Zigzag Idiot

Guess Who? Who? No I asked Guess Who. Thinking of The Who. Now who do you think this is? Go ahead and guess,,,, The Guess Who, I guess. No. It’s The who. Good guess though. Can you guess who this is? No. Who? It’s The Guess Who. More Guess Who,,,, Who? No, Just guess who,,,, The Guess Who, I guess. Here’s some more of The Who. No more guessing who.

A excerpt from one of Cynthia Bourgeault’s online courses which is an excerpt from the Teachings brought forward by the mystic George Gurdjieff. Fifth Striving: "The striving always to assist the most rapid perfecting of other beings, both those similar to oneself and those of other forms, up to the degree of the sacred Martfotai, that is, up to the degree of self-individuality." The fifth striving may be one of the hardest as it places us in the position of a Teacher. Teaching can take many roles, from being a good parent, to sharing in a group, to being a guru with hundreds of disciples. Listen to your conscience and find your niche. As with every path of action, ego presents the greatest obstacle. Ego is like a stick with two ends. One end is the arrogant self-aggrandizing character, and the other is the meek self-deprecating character. What they have in common is their focus on the egoic self : "I am so great" or "I am so nothing." True humility balances the two and is the only place where selfless action can occur. Most of those who avoid the responsibility to teach use the egoic "I am so nothing" excuse. Do not underestimate your capabilities and do not be afraid to make a few mistakes. Teaching is the best way to learn. "When the Teacher is ready, the students appear." “Teaching is the best way to learn.“ - This is a statement which is also echoed in A Course in Miracles. ACIM and the Teachings brought forward by Gurdjieff are stressing the metaphorical interpretations of the New Testament.

Let's be real reactive now Of course responding consciously is always the preferred and more beneficial way juxtaposed to the reactivity that comes from our untamed animal selves. The village Idiot is a wild card Joker and there are many varieties of them. Whatever town or metropolis you live in or nearby. Everyone takes their turn in this almost inevitable kind of reactivity. The crucial element in evolving is always the return to the state and station of Ordinary Idiot. Sometimes crow is served up by one's own hand, to be eaten. Sometimes not. Not all instances of return to Ordinary Idiot requires an apology to another Idiot or Egonaut. The freedom attained in apologizing to another and the forgiveness that comes from your own heart boosts its capacity for emanating. Forgiving yourself is vital. Forgiving another, when necessary, keeps you from hating yourself. Don't bury your hatred like a self deceptive Zen Devil. And the nature of self deception being what it is, makes for a huge hurtle. No matter your essence or personality type. Say for instance you find yourself feeling betrayed in some way. Then becoming reactive you hit your uncle with a charred hamburger patty and you scream at your favorite Aunt that she's a goddamn cu** from hell. It's unlikely that you suddenly recognize your foolishness and say, "Oh my goodness! Look at how badly I have erred and behaved. Let us sit in meditation or hold hands and pray." Usually it will take at least a day or so of reflection, pondering, and more importantly a period of some deep sleep with good REM cycles. I'm a Mars/jovial/solar (adrenal dominant) endocrine type. So I've had these unfortunate events happen to me that puts me into the category of raging asshole hypocrite at times. Don't be a torture to yourself and others by acting constantly like an egonaut or an objectively hopeless Idiot. When you can, try to remember yourself and eat crow as soon as you can do so sincerely. with love, Authentic Idiot sometimes aka Zigzag Idiot Good quotes on the phenomena of hatred- https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/hatred

How many times can a burned out village come back to life? Have your Being and display the mercy that's in the innermost interior of your heart. Be light hearted. As always, a song only half says what needs to be said. Have a good day and be completely present to your immediate experience.

A crucial element in being awake Do you discern the difference between sensing and feeling? Vive la différence,,, When you pray (meditate), do so with your whole body and be completely there.

