Zigzag Idiot

I would phrase it that my Automaton likes Cheetos. I'm a believer/practicer of feeding the wolf in order to pacify it For a bit. Tricky business, but then so I Being in the world. At times anyhow. Making deals so to speak. I just looked for a Martin Butler podcast that articulated this idea very well but I couldn't find it.. I'm glad you like the Journaling community music journal. I've never really gave Tool much of a listen/chance but I love Alex Greys artwork. ?

I'm a self diagnosed Borderline Aspergers and have also tended towards hyperactivity. Cynthia Bourgeault gives a short description of Centering Prayer and how with a minimum of 2 twenty minute practices a day we can start affecting our neaural networks. This Im pretty sure allows the parasympathetic side of our nerves system to let up which results in things like having no startle response and experience some degree of peace. Not being reactive,,, seems there is a long gradient in this work for the vast majority who take it on. Ive shared it this death and I still do because she expresses it all so effectively in 25 minuets for those who are interested.

A good song to ponder about being a Breatharian. Love makes a person invulnerable like honey badger,,,,

Me too, @Shiva . I can't get away from my sugar addiction. I notice my tendency toward negativity the more sugar I consume.

I see a Breathairian as the same thing as a Yogi. Maurice Nicoll hinted at this in his Psychological Commentaries. Gurdjieff said we have 3 foods. 'Regular food', air, and impressions. Nicoll suggested that a person who doesn't take impressions in a negative way creates all that is needed with thier energy flow. I liked the reference to Yogananda in the last one. It's the only one I've watched yet.

Really enjoyed this video shared by Anderz in his ACIM Journal. Reminded me of a part of chapter 9 in ACIM. T-9.VIII.1. Grandeur is of God, and only of Him. 2 Therefore it is in you. 3 Whenever you become aware of it, however dimly, you abandon the ego automatically, because in the presence of the grandeur of God the meaninglessness of the ego becomes perfectly apparent. 4 When this occurs, even though it does not understand it, the ego believes that its "enemy" has struck, and attempts to offer gifts to induce you to return to its "protection." 5 Self-inflation is the only offering it can make. 6 The grandiosity of the ego is its alternative to the grandeur of God. 7 Which will you choose? T-9.VIII.2. Grandiosity is always a cover for despair. 2 It is without hope because it is not real. 3 It is an attempt to counteract your littleness, based on the belief that the littleness is real. 4 Without this belief grandiosity is meaningless, and you could not possibly want it. 5 The essence of grandiosity is competitiveness, because it always involves attack. 6 It is a delusional attempt to outdo, but not to undo. 7 We said before that the ego vacillates between suspiciousness and viciousness. 8 It remains suspicious as long as you despair of yourself. 9 It shifts to viciousness when you decide not to tolerate self-abasement and seek relief. 10 Then it offers you the illusion of attack as a "solution." ,,,,,,,,,, https://acourseinmiraclesnow.com/course-miracles-chapter-9-viii-grandeur-versus-grandiosity/

I'm taking a break from taking a break from narrative consciousness.

I love Phoebe Snow's voice. The way she changes some notes with a crack in her voice.

Almaas gives a fair amount of discourse on the Logos. Basically he goes to a great deal of trouble to say, - 'shit happens',,,, The Universal Mind in its dynamic form is what is called the Logos; it is the level of the changes and transformations within reality, according to the noetic forms of the Nous. The Logos has both life and death in it; it does not say that one is better than the other. One simply comes after the other; or more accurately, things just change and transform. Ocean becomes rain, and rain becomes ocean. The Logos does not say which one is better. It just does both. Diamond Heart Book Four, pg. 339 https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/logos

The practice of Centering Prayer has allowed me to experience empty beingness. Non conceptual awareness or objectless awareness. Monkey mind on either side but with practice the experience of objectless awareness can be expanded into a few minutes. Pryor to practicing Centering Prayer meditation was a few months where I attempted Zazen practice, which is very similar. This was about 4 years ago.

Seeing this clip reminded me of what I am as an Enneatype 6 fear (doubting) type more so than my Virgoness. Overcompensating type that's me. Just like Baby face Nelson. I don't act like the Character George but,,, well yeah sometimes I do,,,, The inner process,,,, Overcompensating is the key word. It's how I pinpointed typing myself on the Enneagram.

You can't get anymore tragic-romantic than Barry Manilow. I had to make myself go ahead and put that last song on there because it was making me innerconsider like crazy. To innerconsider that @Mandy and @jabrams would think I was flirting so I went ahead and posted it as an exercise against inner considering. This post is my attempt at external considering on behalf of Mandy and Jon. I can sleep sound tonight knowing that I did my best in explaining the data from my Causal body. Like a joke that breaks the tension. I leave behind no traps of projection. I've got a lot going on at once. The thought came to me that George Clooney is the embodiment of basic trust when he plays the role of Everett having a conversation with Dan the Bible salesman. https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/basic-trust

What's the healed version of the tragic-romantic? Using The Enneagram,,,, Point 4 – Holy Origin What does this mean? Each Holy Idea, as we have seen, presents a particular implicit truth about reality, a certain facet of how reality is and how it appears. If we perceive reality as it is without any filters, we will see these nine Ideas as different manifestations of it. They are inseparable, since they are nine different aspects, expressions, or elements of the same experience. The facet of reality that is highlighted by Holy Origin is the perception and understanding that all appearance (meaning whatever can be experienced and perceived—inner or outer) is nothing but the manifestation of Being, the Holy Truth..........See also p186. This inseparability of appearance from its Source is the perception elucidated by Holy Origin. This is a very deep understanding which is not easy to apprehend. Without it, we can have experiences of our essential nature which actually feel separate from who we are. For instance, we might have a profound experience of the presence of boundless compassion or of indestructible strength, but actually feel that we are having an experience of something other than who and what we are. Essence can feel like something that comes and goes, rather than seeing that our perception of our inner nature is what comes and goes because that perception is not clear. Holy Origin is the knowledge that you and your essence are not two distinct things. Essence is the nature of the soul. We might believe that the Divine, or God, is something outside ourselves, residing somewhere else, which we are either connected to or not. Believing that you can be connected or disconnected from God means that you don’t understand the Idea of Holy Origin. Facets of Unity, pg. 185

