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@phoenix666 This is genius. As chief old Lodge skins said, "It makes my heart soar like a hawk"

I remember what a Zen devil pain in the ass I was to my first Fourth Way Teacher Dwight. God bless you Dwight, wherever you are.

@Wisebaxter You're absolutely right about the phenomena. I abandoned forgiveness for a while. Thank you, friend. Im fine now. I'm definitely going to stay out of the forum while I'm tripping from now on. Things can get too complicated in a hurry. Forward we go,,,,,

I had a beneficial backflash this morning. Years ago I had a 24 minute VHS tape of Terrence McKenna that I watched obsessively. Over the years I forgot about it. Even when I got back into listening to Terrence on you tube about 10 years ago. I did a search and found the old lecture that I had back then but now the meaning is so much richer. It's actually two different talks put together. A small gap in the video which is poor quality but his message comes through loud and clear. There are some inexactitudes but overall I think many of you will enjoy this when you have time. So this is what I'm currently rewatching,,,,

The face cards represent the three centers. Hara - Jacks Emotional - queens Intellectual - Kings King of hearts = Intellectual part of the emotional center = Conscious Love and patience Queen of hearts = Emotional part of the emotional center = Archetypal drama queen?? Queen of diamonds = emotional love of truth Jack of diamonds = mechanical part of the Intellectual Center or shallow thinking Someone with a center of gravity in the Queen of spades will love movement/dance. If you suggest the idea of chastity to someone who has a center of gravity in the Queen of clubs, they might laugh in your face. ?

@DrewNows I agree. Just watched it for a second time. "At the core, we lie to ourselves because we don't have enough psychological strength to admit the truth and deal with the consequences that will follow." "Understanding our self deception is the most effective way to live a fulfilling life"

Me too. @Serotoninluv like your additions also. Reminded me of the phrase self similarity over scales. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Self-similarity Or the Sun is like the nucleus of an atom,,,,?

Hot and miserable day outside. I created a nonlinear booklist to share. ?

As I watched the part you mentioned, a post of Marc's came to mind. "Sometimes there's life within life that shows you life"

@ValiantSalvatore I agree. @Arthur yes! Thank you!

One reason I feel Emerald could be a help to me is because she is a presence here in the forum. She sees what's going on among folks here. She's seems sincere, steady and not reactive. Sometimes I become too self absorbed. It's like there is a split between my inner and outer worlds on those self absorbed neurotic kind of days. All in all my understanding and stability are miles ahead from where I've been in the past. Some of the time I'm a complete walking and talking contradiction. There seems to be two sides to this coin as well. Depending on the moment and circumstance utilizing one side verses the other fits the reality of the moment but then life is a continual change. Ive been alcohol free since 2005. I chained smoked Camel light cigarettes from my teens in the 1980's until around 2000 when I finally managed to quit. During that time I got on Paxil but the finally managed to quit using it about 10 years ago. My diet still sucks but one thing I've become better at is eating less. I no longer drink soda pops. Mostly water. This is currently the staple of my diet. Lately its all the pecking from the argumentative little Zen Devils that has gotten under my skin the most. Ocke de Boer says that sometimes Conscious man needs to develop the wisdom for when it's time to go run and hide. So he doesn't get pecked to death. I'm amazed at what Leo is able to put up with at times and still keep churning out good stuff. I really enjoy reading and conversing with most everyone here minus the Zen Devils. We can all learn a lot from each as we try out Leo's ideas and suggestions.

I'm probably going to contact @Emerald before too long and get her council regarding a couple of different tangles. I trust her advice and her take on different things.

Someone else, not me made these two remarks above. I reported it earlier,,,,

I'm just fine. Thank you.

@tsuki I think you're the only one who has a copy of The Oracle of the Cosmic Way. If you happen to have any leisure time for pondering, the following might give you a chuckle. Yesterday my I CHING reading was 47 Line 4 giving a second hexagram of 29. Youre probably too busy for all that and that's cool also. Those readings can be right ON sometimes,,,,, ?

@zeroISinfinity ? No problem Sorry you got mixed in with all the confusion,,,,

A green bush might get scorched but it doesn't burn.

From a direction I wasn't looking towards

?‍♂️ Shit fire! I guess so,,,,?

@Raptorsin7 @Malekakisioannis @zeroISinfinity @Lowerplanedweller.???

15 hours ago, Serotoninluv said: I think that's a good way to to put it. The "looking for it" may seem arduous in the beginning. For many years, I traveled all over the country and world looking for it. Now the "looking for it" is much closer and accessible. It's more like a "checking in on it" or "remembering it". It can be found quicker than my misplaced keys. I agree. It can happen with just a shift in awareness. Suddenly the peripheral field of vision is included in awareness in certain ways. We lose startle response. That is if we're referring to Witness Consciousness. if someone assaults me, chances are I contract back into ego/personality. I clearly remember making this reply To Serotoninluv's remark. FUNNY BUSINESS going on in the posts below it earlier today. I've reported this.

You're right I just need to find an excett @tsuki This wasn't me The last two posts claiming to be me - WAS NOT