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I've been avoiding becoming a member of Patreon because I don't want to have one more damn password to keep up with. How much sense does that make? Until I do, I'll probably just donate to Leo every now and then through PayPal. I would really like access to what extra stuff Martin and Leo offer through Patreon, though. Maybe I'll get off the fence and just do it. Just felt like admitting to some of my neurosis and backwardness. Have a good day everyone. ?‍♂️

@Preety_India I observe also what you're writing about. Speaking for myself, one factor is an off and on deep insecurity/ loneliness at times, maybe born out of an existential dread. Often an unrecognized fear or existential dread which is just horrible enough that anyone who pays me any attention at all, coupled with my imagination has often been the launching point for disfunctional relationships. Its difficult for me to sum up the reasons for all this perhaps because there seem to be a good number of variables. Insecurity is definitely one. In general forgiveness through understanding seems to be a starting point where both understanding and forgiveness can both grow to take more prominent positions in my life. Forgiveness and understanding which cultivate a more gentle love towards everything and everyone as a perceptual filter. This, in which Being can then attract likeness of being. I realize this is kind of vague in a sense but for now, sitting up in bed, barely awake. This is just what flowed out. Maybe it's a form of falling for the first who comes along and pays us some attention ( for various number of reasons) instead of staying rooted in ones own Being and remaining patient for the appearance of a potential mate who is truly compatible.......? ?‍♂️ The deal of having rough relationships with family members seems extra tough. I can emphasize here, for sure. Hardly anyone can trigger and knock us off balance like a close family member. I'Ve been trying/attempting radical forgiveness in general. It's not easy nor is it a popular message. Just some thoughts,,,,

I'm pretty sure Leo said that we need to study Consciousness in this video.l need to rewatch this and take note Arnold Keyserling said that The structure of Consciousness is 3x4 =12 The 4 Jungian functions multiplied by the 3 special realms of body, soul and spirit . The Keyserling wheel is a symbol or analogy of consciousness/God

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@modmyth Going off on a tangent is a specialty of mine. Like our finger prints, our palm prints are unique, one of a kind. Unlike our finger prints, however, our palm prints can change with age. Sometimes the lines of the hand can change rapidly, relating to a change of life. For instance, Arnold Keyserling observed the lines of the hands of his brother change overnight when his brother's leg was amputated in World War II. The lines of the hand have meaning. They are not meaningless chance - chaos. Nothing is. But you must know the fractal correspondences, the keys to decipher the meaning of the hands. Palmistry as known in the West has lost most of these keys, and as it is now popularly known, is mostly non-sense. Aside from lacking the fractal keys to properly read the lines, most palm reading today proceeds from a false premise, that you can know your future from your palms. You cannot know your future from your palms, or anything else. The Strange Attractor prevents such mischief. You can only get an idea as to your present potentials. The lines are a kind of message from your Higher Self who always knows just who you really are, and what you should do.,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,When you come to know your hands in this way you can awaken them spiritually. Your hands can then more easily sense bio-energies. You can literally learn to touch your soul - your Chi - and the souls of others. Then the hands can be powerful tools for healing, as for instance with Chinese Chi Kung practice. The hands can move energies and thereby end energy stagnation and imbalances. The Chinese have found these imbalances and blockages are the cause of most illnesses. The hands can become more creative in many ways. You have only to discover the secret meaning of their lines, their language. from: http://www.chanceandchoice.com/course-overview/energy/

Sometimes I feel like an x-rated Forest Gump.

Regarding this site: http://humanbodytypes.com/body_type.shtml I totally disagree with this statement: Human Body Types are easy to recognize and require no special glasses or knowledge, just a new way of observing. Using animals as an example, we have no trouble distinguishing a Great Dane as being a different breed from a Cocker Spaniel or a Bull Dog. A robin is not the same as an Eagle, etc. The same is true of humans. Human "breeds" are just as easy to differentiate. But, unlike animals, there are no "mixes". A person will be the body type of ONE of the parents, not a combination of both. There are no human mongrels. I don't get him writing that. We are all mongrels. Most of his stuff I agree with though. I've known about the following site for a while but he gets into other things I'm still trying to digest. https://www.michaelteachings.com/bodytypes-shepherd.html

Immediately after reading Susan Zannos' book I read Its good too but I like Susan Zannos book better.