Enjoying the simple things in life. Return to Ordinary Idiot ever so often,,,

If you in a bad mood make up a silly song One that justs goes along singsong sing along rhymes right or wrong I see you you see me we go pee then we go he he he Te he he ho ho ho and away we go from where we flowed

I got this rather cryptic quote from A Course In Miracles. Below it is a bit of the preface which I cut and pasted. I'll leave the link if anyone wants to read more of it. "There are no triumphs of love. ²Only hate is at all concerned with the “triumph of love.” ³The illusion of love can triumph over the illusion of hate, but always at the price of making both illusions." (ACIM, T-16.IV.5:1-3) ,,,,,,,,,, Sin is defined as “lack of love” (T-1.IV.3:1). Since love is all there is, sin in the sight of the Holy Spirit is a mistake to be corrected, rather than an evil to be punished. Our sense of inadequacy, weakness and incompletion comes from the strong investment in the “scarcity principle” that governs the whole world of illusions. From that point of view, we seek in others what we feel is wanting in ourselves. We “love” another in order to get something ourselves. That, in fact, is what passes for love in the dream world. There can be no greater mistake than that, for love is incapable of asking for anything. (ACIM, Preface.7:1-7),,,,,,,,, ,,,,,, Forgiveness is the means by which we will remember. Through forgiveness the thinking of the world is reversed. The forgiven world becomes the gate of Heaven, because by its mercy we can at last forgive ourselves. Holding no one prisoner to guilt, we become free. Acknowledging Christ in all our brothers, we recognize His Presence in ourselves. Forgetting all our misperceptions, and with nothing from the past to hold us back, we can remember God. Beyond this, learning cannot go. When we are ready, God Himself will take the final step in our return to Him. (ACIM, Preface.14:1-8) from; https://acim.org/acim/preface/what-it-says/en/s/43?wid=toc

What A.H. Almaas refers to as the Diamond Guidance in his Teaching. The sixth chakra and third eye,,,, Excerpts from the Glossary I like,, Spacecrusier Inquiry,, Great book! Feeling the Presence of the Diamond Guidance Usually the Diamond Guidance operates as a presence in the center of the forehead. When it arises in support of discrimination and understanding, we become aware of an expansion as space opens up in the forehead. With that expansion comes a sense of peacefulness; the Black aspect at the center of the forehead opens and we feel stillness and spaciousness. When the Diamond Guidance arises in this peacefulness, we feel a delicate presence, a pulsating energy that possesses a sense of clarity and transparency, an intelligence, an illumination. This delicate, pulsing, breathing presence appears as understanding, as insight, as intuition. As the forehead opens, we feel the Diamond Guidance as a tingling, an energetic throbbing – but very soft, very delicate, very subtle. If we are not attuned, we might dismiss it as just a physical twitch. Or if there is a lot of blockage, as is often the case in the early stages of the development, the diamond might feel hard. Due to the blockage it can’t get through, so it feels almost like a rock. But if we are relaxed and open, we feel it as a softness, a delicacy. Spacecruiser Inquiry, pg. 226 Guidance is the Magnifying Lens of Being The Diamond Guidance is the discriminating intelligence of the optimizing thrust, the guiding intelligence that specifically reveals through the recognition of what is being revealed. There is a dynamic interaction between this Guidance and love, an interaction related to the optimizing force of Being. Love is the energy of the dynamism that displays the truth, while Guidance is the magnifying lens of Being that helps us to recognize what is being displayed. Furthermore, the Guidance is the discriminating intelligence that opens the way for love to display the truth. The two things need to happen together for there to be a revelation … Spacecruiser Inquiry, pg. 140 The Angel of Revelation In other traditions, the Diamond Guidance is sometimes called the angel of revelation, the holy spirit that brings the word or message from the source. It is the angel that guides us to Beingness that is our ground, our nature, our source. It is the true friend, the total friend, because the Guidance’s only concern is for you as a soul to go back to your source, to be who and what you can be, with total acceptance, total support, total guidance, total kindness. The soul needs to place herself in the right attitude for this kind of blessing to come. You have to do the work of correctly orienting yourself. Basically this means harmonizing your consciousness with the mode of presence and operation of the Guidance. This is what we are exploring when we discuss inquiry – the right orientation, the right posture, the ways of being and functioning that will invite the Guidance. Spacecruiser Inquiry, pg. 223

