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Kundalini & Schizophrenia ,,,,,,,,,After an awakening we become psychosomatically differentiated from the images, symbols, myths, stories and personal identity that we were so involved in before. Thus consciousness has become separated from its contents. Perhaps this is the difference between a schizophrenic and a mystic. The mystic has become emancipated from the persuasions of psychic content, while the schizophrenic has become lost in them.,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,Some of the chemistry could be similar between kundalini and various mental illnesses, because of kundalini’s perturbing revelatory quality, nothing is left unseen and unfelt within one...there is no where to hide. The former repressive hold of the ego is released by the dissolution and so the psychic tension is let fly...in whatever form we have stored within us. Relationships are particularly good at triggering kundalini awakenings because our brain's primary matrix is constructed in relationship to our primary caregiver in infancy—thus relationship later in life can trigger the release of incredible psychic forces bound up in such complexes as avoidance/attraction, double-bind, relentless dilemma, rejection and abandonment. Complexes, are webs of associations created by intense or repeated activation of an archetype. Psychic storms based on these kinds of primary archetypal patterns build slowly over the course of a life, underneath the repressive lid of our ego's coping mechanisms and defenses. One wonders what is left after all our compensations and camouflages are penetrated; is there a life at all if we are not doing all this secondary work of trying to prop ourselves up, defend ourselves or kill ourselves? But unless things build up to popping point, unless kundalini sparks up, we will remain in the clutches of the vice that we built to protect ourselves from the reality we were born into. The ego will not voluntarily go into that "hole" in our primary matrix...spirit however willingly goes there in equanimous embrace to find light in the dark. Kundalini is a spiritual force that arises spontaneously to save ourSelf from our self.,,,,,,,,, from: http://biologyofkundalini.com/article.php@story=KundaliniandSchizophrenia.html

Elton John wrote this ballad for his buddy John Lennon who got murdered on December 8th 1980. I was 13 years old. I remember seeing the news about the assassination on tv after school that day. It made me both sad and furious. There was a record heatwave and drought in Arkansas earlier in the summer that year. It was the first time I ever saw our creek run dry.

Bummer,,, This morning, me too. IPAD won't play YouTubes. Spandex looks great on women. That's my vote.

The Oceanic feeling. Love with a big L. Experienced but not clung to. To be swept from the face of the Earth as no self. Whoever holds the dustpan. Sweep me up. I'm all yours. Fling me back into the Ocean. Beyond this life. Outside of time. Unity in the Cosmic lost and found. Who could care and why or how so much? The Oceanic feeling is too big to talk about.

I like barf and sparkles.

Waited too long to edit. Ordered glasses on Friday. It's been 5 years since my last eye exam. Maybe that will help reduce my typos. I meant spacial realms just above not special realms. sensing thinking feeling willing combined with body soul spirit equals consciousness/God according to Keyserling's map/Wheel.

I've been avoiding becoming a member of Patreon because I don't want to have one more damn password to keep up with. How much sense does that make? Until I do, I'll probably just donate to Leo every now and then through PayPal. I would really like access to what extra stuff Martin and Leo offer through Patreon, though. Maybe I'll get off the fence and just do it. Just felt like admitting to some of my neurosis and backwardness. Have a good day everyone. ?‍♂️

@Preety_India I observe also what you're writing about. Speaking for myself, one factor is an off and on deep insecurity/ loneliness at times, maybe born out of an existential dread. Often an unrecognized fear or existential dread which is just horrible enough that anyone who pays me any attention at all, coupled with my imagination has often been the launching point for disfunctional relationships. Its difficult for me to sum up the reasons for all this perhaps because there seem to be a good number of variables. Insecurity is definitely one. In general forgiveness through understanding seems to be a starting point where both understanding and forgiveness can both grow to take more prominent positions in my life. Forgiveness and understanding which cultivate a more gentle love towards everything and everyone as a perceptual filter. This, in which Being can then attract likeness of being. I realize this is kind of vague in a sense but for now, sitting up in bed, barely awake. This is just what flowed out. Maybe it's a form of falling for the first who comes along and pays us some attention ( for various number of reasons) instead of staying rooted in ones own Being and remaining patient for the appearance of a potential mate who is truly compatible.......? ?‍♂️ The deal of having rough relationships with family members seems extra tough. I can emphasize here, for sure. Hardly anyone can trigger and knock us off balance like a close family member. I'Ve been trying/attempting radical forgiveness in general. It's not easy nor is it a popular message. Just some thoughts,,,,

