Zigzag Idiot

4-7-2019 61 Inner Truth Line 3 9 Taming Power of the Small The changing line councils not to look for absolute truth outside, apart from Inner truth. Inner truth is connected to feelings which tell what is harmonious and what is discordant.

I like this one best on the list. Agree! My two cents: 1- Put attention on physical sensation in the feet with intention of escaping narrative consciousness in head brain to embodiment of whole body awareness grounded in the belly or heart. 2- Role play being extremely stupid or of being a ghost.

Thanks for sharing the Yin Yoga video. I tried a couple of the poses yesterday. I feel a slow pull toward making this a practice.

@Wisebaxter You're observations about the obsession with trying to be funny all of the time caused me to pause and reflect on my interactions with others. Actually you helped me to see a bit of my shadow in which I dissociate through some form of humor. We all dissociate with everything that can be used for dissociating from reality. After I had made those connections, I wondered if your bringing it up was your form of skillful means in getting me to see where I take a good thing - lightheartedness- and through my overcompensating personality of the type 6 (fear), go subtly into egoic imbalance. Spontaeous humor and lightheartedness are true assets that can be expressed from essence. We can see others egoic blind spots to an extent but there also exists the essential expressions and Virtues which are counterpart in a sense to false personality traits or passions. Qualities of the Pearl beyond Price some would say. Being in communication with others about work ideas just paid off for me some in uncovering a small bit of shadow. My skillful means hits a sour note at times and I'm trying to work on it where it will manifest more naturally. More accurately feeling where others are at. If this was your skillful means and way of showing me something about my blind spot or rather getting me to see it. Great job and thanks! If not, Thanks GOD! So, I'm still kind of being a Joker but it's ok because there's no identification to it,,,,,

4-6-2019 23 Splitting Apart Line 6 2 Nature Not related specifically to my reading but related to what is conveyed in The Oracle Of The Cosmic Way overall, listening to music that contain no lyrics is much healthier than music with lyrics. Thought is very powerful but the spoken word is even more powerful and can manifest spells which create a fate for oneself and others. I would like to expand on this when time allows. This idea of mine about music is really more of an assumption,,,,, for now.

Creating moon in oneself The phrase and concept of creating moon in oneself is in large part about inhabiting the belly center in a big way. By grounding into the belly center, the capacity for being impartial gains an upper hand over nearly everything. It means having all my attention gathered and being in a collected state of consciousness. It's the capacity for disidentifying from anything that is distracting my attention whether positive or negative. Early in life, due to insecurity, I lost my most of my inner sovereignty and became glued to the outer world as a people pleaser. Re-establishing in contrast to establishing a deeper connection to the belly center feels right because of a sense of Self Remembering that comes into awareness. Like self observation, it is something that becomes more accessible the more I consciously work at it. There is an element of having to start fresh everyday. Most often in the mornings I'm too much in my head until I get more awake from the nights sleep and become balanced in awareness which means the capacity for dividing my attention and having a groundedness through sensation and body awareness. I have a tendency to become spread thin due to developing interests in a multitude of different things. As this happens there's a tendency for all my attention to become dispersed. Over the years when viewed in hindsight, I've observed how it was during times of having all my attention dispersed that I would become overwhelmed by life. So creating moon in oneself is an extremely practical thing to do. Creating moon in myself is about going deeper into my interiority which is higher in terms of Consciousness contrasted to the outer surface parts of myself that is reactive and hooked to the outer world. It gives a feeling of being more of a completed and multifaceted holon. God/Cosmos is Holon. I too am a holon.

It makes sense to me. The body is not real eternally. It's just a tool needed for an Earth experience. My paraphrasing could be altering your meaning though. I'm that way with words. I've caught myself doing that a lot. Using a word repeatedly in expressing an idea,,,, Maybe I'll just laugh instead of being overly self conscious next time I catch myself doing that.

4-5-2019 34 Using Power Lines 5 and 6 1 The Cosmic Consciousness The changing lines of 34 indicate some identifications I'm in the midst of this morning. Out the door for a while,,,,

Expressing negativity is almost always counter productive. There is almost always honesty in silence. Sometimes are occurrences which are counterpart to instances of almost always,,,,

Power Of Now because of its practicality, simplicity and profundity. Addresses different forms of suffering and paths to realizing being . A book for both good times and bad times.

@now is forever Is there an "I" ahold of you? Do you need to ground through Swadisthana and Manipura,? At times, new moons have disturbed me more than full moons.

@Wisebaxter Yes, whatever kind of Dmt I took was a lot more intense than the acid I took 30 years ago. There was no lightness or euphoria with my dmt trip. It was heavy ,,,, from the word go. Although I distinctly felt tapped in to the psyche of a troubled friend who lived a few miles away. It was just more dark and heaviness though. It will help my confidence/faith next time in surrendering into it, knowing exactly what I'm taking. Whenever that comes about,,, hopefully in the next 2or 3 months. Yes, next time I'll trip solo in my house,,,,

Sometimes "when everything is wrong",,,,, everything feels dead ,, it hurts.

@Wisebaxter After my disturbing first Dmt trip, I'm inspired to go head first into my next one. I appreciate your comments and encouragement,,,,?

I'm glad you posted that. It slipped my mind. I just started watching it though. Wow lol,,, Starts out kinda intense

For a long time I've experienced pressure or a slight throb in my forehead that comes and goes. Also For the last year almost a continual background chorus of crickets sound. I've noticed at times in Meditation how they seem to both suddenly get stronger when I'm hitting those spaces of objectless awareness.

I had a small realization this morning about some of the bickering that goes on in the forum. People will be talking about the same thing and each has a valid point of view but they are completely contradictory to what the other is saying. This occurred to me when thinking of this Teal Swan video I watched a few days ago. This is the first time that I've heard Alan Watts mention Gurdjieff. He brings several threads together. What he is getting at reminds me of a talk AH Almaas was giving one time and after several minutes into his talk and bringing different threads together suddenly said to the audience- "So now I would like to invite you all to leave yourself alone." ?

I feel like I've had more than my fair share of days like this. In his 10 cd Kosmic Consciousness cd set (interview by Tami Simon) Ken Wilbur described his own confusion at times as "plutonium confusion". I can relate to the idea of experiencing plutonium confusion. Cynthia Bourgeault, in talking about the subject of Awakened Conscience has used the phrase "feeling my every-which-way-ness". I've found it to be an apt phrase as well. Its weird how this stuff can sometimes come and go 12 times before lunch,,,,,,

@Michael569 I just joined in December. I wasn't around then.

@okulele It goes with my morning I CHING reading that I've been posting in the Journal section under Tea-Ching friend. Cautioning about having a self image,,,,

4-4-2019 46 Pushing Upward/ Being Lifted Up by the Helpers Lines 2 and 6 52 Mediating

Some commentary from this mornings I CHING reading is relevant to this topic. Referring to hexagram 46 with a changing 6 line that I got in throwing the coins - ,,,,,,,,,This line can also refer to a person who thinks he has been spiritually awakened. To bring himself back into harmony he needs to free himself of the self image of the awakened person.

Fulasnitamnian Awareness

4-3-2019 1 The Cosmic Consciousness Line 5 14 Possesion in Great Measure Mu_ shared this in a Topic he started in Meditation, Consciousness, Enightenment, Spirituality She makes some very good distinctions. Gurdjieff said when we are stuck in our head, we radiate. When our heart opens, we emanate. Unless we open our heart and also become grounded in body, Kundalini is a curse.

Yes, sometimes. When I realize that I mistakenly follow obsessions.