Zigzag Idiot

I've found this to be a handy webpage. http://www.consciousdynamicsllc.com/home/levels_of_consciousness.html ,,,,,,Red The Red level of consciousness is impulsive and egocentric. The core motivation is about doing what you want and being who you are, regardless of the consequences (Ooten, Unpublished). Neurotransmitters related to guilt are not physiologically present in individuals at this level, thus guilt is not expressed (Graves, 2005). The world is seen as rough and harsh; the mentality is about fighting to survive. At this level of consciousness, the needs of the individual outweigh the needs of the group. The individual expresses himself in an egocentric, exploitive, impulsive, control-driven manner. There are two categories of individuals at this level: the victim and the perpetrator, or a few “haves” and many “have nots” (Beck, 2006). Hedonism, immediate sensory gratification, power impulses and displays, and spontaneous guilt-free actions drive the individual. Individuals at this level are most motivated by survival fears, using any means of exploitation to attain power (Graves, 1974). When individuals begin to question why they must die and impulsive living takes its toll, some people will shift into the next wave of development (Graves, 1974).,,,,,,,,

Some interesting commentary from hexagram 32 Duration: Unlike Cosmic Reality, the parallel reality created by the collective ego does not endure because it is based in the mistaken ideas and beliefs about the Cosmic Way. When a Person, through holding to such mistaken ideas and beliefs violates the Cosmic Harmony, the Cosmos responds with Fate. Fate is part of the law of physics, and has the purpose of restoring this Cosmic Harmony and of helping a person return to unity with the Cosmos. It does so by decreasing the ego in him, thus bringing him back to humility. The parallel reality is characterized by changes. These changes are brought about by the use of power on the part of humans and the Cosmic response to it in the form of Fate. Among the main mistaken ideas and beliefs that create the parallel reality are the presumptions that humans are at the center of the universe changes are the rule of life Nature operates through opposite forces to propel changes time is linear, having a beginning and an end the universe works on mechanical principles the Cosmos has a hierarchical order All of these ideas create discordant fields of consciousness which compete with the Cosmic Order and its Principles of Harmony. They separate humans from Cosmic Unity. When Fate is not recognized as help from the Cosmos to make a person aware of his mistaken ideas and beliefs, but is taken as Cosmic "punishment," the blame he puts on the Cosmos creates a new fate, thus perpetuating the misfortune. A small bit from Hexagram 45 ""Letting oneself be drawn" refers to allowing the correct way to show itself by responding only, rather than to take the initiative. By responding to what our inner senses tell us in relation to the situation of the moment, we remain blameless. In this circumstance we restrict ourselves to only what we feel is correct for us. We never tell others what they should do or how they should feel; thus we do not lose our Cosmic protection." From the glossary. Page 570 Sacrifice: The idea of sacrifice violates a number of Cosmic Principles, such as the Principles of Justice and of the Equality and Dignity of all the aspects of the Cosmic Whole. The Cosmos gives its gifts freely to the person who is modest. Cosmic Justice respects a person's dignity; in fact, a part of its function is to restore a person to his dignity which he has "thrown away" as by thinking that he has to make deals with a "higher power". The idea of sacrifice comes from the feudal view of the Cosmos as having a hierarchical order with an all powerful and judgmental entity at the top that needs to be pleased, bribed, or soothed. Since everything is an equal part of the Cosmos, no one part requires the submission, reverence, or sacrifice of another part.

Removing the Ego as the defining agent of reality releases awareness to reinhabit the natural world. --Jose Cedillos, Ph.D. Prof. of Consciousness and Creativity Studies, The Union Institute. https://www.ichingoracle.com/ From the Glossary under Good/Evil Page 565 - Cosmic Consciousness is primarily a feeling Consciousness and that every person is connected directly with it through His feelings. When he connects with his feelings they tell him the inner truth of what he is experiencing. Doing this allows him to call things by their true names.

@ActualizedDavid Good video! I like how Ken Wilber frames it as states of Consciousness and stages of Consciousness. States come and go. Stages develop/grow slowly by ones own effort/work on self. I paraphrase,,, from https://www.soundstrue.com/store/kosmic-consciousness-5113.html

@Skanzi I agree with your perspective. I'm 52. Self diagnosed in my forties. When I was a child, Aspergers wasn't being diagnosed. I had restless leg syndrome also and neither was it being diagnosed. If I had been diagnosed with Aspergers, it would have given me an excuse for not fitting in or being scapegoated at other times. If these difficulties had not been there, I would not have gone on the search. I would have not dealt squarely with self hatred. I would have never awakened from the cultural consensus trance or my own multiplicity. Being slightly autistic along with being slightly schizophrenic has forced me through fires that otherwise I never would have gone through. It all turned into one giant blessing.

@Corpus I'm very much in agreement with you. It doesn't need to be 'glorified'. You sound responsible and I'm 52 going on 15. ? ?