We are multifaceted. My imagination has always outdone me. That's a given of my chief feature. My tragic-romantic i is laughable, as is everybody's. Astrologically my moon is in the sign of Leo. My mars is in Scorpio. My sun sign is Virgo. People whose sun is in Cancer are the natural tragic romantic types. I don't know what Virgo's are really because we never really see ourselves or I should say our personality type, the false part of ourselves, Our ego enneatype. Somehow YouTube knows how to trigger my tragic romantic side. I'm going to list the songs that Youtube has queued up for me this afternoon. Is this making some of you uncomfortable? Maybe that's your tragic-romantic shadow,,, Might as well just laugh about it. I'm just glad I no longer drink alcohol. Talk about a potential laughable, pitiful, character. Oooo Outwardly I really don't have much of a personality but inwardly my Queen of hearts is on fire at times.

I've been some kind of Idiot all my life. The nature of my psychological blindspot allows for a proclivity in which I occasionally hang myself in front of other people. At times it will be something really cringeworthy. Sometimes in front of medium to large audiences. Sometimes I'm just a dick. When I observe it, I return to ordinary Idiot. That's the routine. Beginners mind. Don't pass go. Don't collect $200. This morning I feel like an Authentic Idiot. Maybe even a Genial Idiot.

Maurice Nicoll A DREAM OF NICOLL’S “I see someone teaching or drilling some recruits. That is all. At first sight there seems nothing marvelous. He smiles. He indicates some- how that he does not necessarily expect to get any results from what he is doing. He does not seem to mind. He does not show any signs of impatience when they are rude to him. The lesson is nearly over, but this will not make any difference to him. It is as if he said, ‘Well, this has to be done. One cannot expect much. One must give them help, though they don’t want it.’ It is his invulnerability that strikes me. He is not hurt or angered by their sneers or lack of discipline. He has some curious power but hardly uses it...He seemed purified from all violence. That was the secret. That was the source of the curious power I detected in him. A man without violence...From this glance I know better what going in a new direction is and what a new will purified from violence means. I know also that the possibilities of following this new will and new direction lie in every moment of one’s life.” V. 4, p. 1500 from The Psychological Commentaries

Great perspectives! What is the frame of reference? I ask rhetorically. In Fourth Way literature, it is said a fully Conscious or awakened person is actually incapable of violence. When the emotional center is purified.

Gurdjieff referred to humans as 3 brained beings. http://vivitskaya.blogspot.com/2007/10/we-are-three-brained-beings.html Ken Wilber said our blessing is our curse and becomes a source for neurosis. We think ourselves to death. The good thing about being a pig, a cat or a dog is they don't do that.

I just discovered people of walmart adult coloring book on Amazon. Ive always been a people observer. I believe our instinctive center can gain intelligence doing this. No words are necessary.

This guy articulates some interesting distinctions about different channeled entities. Discusses ACIM and the Ra Material. As well as Urantiia, Abraham. The idea of Starseeds. He helps tie things together. Thanks for sharing with me @DrewNows

It was a beautiful fall day. Had a hard frost last night which gave the distinct smell of the plants getting frost burnt. It's a good earthy smell.

My daily I CHING reading was 45 Gathering Together with changing lines 1,2,5,6 resulting in a second hexagram 38 Separating/Opposition. The following is a portion of changing Line 2 Letting oneself be drawn brings good fortune and remains blameless. If one is sincere , it furthers one to bring even a small offering. "Letting oneself be drawn" refers to allowing the correct way to show itself by responding only, rather than taking the initiative. By responding to what our inner senses tell us in relation to the situation of the moment, we remain blameless. In this circumstance, we restrict ourselves to saying only what we feel is correct for us. We never tell others what they should do or how they should feel; thus, we do not lose our Cosmic protection. "Letting oneself be drawn" informs us that by holding to our integrity, regardless of what others say, the help we need will come as we need it, since the Cosmos freely helps every person who is sincere in his way of life.

If one can eat cheetos and still be a buddha, then why not? ? Surely I couldn't deceive myself,,,, could I? ??

@Anderz Thanks for sharing this in your ACIM journal. I put it here for those who might have missed it.

I should have mentioned Gems of Wisdom is a condensation of 6 volume set of The PSYCHOLOGICAL COMMENTARIES ON THE TEACHING OF GURDJIEFF AND OUSPENSKY - by MAURICE NICOLL. There is a light heartedness in Nicoll's writing which makes him a joy to read. From page 35- SEEING ATTITUDES “Now try to see an attitude in yourself. I mean, really try. Realize that you have not got an open mind. I want—as always—examples based on your own self-observation...A man cannot change himself unless he changes his attitudes. Try therefore to see the results of attitudes. Notice when you feel shocked, for example. Notice when you feel intolerant, contemptuous, etc. Notice when you tut-tut at things. Notice when you judge, and if you can, notice when you are speaking from attitude.” V. 3, p. 1172. A point that's made in ACIM is that all attitudes are egoic except for peace and joy. In other words, ultimately, only peace and joy are considered authentic. Any other frame of mind besides either peace or joy is considered egoic and is thus false.