Zigzag Idiot

Moved to another topic,,,,

From A.H. almaas All Spiritual Work Would be Pointless if There Were Such a Thing as Ultimate Evil As we have seen, each Holy Idea is a characteristic of reality at all locations, at all times, and at all levels. Holy Truth explicates this understanding. Here, we are saying that not only is reality just one presence that is boundless and real, but that it is also positive, blissful, and wonderful. So not only is God one, but God is also wonderful and made of love. The truth, then, is loving and lovable, which is why we say in the Diamond Approach that you must love truth for its own sake. If your orientation is that you love truth so that it will change you and make you a happier person, your orientation is out of sync with how things objectively are; if you see reality as it is, you can’t help but love it. It follows, then, that objectively there is no evil. We see evil only when we perceive reality through a filter. A person who behaves in what we consider evil ways is a person acting through a distortion. In spiritual work, concepts of a devil, of dark forces, of some evil that exists on its own outside of the goodness of reality are considered manifestations of ignorance, both in terms of believing in such concepts and in terms of the manifestations attributed to such forces. All spiritual work would be pointless if there were such a thing as ultimate evil. Facets of Unity, pg. 215

I've enjoyed a few of @winterknight 's Youtubes. @kieranperez I appreciate your no bullshit directness. I'll give his book a read sometime soon.

In the Science of Idiocy there's an ongoing return to Ordinary Idiot. Ordinary Idiot as in - Zen mind is Beginners mind. Zen mind is also Ordinary Idiot. An Ordinary Idiot is free and spontaneous and most importantly, nonself reflective in a neurotic way. Ordinary Idiots don't fall down the spiral of inner considering. Zen mind is Beginners mind is Ordinary Idiot.

Member 672 posts Posted Wednesday at 10:49 AM · Report post On 7/10/2019 at 9:01 AM, moon777light said: If we dont bring mindfulness throughout our daily lives, we might as well not meditate at all. Interesting thought. Lyrics from the song "There's a space I'm looking for I grind all the time 7/24" User Quote Remove Bookmark The kingdom of heaven is within.

Experiencing panic attacks and deep depression years ago along with bad drug experiences are things that broke me open to where I remember saying " I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy ". I had to work my ass off out in the hot weather today. Thought I was gonna have a heat stroke for a bit. Being exhausted from hard physical labor helps to ground me sometimes. I feel that way this evening.

@Preety_India I wish you a return to peace. Christ energy reaches me more in reading A Course In Miracles than the King James Version of the New Teststament. It seems most all of us have to go back 'into the desert' every once in a while. It can really hurt and also be confusing or it is for me when it happens.

@kieranperez I understand. Meant no harm. You're correct that I projected or brought up those categories. I'm reading on Ralstons Pursing Consciousness that you recommended a while back. Am enjoying it,,,,

There's something to be said for the art of living in a minimalistic way juxtaposed to high production/activity mindset. The art of living simply. Easier said than done but I think often overlooked. Who was it that said, " when I got to the top of the ladder, I realized it was against the wrong wall,,,,?

I experimented more with NN dmt today and just left a small report on the NN dmt thread. An interesting side note is that during my trip today the crickets in the background sound I've been hearing for the last year and a half returned during my trip. For the last couple of weeks this phenomena has been more sporadic than normal. The sound also disappeared for a couple of days around the time I first tried Modafinil but appearantly this was coincidental. I know this has to sound weird but it is what it is. For the majority of the time over the last year and a half this has nearly been constant. This hearing a chorus of crickets. It's related to the frontal lobes I feel sure because it seems to get louder when my forehead feels that subtle pulse or pressure which is also more noticeable during Centering Prayer meditation. It seems to coincide more with objectless or non conceptual awareness or maybe states close to,,,, How's that for paradoxical? ?‍♂️ Generally there is more of a heaviness on NN dmt trip days. Something else that I'm just trying to observe more about,,,,

@ 2:38 What Terrence describes as the "Chrysanthemum" is a good description of what I've encountered. By his description this is only half way to a full breakthrough. I tried 50 mg NN dmt again today in a better made device and utilizing a machine ball (copper wire). Using my first machine ball, I added more to it, to make a nice fitting plug in a glass bottle. That's about 4-5 trips or half-trips within the last week. https://www.dmt-nexus.me/forum/default.aspx?g=posts&t=25974 A friend shared this article with me. It's the design I'm working with. Im still trying to get my timing down with heat and inhalation,,,, not to burn it and make it harsh. I barely made it to the Chrysanthemum, today. I felt some fear today with it and just tried to let it be. Overall, it was another interesting episode and learning experience. I'm also questioning the quality of the stuff I have but then again it may be more of my clumsiness in producing good vapors,,, My first trip with this stuff on June 18th was the most intense but also the most unpleasant from the harshness. Today also I noticed a distinct sense/feel that washes over my body that is unique to NN dmt. Words fail me. I'll report back in if or when something interesting happens,,,,

