Zigzag Idiot

Motorcycle helmets are simply a nuisance. The first thing to do with any piece of modern industrial machinery is to remove all of the guards and safety mechanisms. Wear tennis shoes instead of steel toed boots. Only wear safety googles if your throwing sparks with a high speed grinder and you don't happen to have your sunglasses. The grinder probably needs its safety mechanisms ripped off as well. Work gloves are for people who don't have callouses. Instruction manuals are for college graduates and people who don't have any common sense. Lunch hour is about 12 minutes. Self motivated people look around to see what's going on and what would actually benefit the given situation. . They don't stand around waiting for instructions. Some people can go about their business like this and still be a thoughtful, compassionate, human being. It's been my honor to know few of them.

Jordan Peterson, you're often misunderstood but you're a wise and beautiful human being.

Allow me to explain myself concerning the notion that we create a psychological cul-de-sac or stumbling block in thinking that we need to explain ourselves to other people. In part, this comprises neurotic inner considering which puts a clamp on creativity, one's own progressive learning and the ability to express data from one's causal body. If you're unclear on what is meant by expressing data from the causal body. Don't worry about it. ?Casual body speaks from the Causal realm says the talking head. Dispensing with disclaimers and preambles, I'll often just throw out my perspective bluntly and to the point even when I'm aware that, when seen from another perspective, the statement may be just plain wrong, incomplete, or shortsighted. It's just simply a way of communicating that I utilize to avoid communication paralysis. This doesn't mean throwing away all discretion or that communication paralysis is gone for good. Hello brothers and sisters of a similar bent. I get you. Because I get you, I know you get me. Or at the least We understand each other partially and good enough, so that we're creating something to build on. An understanding that can be added to. So speak your truth of the moment (or not) and don't worry about it. Perhaps this could be called communicating from the gut, aka the belly center. This way of being also means allowing others their own space in a sense and not cross examining them at every turn just for the hell of it. Most often I'll compose my words from mentation into print and then post it. After posting, I'll then read other journals and then be halfway horrified that someone will think I'm messing with them because of a similarity in subject matter. I don't do that. Not consciously anyway. Especially if it implies mean spiritedness. Life is just often coincidental or synchronous and not in a pleasant way. ?‍♂️I thought this worth mentioning to prevent possible antagonisms and also because sometimes my timing really sucks.

@DrewNows I'm glad you shared that episode with me the other day. I've yet to listen to it for a second time but know that I plan to. Too much for me to retain with just one pass. Comprehensive and very rich. Good stuff!

I rarely go to my profile but stumbled into it a few minutes ago and started pushing buttons on the dashboard. Oh Wow! I didn't know all that stuff was there!

Ted is laying it down eloquently utilizing his sometime used, dramatic, evangelical cadence.

I don't seem to have a startle response while in witness Consciousness or 3 centered awareness. Not so in narrative or 2 centered consciousness in which I've observed that I'll startle from the experience of loud unexpected noises. In Witness consciousness, a good deal of my attention will be split away from predator vision and rest with attention divided in varying degrees with the peripheral field. In Witness consciousness, using a chainsaw seems natural or more easy for me to be in, rather than when I'm driving a nail with a hammer or grocery shopping or singing. Narrative consciousness seems to dominate with these activities In witness consciousness, my experience is grounded in the body with the attention being directed deliberately. The attention seems to be drawn while in narrative consciousness and might even qualify as passionate or feeling consciousness. Day dreaming occurs when I'm in 'autopilot' consciousness. I would bet most car wrecks and work related injuries occur when people are in this mechanical state in which a startle response is easily triggered. Witness Consciousness and autopilot consciousnesses appear similar from the outside but are worlds apart. Witness Consciousness experiences being as opposed to autopilot or mechanical consciousness which is similar to a calf staring at a new gate. I don't know what the calf is thinking but I know there are times when I'm similar to the calf. Martin Butler in his last podcast referred to someone's expression resembling that of a cow staring at a passing train. I seem to go to the same place as the calf or the cow when I'm 'out to launch' or 'not at home'. They don't have a neocortex though. Being is experienced in degrees related to the felt sense of the present moment. I.M.E. I wouldn't say cows don't have being, though. They just don't have the experience of being a human.