Piece of crap trac phone I'm using at the moment. Funny Farside cartoon I remember from years ago,,,

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Reaching Up "Shedding Guilt" by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2022 Dr. Jim Rosen Guilt doesn’t come out of the sky and grab you. It is something you put on yourself, like a heavy coat that you really don’t want to wear anymore. Guilt is a belief – a very false belief. It’s a way of telling yourself that you are bad to the core and therefore unable to change. Guilt doesn’t fix any of your problems. In fact, it makes you hang onto them. It ties your hands and binds you and puts you in a state of mind where you can’t change. Remember, with your guilt you have told yourself that your doings make you a bad person and that you can’t erase them and make yourself a good person. You can trade in this poisonous idea. You can exchange guilt for a healthy dose of responsibility. Taking responsibility is entirely different than taking on guilt. When you take personal responsibility, you are looking in the mirror and saying, “OK. These thoughts, these behaviors, these emotions are mine. I make them and it’s up to me to change them.” It’s not blame; it’s not guilt. It is looking honestly at your own choices and your ability to make new and different choices. This is a prescription for learning and growing and healing. Now the heavy coat is off, no longer holding you back. Dr. Jim Rosen is a PhD Clinical Psychologist. He is an experienced psychotherapist, hypnotherapist, and couples counselor. He offers treatment for anxiety disorders, panic attacks, depression, relationship problems, self-esteem issues, assertiveness training, anger control, stress management, and overcoming the effects of sexual, physical, and emotional trauma.

Reaching Up "The Inner-Directed Person" by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2022 Dr. Jim Rosen You may discover that you’ve been an outer-directed person – that you’ve been relying on other people for your own sense of worth and esteem. Perhaps it’s time to learn to become an inner-directed person. It's not very complicated. You can begin by honoring your own feelings. Your feelings are your yearnings for the things you want to do, and they are your signposts for the things you really don’t want to do. Each time you act on one of these feelings, you will be doing what feels right on the inside. And as you make a habit of practicing these actions, you will begin to feel more important and worthwhile. Because you’re starting to express who you truly are, you will also notice that you’re experiencing a sense of direction in your life. And there are more benefits. Each time you do one of these internally generated things, you give yourself the very important message that says, “I count. I’m important too.” Instead of hanging back and waiting for others to love you and feed you with their approval, now you are giving yourself the needed love and approval. And now you are fulfilling your inner self instead of setting yourself up to feel needy, unloved and unfulfilled. Dr. Jim Rosen is a PhD Clinical Psychologist. He is an experienced psychotherapist, hypnotherapist, and couples counselor. He offers treatment for anxiety disorders, panic attacks, depression, relationship problems, self-esteem issues, assertiveness training, anger control, stress management, and overcoming the effects of sexual, physical, and emotional trauma.

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For whatever it's worth. Here is my 2 cents. Ego cannot exist without time. Next time you slam a car door on your fingers. Just remember that time doesn't exist. I would elaborate but my automaton is sleepy and my ego is selfish and grumpy. I'm going to bed. A little bit out of sorts,,,

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A lot of good contributions, Another perspective roughly put- Levels of consciousness somewhat equal to degree of being.

The search for brutal Truth To awaken then die, then be reborn. Fall asleep. Awaken. Die in a new way. Bloom again. Wash, rinse, spin. Do it again. Become devastated then be born again. Shiny and new. Light hearted and light as a feather. Becoming identified = falling asleep ,,,,, again and again Worn to a frazzle. Discovering dimensions and treasures,,, Love and loves,,, Loves and Love Empty yet full. The depth of sorrow reveals yet more beauty and truth. Tears flow again Love becomes hidden then appears again as an experience The eyes have died. Yet, the eyes have it! They see more than can be explained Depression vanished somewhere on the path only to be replaced by anguish. Deep contentment takes its place. My seeing becomes feeling. It feels the way. The Love has more depth, yet, it is indifferent. Empty but full. There's no explaining it except I'm the same as you. If I were ewe I'd be a lamb and you would be me. We could count sheep while we pee. In irreverence, we can go #1 together and laugh. Later on it will be #2. I would rather do that alone. #2 is dookie do. You have to relax to let go. It works better that way. There will always be difficult days. Life as a human being is just that way. Laugh and be free and you'll be okay.