One thing that really struck me from ACIM is Jesus asserting that the only two authentic personal attitudes devoid of ego are peace and joy. I don't remember it being written but I can see either peace or joy also as attributes of Love.

What a nice deep sleep I got after my short trip! I didn't achieved an extreme breakthrough but by loading the machine ball ( compressed ball of copper wire) with the NN dmt, it completely changed the experience. No harsh taste and also a loss of fear about the substance. At one point, I couldn't help but close my eyes as I lay back on my bed and just watch all the almost comical hallucinations. They were very colorful, symmetrical and in constant change. I experienced brief instances of exhilarating Joy. At first it felt like what some refer to as a heavy body load but it seemed to dissapate or transform into a peaceful, relaxed body. The big news for me is the big reduction in fear I now feel about NN dmt. This was a slightly stronger experience than what I had last week. So l think I'm on the right track to being able to get a strong breakthrough experience with a litttle more work on modifying my method and smoking device I load the machine ball into. My days and nights are now completely upside down which in itself is a novel and therapeutic for me. I've always been very clock oriented creature of habit-- wake up at daylight-- eat lunch at noon because it's 12:00--quit work late afternoon-- etc,,,, My new situation allows me to manage my responsibilities with much more flexibility. This also seems to be of help in this kind of experimentation. Had some very interesting visuals (hallucinations) and thoughts before I drifted off into sleep for a solid 8 hours. This Digeradoo hypnotic wave You tube shared by @Keyhole last week was a great piece to have playing during the expierience.

I'm on NN Dmt now. I ts hot outside a a I go t my chores done, i smoked 50 milligrams I a machine ball likefore I s just snorted a mother 30 mg's it getting more difficult to type. Now I'll check back. ,,,,,,

7-9-2019 62. Preponderance of the Small. Line 5 31. Influence

Ha! yeah, that was intentional.

Leo Gura 4-24-1985 4 +2+4+1+9+8+5 = 33 3+3 = 6 Leo has a 33/6 Life Lesson number. 33 is the Christ Vibration number.

Getting into a bathtub with a strong bleach water is about the best. Duct tape is often used The Life lesson number is a person's birthdate added up and reduced down to a single numeral unless it's a Master number. It was a good way to get a feel for this particular number with all the people who I had known any at all with thier birthdate right on thier Gravestone. For me, this particular book is special among all numerology books. Anyone who likes Meditations on the Tarot would probably like this book.

Mother Earth instead of ball earth @Anderz There's some talk in Fourth Way cosmology of the earth as a Being that also has a kedsjan (Astral) body. If I remember right that's supposedly a cause of human meaning. We help complete the Earths Astral body by become "food" for archangels instead of becoming food for the moon (lower Astral realm) or Hell. Some of this I probably mixed up a little wrong but there are interesting ideas around this and different things to be read on different Fourth Way websites. With some pure bullshit mixed in no doubt at times,,,

@mandyjw I wouldn't worry about the tick. We have tons of them in Arkansas and and I've known only a handful of people who have gotten Lyme disease. I dread chiggers and seed ticks worse. Seed ticks are super tiny and often swarm onto a person by the dozens. Chiggers are so small you can't see them and create a terrible itch. Some people put sulfur in thier work boots which absorb through the sweaty feet which makes one less palatable to biting critters. I used to hang out in cemeteries sometimes and do the numerology of people I knew who had passed from the dates on their gravestones.

@Marc Schinkel it's pretty much close to being that way! ? I lived on Ramen noodles for years but finally gave them up. My diet is still terrible.

@Marc Schinkel For a refrigerator reminder, Turiyatita is probably better.

I experience ego structures often trying to stake a claim as a part of the identity of the witness or witnessing state. This seems common for many on the path. Turiya is a good word to write on your refrigerator. https://youtu.be/zSafhz0qfwU

7-6-2019 33. Retreating/Hiding. Lines 1, 4 and 5 18. Recognizing and Correcting the Causes of Decay