@Aquarius What a free bird! I'm happy for you! You're the light of the World!

Sounds like you're having all the fun. Go ahead and PM me the uncensored art. I'm glade you're back around keeping a journal. ?‍♂️?

Carol Anthony in the new ICHING, Oracle of the Cosmic Way interprets and articulates that being in tune with one's inner truth means not letting thinking consciousness dominate our feeling consciousness. From a Fourth Way perspective though, I can see how people who are emotionally centered often lack the embodied energy of the King of Diamonds and King of Hearts. This can be cultivated over time through emotional purification or in esoteric Christianity terms, putting the mind in the heart. To me, this means awakening to Conscience This same sentiment, I heard echoed today in a podcast of 4d living with Paul Chek and associated with balancing chaotic It seems that uncovering and processing shame is a large component of shadow work and that talking or writing about it is a whole lot easier than actually doing it.? Hi @Aquarius Great Artwork you're putting out. This evening my IPad is Slloooooowwwww

I used to be a freak about drinking lots of water. I think that I drank too much, maybe. Around 2015, I did my first dry fast. Up until then I drank a lot of water and smoked Cannabis when I fasted. I don't know it for a measured fact, but I feel the Cannabis helped stabilize my blood sugar. After about 3 days, it seemed like any fat that I had just suddenly melted or maybe even dried up. ?‍♂️ My instinct tells me that the danger in doing dry fasts is variable among different people.

I'm ok with being a slob. In front of my dryer is a big pile of clothes that I flip and stir through to pick out what I need. It's been this way for years and I'm fine with it. I understand being a neat freak too because I was one of those in the distant past. Being a rogue student of more than one teaching, I have to untangle them when they seem to clash. This has happened quite a bit over the years and has been the source of a good deal of cognitive dissonance for me. Resolving some of these disparities has been really fulfilling though. Every now and then I'll run across a seeming disparity in Teachings that I had forgotten about. It seems like the deeper I get into a Teaching, the less I feel compelled to go to Source or a group which is closer to the Source. Like with the Ridhwan School and the Diamond Approach or the Gurdjieff Groups or Foundation or Contemplative Christianity. I just don't like the idea of getting around groups of people or any structure that limits freedom, for sure. I'm selfish in this way.

In the land of the blind, the one eyed man is king. Pity is as worthless as arrogance. Try not to pity others. It is not Love. Castaneda called pity "sham compassion". The place of no pity is a condition. It is a state of consciousness that may have the appearance from the outside as teflon Love. It has a relentless Honey badger quality about it. I can't have the experience of it if my inner world is polluted by concerns of what I think about what other people are thinking. If I'm concerned about what other people are thinking, I'm not free inside. The atmosphere of my energy egg is polluted when my inner world is hooked to the outer world. Having a clean atmosphere and having the ability for stopping the world in order clean one's atmosphere is a trait of a universal heretic. It's a supreme condition that doesn't happen by itself. One has to make efforts and huff and puff in order to cultivate it. ?

Arrested development I'm one of those kidults, I'm afraid. You have to have a functioning healthy ego for there to be something to transcend as I've heard it put in Ken WilbEr lectures. That's where excessive intoxicant use in adolescence tripped me up. I never developed a healthy functioning ego but eventually developed individuality ( Real "I") anyhow, later in life. I skipped being human #4 (balanced human) and became human #5 Individually. Because I skipped a step, I'm at a place where I can't go on unless I fix this somehow. This is how I paraphrase what the Work has taught me. To help fill out the map, Jesus was human #7. The path I've taken has left me at a place where the ladder of reason is missing a rung. The ladder of reason is also the ladder of being. Everything is made of energy. We each are made up into a mixture that is a vibration number. You're real name tag is your vibration number. Everyone has their own vibration number. Everything too. All forms of matter are specific vibrations of energy. Love created a game for rediscovering itself. Us batch of humans are seeds sown from prior historical epochs. Religions were injected to make some of us hate ourselves just enough in a certain way for some reason. This is an idea given to me among others by the Gurdjieff Work. Chances are It could possibly be a wrongly interpreted horseshit idea as well. If I can't figure out the problem of the missing rung. I'm stuck at a place with a bunch of hasnamusses. People arrive at the condition of being a hasnamus for different reasons. One of the reasons is from taking the left hand path. We're born innocent but also stupid, helpless and eventually crazy. We have to help ourselves as best that we can. A part of my own strategy is to laugh and be as lighthearted as often as authenticity will allow. To receive the gifts of our ancestors in order to hopefully pass them on is one game that's played. Stating things bluntly are what gnostics do. While we're all here it seems the least we could do is watch each other's back. That's a part of being a placeholder. Placeholders are people who try to remember and who try and remember at least a little. That arithmetic even exists is proof to me that we exist inside of a holon that floats in Love. Love is energy. Energy is everything. Everything is vibrating. I should quit writing for now and get some rest. My Automaton feels like it has a little bit of a fever. There is a small infection on the back of my leg that needs tending to. Good night.