More from Maurice Nicoll interpreting the Gurdjieff Work BEARING UNPLEASANT MANIFESTATIONS “One sign of Being is the capacity to bear the unpleasant manifestations of others. Why is this a sign of greater Being? The answer is that you cannot do this unless you have seen in yourself what you dis-like in others...When you have just criticized someone, go over what you said carefully and apply it to yourself. This neutralizes poison in you.” V. 1, pp. 168, 176 ON BEING PASSIVE TO NEGATIVE STATES “Sometimes when one is in a bad state and attempts to get out of it and fails to do so, one can be consciously passive to it, without be- ing negative and without identifying with it fully, having the inner certainty that it will pass provided one does not let negative imagina- tion work and does not consent to its presence. This is a form of Self- Remembering, and it is just as if one has to wait, and knows that one has to, because it is raining too heavily and one cannot go out just at present and yet remains certain it will clear.” V. 1, p. 368 RESPONSIBILITY FOR NEGATIVE STATES “If you are in a negative state, it is always your own fault, from the Work point of view. No matter what happened, what someone said, what someone did, we have to become responsible for our negative states—ourselves. . .When you feel the presence of negative emotions in you, as a foreign substance, as acutely as a stomach-ache, then you will seek, for your own reasons, to work on yourself and transform your inner state for your own inner health...But this takes many years and requires a certain inner courage, an inner bravery, an inner determination, until something new is born distinct from life.” V. 2, p. 695

I could do a better job at being exact and articulating my experience better, though.

Tripping has been good for me. I'm not as anal and as full of complaints as I used to be.

Excuse me,,, Milligrams

@Corpus Time stopped. That's how it felt last night.At first a rush of fear and then nothing,,, just empty awareness Tonight was a different experience not as intense. It overtook me in an unexpected way each time vs NN dmt which overwhelms my visual field when I've taken good hits of it.

@Corpus Yes, it was 17 mcg. I understand it's not the most thorough trip report but, what is wrong?

With 5 meo dmt

From Maurice Nicoll- SEEING OTHERS “Remember that we see one another by our associations, once we become ‘familiar,’ as it is called, with each other. What we do not understand is that seeing a person by one’s own associations with him or her has nothing to do with what the person really is. Try to see another person without associations.” V. 1, p. 296 THE SPIDERWEB OF ASSOCIATIONS “If we could see without mechanical associations laid down in us we would really see what things and people are like. Unfortunately impressions fall on a network of associations and prevent us after a certain age from seeing the essential meaning of things. We see life, as it were, through a thick network, a spiderweb of associations, and in consequence we never really see anything or anyone.” V. 4, p. 1399 ON ‘NOT FIXING’ “As long as you externally consider another person with a view to trying to change him or her—that is, as long as you think the other person should be different—you are not externally considering, but internally considering. The basis of internal considering is that others should be different, and from this comes ‘making accounts’ against others...One thing is quite certain, and that is that the more sincerely we observe ourselves and what is in us, the less smug we shall be. And from this it follows that we shall be less satisfied to think that we know what the other person should be like.” V. 1, pp. 268-9 TRANSFORMING MECHANICAL REACTIONS “To be offended is extremely easy. It is a mechanical reaction. Not to be offended, or to transform being offended is difficult. It requires a lot of thought, a lot of inner adjustment, a lot of remembering what one is like oneself, and so on, to transform the first impact of being offended. That is real work on oneself.” V. 1, p. 270 TRANSFORMING MECHANICAL REACTIONS II “When you find a person who obviously dislikes you there is another task for personal work. Notice what he dislikes in you if you can. Remember that we have to thank those who make it necessary for us to work on ourselves.” V. 3, p. 976 COMPASSION “Now suppose you are sufficiently interested and sufficiently con- scious to notice how these impressions fall on you mechanically, and suppose that you have sufficient valuation of the Work to wish to transform these impressions, which means not letting them simply fall on their usual place, exciting your usual dislikes and hatreds. . . . If you understand something of what it means when it is said in the Work that people are mechanical, then you will not accept the impression so easily. You will realize that it is not the person’s fault. You will realize that the person always does this, always says this, because he is a machine...(At the same time) you see your own me- chanicalness and how you are constantly doing the same thing.” V. 1, p. 339 COMPASSION II “It is impossible to endure one another’s unpleasant manifestations in the right sense of the meaning of the word unless we see our own unpleasant manifestations and know them and accept them...(We) begin to realize our own helplessness, so we can endure the helpless- ness of others.” V. 3, p. 832

Do any of you actually care about the other people here or is it just for YOUR benefit, ultimately? Both. @Keyhole

@karkaore A practice which sometimes is of benefit to me is to inwardly have no opinion about anything. It can give an inner spaciousness when gone about in a certain way. Become completely empty inside until this opens into a view which you feel purpose for. In other words, all necessary responsibilities are carried out for no other reason than - just for the hell of it. With aim of resigned patience until meaning shows itself. I had a friend called back into the military during Iraq's invasion of Kuwait. He's time over there was going to be around 10 months. As he was leaving he mentioned nonchalantly, "10 months,,, I can do that standing on my head,,,,, Hope is a bit of a help. ?

My gut feeling is that she truly feels her feelings and in that way, she is awakened. But she's not Realized because of the nonregocnition she's speaking to a crowd who the majority of are completely dead inside.

@AleksM Thank you for your work.

Ironically here, the Joker is simply jack of hearts. Serenade is the voice of the true Joker. Please excuse my walmart musical sophistication.

King of hearts message. King of hearts food.

King of Hearts The Queen of hearts is present here but the message is given by the King of hearts. Conscious love.

@kieranperez Thanks! I'm 10 minutes into it and hooked.

@Leo Gura From the very beginning of my finding Actualized.org. I've had a question in the back of my mind. I'll frame it in a folksy way. How much does it make your light bill go up for every 1 hour of video that members download upload,,,? I run up against my technological ignorance in asking.