked for was 36 years old but he looked 42-43. I am not satisfied with having little money in my pocket. But i also value health like a madman. I know how important it is. I don't know what to do anymore. But i feel i am on the right path.

@Leo Gura So what do you mean.. That some amount of health needs to be sacrificed in order to earn money? That's how it works?

@Leo Gura I care about money. But i also care about my health. Should i push my body even when it's screaming "nooo"?

@Leo Gura I care about money but i am not willing to ruin my health or lose my self-respect for it.

Today i went to a NA meeting. The 'leader' there didn't give me the opportunity to speak when it was my time. And she kept ignoring and dismissing that it was my time to speak. I complained and then the other bots basically told me to not talk. Inner sanction said 'Leave. Enough is enough'. And so i did. I have been going to these meetings for 14 months. Now it's time to take care more of my survival agenda because me being selfless with these idiots, just ruins my health over time. Key lessons and observations from NA: Most are very selfish, conformist and closed minded. They haven't contemplated much in their lives. They treat the NA book like a christians treat the 'holy' bible. They mostly care about survival. They are not spiritual. Many are heavily addicted to smoking or eating food. Can't stand smelling the stench of a cigarrete smoker sitting next to me. You will not find an englightened person there. They are dogmatic and closed-minded. It's a good program to not die from addiction or loneliness. But other than that it's not profound. You will not be taught about what Leo or Peter Ralston teach there. My higher self seeks something deeper. Maybe i will start my own cult now. I don't know How do you even find a high consciousness group in person? It's almost impossible. Few weeks ago, i attended Mormon church. They didn't let me speak on the mic becauss i am not a member yet.

Every 22 year old, living in his mother's basement forms an opinion about me without having met me in real life. People know they know something based on their very limited and distorted ability to understand stuff. I have survived on the streets , living in harsh conditions while at the same time maintaining peak physical condition. Meditating everyday without fail. Attending NA meetings & etc. Some of you, the biggest struggle you have faced was that one time you ran out of toilet paper because your mom didn't buy you enough resources. >=50% of you would not survive 2 weeks in my living situation. Your Egoic reactions are just training for me. Have a nice life. See you when Life begins hitting you really hard.

I was left to die on the streets by 'my family' 1 year ago. Without a warning. Without any money. Now, i have cut ties with them. Using God's intelligence i have managed to survive thus far. Although it's still super difficult. Because i was addicted to smoking weed, i realized that i needed to attend some NA meetings , otherwise i am gonna die. I have also attended Mormon church in the past (just for survival purposes) but i couldn't stand it after 8 months. Too much ego. Anyways, i am attending like clockwork every weekend some NA meetings, near where i live, for 13-14 months consistently. I have managed to not touch weed thus far, and i don't wanna inhale this toxic smoke any longer. I'm tired. I just need the meetings for some social connection, because i'm alone. The experience in the meetings has taught me that most NA members have very little integrity and are basically full of sh!t. I am a quite selfless person. I have found the hard way that 99% of people are not. I have been open and truthful about my situation. i don't ask for money or stuff from them. There have been some rare exceptions, of high quality individuals who did offer me a small assistance. The majority though, are so unconscious that they pretend like they are helping , when in fact they are not. I had a 50 year old former coke addict promise me that he would buy me a mosquitoe repellent. He never did. I stopped going to that particular meeting because the selfishness became too unbearable after a certain point. We live in an insane society. Most people will not take lightly if you don't follow their delusions, bigotry and nonsense. Be aware.

@Natasha Tori Maru No. Unconsciousness and ego bothers me because it has caused me a t r e m e n d o u s amount of suffering in the past from ignorant people. I have a natural aversion to all falsehoods now. I see them as a threat.

Mentally ill:

Yes. I am mentally ill for living here.

@Natasha Tori Maru Nope. I don't do everything i judge in others. (I used in the past). You are just parroting what you heard from others.

People here in this forum who spend the most time, are the most unspiritual and least developed. Its really sad.

@UnbornTao Your assumptions stink. Not my situation.

@Rigel Said the mentally ill one. What i need is urgent financial aid. Not your silly projections.

I also wanted to mention this: Few days ago, a stupid NA member who is 15 years 'clean' and is very dogmatic and quite selfish said "this is not an inside problem, it's an outside problem". Thats a quote from the NA book. He meant that if i dont have to eat thats not the problem of the NA group. But mine problem. I think i said enough.

@Carl-Richard Seems like it.

32 years.

Many people here assume that they are far more developed, more well-educated or something. I don't need advice (from most people). Your advice doesn't do it. The good-hearted advice is appreciated though. On any given topic, i probably know more than the person next to me I need money. And a good mentor. You are not better. You are not worse. You are caused.