Too bad the sound quality is poor. A few therapeutic, comforting words given and some very profound ideas related. Some seemingly prophetic. Bits of wisdom, none the less.

Growing up I heard to slice open and smell a fresh lemon if possible to countereffect the shortage of daylight in winter and the depression that goes with it for a lot of people. Below are abbreviated trip notes from my last trip. God is found in the strange attractor Aggravated chicken pecker syndrome has jumped over into humans

Excellent way to put it! Very much in line with how it might be phrased in ACIM

I'm glad spring is here. The mild temperatures have inspired me to get more outdoor projects going. Yesterday, God had me to add 1/2 glass of drinking water into the keyboard of my laptop. In just a few minutes, it all quit working. It was unresponsive and didn't want to work today either. So now I have one less working computer and I guess that's that. Being that I'm kind of a hermit anyway, my life is hardly any different than it was before the Corona virus hit. Hameed Almaas has 17 excerpts about ego in his online glossary. https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/ego The following is one of the 17 which I found helpful. Confusion About the Term "Ego" Here we digress to point out a source of confusion about the term “ego.” Readers who know both the spiritual and psychological literatures will find the term freely used in both, but with no general agreement on what the term refers to. This ambiguity often leads to confusion. The literature on spiritual development, on essential or inner development, on all matters of religious concern, generally uses the term “ego” to mean something which is seen as the barrier to spiritual realization. The literature on depth psychology, however, uses the term with a very different meaning. The ego referred to by Freud, and which ego psychology studies, is not the ego which is the barrier to spiritual development. They are two different concepts. The psychoanalytic term “ego” refers, rather, to the functional self, which is the site, organizer, and coordinator of the functions of perception, memory, mobility, and so on. There is, however, a concept in depth psychology and ego psychology that coincides with the ego of spiritual literature: it is called the “ego-identity,” and is sometimes referred to as the sense of self, or the sense of identity. This sense of self or separate identity is the main concern of ego developmental theory. This identity is, in fact, the acme, the most important outcome of ego development. It is ultimately the organizing center of the psychic apparatus. This psychic apparatus includes as one of its units the Freudian ego. In other words, the Freudian ego is part of the mind, is a structure or a structured process in it, while the self is a sense of identity and a center of action. The exact sense in which the ego identity is a barrier to spiritual development will become clear in later chapters. In addition to just the term ego, the Glossary has about 16 other entries concerning ego. Such as ego structures, ego boundries, ego death, ego development etc.,,, https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/alphabetical?alphabet=5 Echart Tolle's homespun word -pain-body- is a handy word, at times, for discussion about ego. Especially when discussing the opposite end of the pole from that which is counter to ego inflation. Not certain but I'm pretty sure Echart Tolle coined that term.