I'm pretty sure Leo said that we need to study Consciousness in this video.l need to rewatch this and take note Arnold Keyserling said that The structure of Consciousness is 3x4 =12 The 4 Jungian functions multiplied by the 3 special realms of body, soul and spirit . The Keyserling wheel is a symbol or analogy of consciousness/God

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@modmyth Going off on a tangent is a specialty of mine. Like our finger prints, our palm prints are unique, one of a kind. Unlike our finger prints, however, our palm prints can change with age. Sometimes the lines of the hand can change rapidly, relating to a change of life. For instance, Arnold Keyserling observed the lines of the hands of his brother change overnight when his brother's leg was amputated in World War II. The lines of the hand have meaning. They are not meaningless chance - chaos. Nothing is. But you must know the fractal correspondences, the keys to decipher the meaning of the hands. Palmistry as known in the West has lost most of these keys, and as it is now popularly known, is mostly non-sense. Aside from lacking the fractal keys to properly read the lines, most palm reading today proceeds from a false premise, that you can know your future from your palms. You cannot know your future from your palms, or anything else. The Strange Attractor prevents such mischief. You can only get an idea as to your present potentials. The lines are a kind of message from your Higher Self who always knows just who you really are, and what you should do.,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,When you come to know your hands in this way you can awaken them spiritually. Your hands can then more easily sense bio-energies. You can literally learn to touch your soul - your Chi - and the souls of others. Then the hands can be powerful tools for healing, as for instance with Chinese Chi Kung practice. The hands can move energies and thereby end energy stagnation and imbalances. The Chinese have found these imbalances and blockages are the cause of most illnesses. The hands can become more creative in many ways. You have only to discover the secret meaning of their lines, their language. from: http://www.chanceandchoice.com/course-overview/energy/

Sometimes I feel like an x-rated Forest Gump.

Regarding this site: http://humanbodytypes.com/body_type.shtml I totally disagree with this statement: Human Body Types are easy to recognize and require no special glasses or knowledge, just a new way of observing. Using animals as an example, we have no trouble distinguishing a Great Dane as being a different breed from a Cocker Spaniel or a Bull Dog. A robin is not the same as an Eagle, etc. The same is true of humans. Human "breeds" are just as easy to differentiate. But, unlike animals, there are no "mixes". A person will be the body type of ONE of the parents, not a combination of both. There are no human mongrels. I don't get him writing that. We are all mongrels. Most of his stuff I agree with though. I've known about the following site for a while but he gets into other things I'm still trying to digest. https://www.michaelteachings.com/bodytypes-shepherd.html

Immediately after reading Susan Zannos' book I read Its good too but I like Susan Zannos book better.

@modmyth I did a no no and shot from the hip when I typed you. I was taught not to do that because I could be wrong. But I'm really glad your interested in this system. If you feel like sharing back what type you are at any point, that would probably make my day. I really dig this particular typology. In 2003 I became romantically involved with an online numerologist. When she came to visit me in Arkansas, she was reading this book. I flew to her home state a few months later. She is a really sweet person but we just ended up as friends. Explainable in part ironically by this book. We were both Solar Saturn/mars with a little difference in me being more on the Mars side while she was more Saturnine in her mixture. I'm surprised she hasn't shown up here in this Forum. I hope she does. We last communicated in 2015. She is someone I feel sure I'll see again in person before I die. Anyway, in this system is the idea of maximum Attraction amongst the types.

"Sometimes a little brain damage can help." - George Carlin

Discusses way of the sly man,,,,

I'm tickled to just have discovered a website about body (essence) types. As well as center of gravity and chief feature. http://humanbodytypes.com/body_type.shtml

I enjoy Dr Weil's lectures. Perhaps he is a Jovial body (essence/endocrine) type? http://humanbodytypes.com/jovial.shtml

@Skanzi I appreciate your articulation.

Wow! Loving all the links! ?‍♂️

Just watched the first one. Really interesting,,, Puts the span of one human lifetime into perspective.