Saints are the eaters of suffering Woe is man. Wo/man is half man. Man is 1/2 wo/man. Me oh my. ICU and you see me. We both need Intensive care because ICU812. First I 81 then u812. It's just that way unless it's not. A knot head, I am. Sometimes with my guts in knots. Don Knotts, I am not. If you meet me. I will not be as you may think. I'm a very dead-pan man. I am a Fred Astaire. I will often stare at people. Sometimes they are strange. No? Express from your Causal (Imaginal) body. Seth, the famous being channeled by medium Jane Roberts said something strikingly similar: “Imagination and emotions are the most concentrated forms of energy that you possess as physical creatures. Any strong emotion carries within it far more energy than, say, that required to send a rocket to the moon. Emotions, instead of propelling a physical rocket, for example, send thoughts from this interior reality through the barrier between nonphysical and physical into the objective world — no small feat, and one that is constantly repeated” (Seth, The Nature of Personal Reality, p. 95). from- http://neuroscienceandpsi.blogspot.com/2012/03/henry-corbins-mundus-imaginalis-sufism.html Count on the Arising of the "Dark Night" Our understanding of the conditioned mind supports the revelation of new aspects of being. We see that even though the causes of suffering keep becoming more subtle, one thing runs through all of them: ignorance. We just don’t know what is real. As our exploration and inquiry deepen our awareness, understanding, and knowledge, we begin to penetrate the ignorance. The new understanding might inevitably make us aware of much more suffering than we were conscious of before the exploration. We might even begin to experience our suffering in a previously unimagined but actually beautiful way: the sense of the “dark night of the soul,” the sense of being in hell. Everyone who does the work goes through this. If you haven’t been through this dark night yet, you can count on its happening if you continue on this path. The time will come when you will have to struggle with deep suffering as you confront deep beliefs about yourself and about reality. And there is no one you can blame for this suffering; it is not a matter of history. It is a matter of beginning to see reality and beginning to confront your ignorance. This is a great struggle because the mind is deeply habituated, and it is hard to let go of those entrenched beliefs and attachments. Suffering and conflict will become intense for all of us. Although there is no way around the suffering, it helps somewhat to know that it is a normal part of our work. Diamond Heart Book Five, pg. 100

Reaching Up "The Cycle of Depression" by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2022 Dr. Jim Rosen The usual cycle goes something like this. First you set yourself up for depression by believing in the “impossible dream” – you hang onto the notion that fulfillment comes from other people who might give you their love, acceptance and approval. Then you behave in ways that are supposed to win their love and approval. In other words you try hard to do what they expect of you or what you think they expect. So you’re sacrificing your own freedom for this elusive promise of fulfillment by others. And except for fleeting moments, the promise doesn’t come true. The other people don’t supply you with the love, support and approval that you crave. So the “impossible dream” remains impossible, and you feel like giving up. When you give up, you get depressed. You may think there is something unlovable about you, or you may think you didn’t try hard enough to win their love and approval. So you pull yourself back up and try again. But this just leads to repeating the same cycle. You can never quite get that fulfillment from others. It’s not because of something lacking in you. It’s really because fulfillment doesn’t come from outside sources. If you want to end this cycle that keeps you getting depressed, you must learn to become an inner-directed person. How to become inner-directed is the subject of next week’s column. Dr. Jim Rosen is a PhD Clinical Psychologist. He is an experienced psychotherapist, hypnotherapist, and couples counselor. He offers treatment for anxiety disorders, panic attacks, depression, relationship problems, self-esteem issues, assertiveness training, anger control, stress management, and overcoming the effects of sexual, physical, and emotional trauma