@modmyth I did a no no and shot from the hip when I typed you. I was taught not to do that because I could be wrong. But I'm really glad your interested in this system. If you feel like sharing back what type you are at any point, that would probably make my day. I really dig this particular typology. In 2003 I became romantically involved with an online numerologist. When she came to visit me in Arkansas, she was reading this book. I flew to her home state a few months later. She is a really sweet person but we just ended up as friends. Explainable in part ironically by this book. We were both Solar Saturn/mars with a little difference in me being more on the Mars side while she was more Saturnine in her mixture. I'm surprised she hasn't shown up here in this Forum. I hope she does. We last communicated in 2015. She is someone I feel sure I'll see again in person before I die. Anyway, in this system is the idea of maximum Attraction amongst the types.

"Sometimes a little brain damage can help." - George Carlin

Discusses way of the sly man,,,,

I'm tickled to just have discovered a website about body (essence) types. As well as center of gravity and chief feature. http://humanbodytypes.com/body_type.shtml

I enjoy Dr Weil's lectures. Perhaps he is a Jovial body (essence/endocrine) type? http://humanbodytypes.com/jovial.shtml

@Skanzi I appreciate your articulation.

Wow! Loving all the links! ?‍♂️

Just watched the first one. Really interesting,,, Puts the span of one human lifetime into perspective.

Thank you @Alex @pluto @Shadowraix

An expression of victim mentality - Woundology http://www.halexandria.org/dward044.htm

Random excerpts from Gems of Wisdom QUALITIES OF AN EVOLVED PERSON “We realize what an immense gap lies between ourselves and a man who is living more consciously than we do, a man who notices when he is becoming identified, a man who sees when he is becoming prey to imaginary anxieties and fears, a man who is sharply aware of the fact that he is justifying himself. This is a gap so great that if we ever have such a moment of insight we cannot help feeling by contract the enormous deficiencies in our quality of Being...But let me add one thing here—i.e., that if you begin to see all this about your state of Being you are already much further on, however hopeless you may feel, than a person who has never caught such glimpses of himself or herself, because it is exactly this feeling of vacuum, of deficiency, of lack, that is the starting point of work on one’s own Being.” V. 2, pp. 704-5 SELF-SATISFACTION II “As regards the remark that this Work is selfish, you must all understand that this Work . . . is something that destroys your self-complacency, your selfishness, your self-esteem, your fantasies about yourself, your pictures of yourself and, in short, your False Personality. It makes you see yourself naked—makes you see that you have to do something about yourself before you try to help other people.” V. 3, p. 849 PERSONALITY AND ESSENCE “As the feeling of ‘I’ is drawn out of the active man (personality) so does the passive man (essence) become strengthened until the time comes when the passive man becomes active and the active man passive. That is, a reversal takes places and the inner controls the outer, not the outer the inner...If we were all more in Essence than we are at present everything would be much more real, much more genuine, much more simple, much more true.” V. 1, p. 286, V. 2, p. 718 ESSENCE AND SINCERITY “Now for the Essence, or inner part of us, to grow and become gradually active, a man must be able to be utterly sincere with himself when the occasion arises. Essence cannot grow from anything false.” V. 2, p. 445

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Good point @tsuki This makes me consider,,,,, from Gems of Wisdom- BEARING UNPLEASANT MANIFESTATIONS “One sign of Being is the capacity to bear the unpleasant manifestations of others. Why is this a sign of greater Being? The answer is that you cannot do this unless you have seen in yourself what you dislike in others...When you have just criticized someone, go over what you said carefully and apply it to yourself. This neutralizes poison in you.” V. 1, pp. 168, 176 OVERCOMING THE PAST “The overcoming of the past is one great line of personal work on yourself. Most people have such a great register of unhappy moments which they have nourished so much...The whole of the past must be cancelled eventually. In other words, you must have nothing against anyone.” V. 3, p. 811 OVERCOMING THE PAST II “It is quite useless to forgive: you have to cancel. And this is always done by finding the same thing in yourself, and you will always find it if you are sincere...You must remember here that you may not have said something unpleasant externally yourself but you have thought something and consented to it.” V. 3, p. 812