Up and down in a back and forth world In my roller coaster life of ups and downs, gathering healthier forms of coping mechanisms became a strategy. Like Psychological alarm clocks, some coping mechanisms lose their effectiveness. Back In the 90's during severe bouts of anxiety and depression, watching the three stooges worked sometimes for me. Moreso for anxiety. Sometimes Foghorn Leghorn cartoons. Later on in the 2000's after having read Castaneda, I might resort to making fun of myself in front of the mirror. Perhaps start with making my sad face look even more sad,,,, Just a sad long face,, so sad,,,,, Intuition tells me everyone has to find their own strategies for getting out of the desert or breaking an obsessive worry cycle. Eventually one strategy I used for my ego to return to happiness was to starve myself from food. I've always had a terrible diet loaded with carbohydrates and sugars but somehow finally managed one day to discover the effectiveness and benefits of fasting. To fast with only water for two or three days can do wonders for the emotional center. It feels good and even energizing to go from being chronically bloated from intestinal inflammation, to having that feeling of a tight core. Having an empty gut and tightening up the core of the body usually helps my posture too. The cost and result of me being a cyclical or a Round Idiot, is that I always returned to bad eating habits. Eating a lot of sugar makes me more prone to be reactive and expressing negativity. Truth be known, I'm not completely free of all that either. Sometimes, I can still act either knowingly or unknowingly, like a real dick.

Back and Forth Enlightenment in an up and down world Enlightenment rarely happens all at once. Witness Consciousness is elemental to enlightenment. No one goes into the second tier without knowing the experience of what Echart Tolle calls the experience of being the Observer. Fully enlightened people are incapable of violence. Through Self remembering one can have the odd experience of becoming enlightened 5 times in a day. I wouldn't say that's true for everyone. For the vast majority of people though, the idea of becoming enlightened 5 times in a week is how reality will be, at some point, if they climb past the threshold of the first and second tier. Getting a good taste of what in the Fourth Way is called Self Remembering, will include seeing how the state of Witness Consciousness also comes and goes. This will be how the unfoldment up the path goes for most people, I propose. I may bring out the Science of Idiotism again with a couple of reference points. Zigzag Idiot is the last Idiot before Enlightened Idiot as illustrated by Bruno Martin. As Witness Consciousness is elemental to Enlightened Idiot and beyond some contend that premeditated violence is also actually an impossibility. Pondering earlier this evening, my imaginative conjecture was that people on the Green level of the Spiral transcend premeditated violence and by the time a person is solidly at the Turqoise level, they are incapable of violence and even crimes of passion such as murder. As the state/condition of Witness Consciousness comes and goes so does deeper and deeper levels of Self Remembering in my experience. I put the shift from green to yellow on the Spiral or the shift from first tier to second tier as also the shift equivalent to the movement of Zigzag Idiot to Enlightened Idiot. There are a few charts of the Science of Idiotism and the ladder of reason found earlier in this journal in case anyone is interested. Experiencing Self Remembering shows me that spiritual sleep comes and goes. I've been doing this for years and would maintain it's a little different for everyone. This will sound crazy to some and grandiose to others. I wouldn't be surprised if a few even hated me for making such a statement. Regardless, I'll go ahead and claim that in my experience, enlightenment comes and goes and it's no big deal. I hope someday to be solidly at the Turqoise level at least. That would be nice and hopefully doable. Backsliding in a big way is also a possibility. If this all sounds crazy or if reading this pisses you off, then maybe you shouldn't read my Journal. I welcome comments but I'm not interested in arguing with anyone within this Journal. That can be done somewhere else. Maybe out on the forum but I usually like to avoid arguing if possible. I think bringing up the idea of Witness Consciousness and what it consists of, is time well spent and also an idea to return to and ponder often. Maybe even have heated discussions about. ?‍♂️ Don't forget to take deep belly breaths, sense your feet and relax the small muscles of the face every now and then also. ???

@Petals Indeed! Seems a very intellectual blog. Given the multitude of Fourth Way and Gurdjieff websites, I'm going to add some more links to websites that have more of the basics of the Gurdjieff Work. For those who have the time and want to research, this will provide a more varied selection. https://www.endlesssearch.co.uk/ http://fourthwayschool.org/ https://ggurdjieff.com/fourth-way/ The three links above are to sites that are more foundational than the links below. https://www.gurdjieff.justwizard.com/index.html http://www.rahul.net/raithel/otfw/fourthway.html http://www.higherbeingbodies.com/ https://www.gurdjieff-bibliography.com/Current/17_moore_ revelation_28mar_2004-07-03.pdf https://gurdjieff.org.gr/ae/index.htm Website dedicated to the study of "The Tales"