The ever changing Milk-toast Warrior The title fits my persona. I tend to always be in motion but the intensity of my attention and interests vary a good deal. Below is Will Mesa's commentary on the Zigzag Idiot and the Enlightened Idiot The zigzag idiot moves in all directions but never around like the round idiot but rather in a zigzag manner. In the Work he goes one way, learns something useful, and then moves in another direction learning something else. He is always trying to learn something new by moving in different directions but the only problem is that he cannot choose one path. He finishes a book in Hinduism and then goes for another one in Jung psychology, and then to another one on Zen, and so and so. There is nothing a zigzag idiot loves most than a living room full of books with a small flower in a center table as a little reminder that there is such things as Life and Nature. A zigzag idiot in the Work is always quoting from books about the Work he had read. I know a young woman dear essence-friend of mine, the personification of the zigzag idiot, who is always quoting from Work books. “Oh, yes, I saw that in Commentaries.” “Well, that is in the New Model of the Universe.” “You telling me, I saw the same thing in The New Man.” One day I asked her not to quote anymore and to use her own words as a way to develop her own individuality and that what she was doing was a sort of eternal recurrence and she responded: “Well, now that you mention it, I saw that in The Strange Live of Ivan Osokin.” At the end, the zigzag idiot has read so many books that he does not remember any. But he is without doubt a high class of idiot because while he is moving zigzagging he always learns something. If he dies as a zigzag idiot he will have enough knowledge for at least ten successive reincarnations. The enlightened idiot thinks that he knows all. He can talk about all, he can discuss all. He is the perfect erudite. In the Work group he is always in the library, while everybody else is in a Movement class. He is not really searching for anything in particular like the zigzag; no, he just wants to know more and more about everything until he gets to the point that his enlightenment is total confusion. If an enlightened idiot and a zigzag idiot meet at some place in space and time, the enlightened will continue straight while the zigzag will make a forty-five degree detour. However they will never acknowledge each other because each one is too occupied minding his own search. Can you imagine an enlightened idiot and a zigzag idiot married to each other? Even the refrigerator of their apartment will be filled with books and they probably will make love on top of the bookcase because the bed is also covered with books, of course if they ever make love because while one always moves in a straight line the other always moves diagonally. How difficult would it be? taken from- https://willmesa.wordpress.com/2015/04/18/on-idiocy-and-idiots/

Turtle-dove romantic love It goes fast It goes slow It flies high It goes low It knows with certainty Then it knows not but remains the same Then it transforms and remains the same, not But then it will become still After the time of stillness The arrival of stillness not It is difficult to understand because understanding, there is none Nun's know this sometimes Sometimes Nun's know this not Romantic love = infatuation It is never lasting, it lasts not Like all addiction cycles that come and go At first they are fun and then they are fun, not This kind of love is not Love with a big "L" Ocke de Boer articulated it in this way first I did not My summary though is to the point. Or maybe not. Romantic love is bullshito and it bites And it can bite you hard or tie you in knots, maybe, Then again maybe not. This pertains to Don Knotts, It does not but then again in his lifetime he was an ordinary human being like you or me To be a human being is to experience suffering To face suffering with nonattachment is a sign indicating a step towards Love with a big "L" It can be a state of consciousness for me at times Most of the times, it is not,,,,, This is no bullshito, eh? I've never met a human being who embodied Love as a Station of consciousness What does this bring to mind for you? Hyperbole mixed in or not. This is a paradoxical piece of work. Maybe it's just dookie-do. Maybe it is not. Enjoy your life and don't over-think too much. Just be in the present as a present to yourself. If you want to walk around inside your house in your birthday suit. Suit yourself. Or suit it not. It is yours to gift wrap it up freely and maybe give it away. Or maybe not. You are not your automaton (body) What you are is so much more. More or less,,, Am I full of bullshito? Maybe. Maybe not,,,,

Some fools are slow learners. Some are quick. Some are not. Others are tied in knots. Don Knotts, I am not,