Zigzag Idiot

One reason I feel Emerald could be a help to me is because she is a presence here in the forum. She sees what's going on among folks here. She's seems sincere, steady and not reactive. Sometimes I become too self absorbed. It's like there is a split between my inner and outer worlds on those self absorbed neurotic kind of days. All in all my understanding and stability are miles ahead from where I've been in the past. Some of the time I'm a complete walking and talking contradiction. There seems to be two sides to this coin as well. Depending on the moment and circumstance utilizing one side verses the other fits the reality of the moment but then life is a continual change. Ive been alcohol free since 2005. I chained smoked Camel light cigarettes from my teens in the 1980's until around 2000 when I finally managed to quit. During that time I got on Paxil but the finally managed to quit using it about 10 years ago. My diet still sucks but one thing I've become better at is eating less. I no longer drink soda pops. Mostly water. This is currently the staple of my diet. Lately its all the pecking from the argumentative little Zen Devils that has gotten under my skin the most. Ocke de Boer says that sometimes Conscious man needs to develop the wisdom for when it's time to go run and hide. So he doesn't get pecked to death. I'm amazed at what Leo is able to put up with at times and still keep churning out good stuff. I really enjoy reading and conversing with most everyone here minus the Zen Devils. We can all learn a lot from each as we try out Leo's ideas and suggestions.

I'm probably going to contact @Emerald before too long and get her council regarding a couple of different tangles. I trust her advice and her take on different things.

Someone else, not me made these two remarks above. I reported it earlier,,,,

I'm just fine. Thank you.

@tsuki I think you're the only one who has a copy of The Oracle of the Cosmic Way. If you happen to have any leisure time for pondering, the following might give you a chuckle. Yesterday my I CHING reading was 47 Line 4 giving a second hexagram of 29. Youre probably too busy for all that and that's cool also. Those readings can be right ON sometimes,,,,, ?

@zeroISinfinity ? No problem Sorry you got mixed in with all the confusion,,,,

A green bush might get scorched but it doesn't burn.

From a direction I wasn't looking towards

?‍♂️ Shit fire! I guess so,,,,?

@Raptorsin7 @Malekakisioannis @zeroISinfinity @Lowerplanedweller.???

15 hours ago, Serotoninluv said: I think that's a good way to to put it. The "looking for it" may seem arduous in the beginning. For many years, I traveled all over the country and world looking for it. Now the "looking for it" is much closer and accessible. It's more like a "checking in on it" or "remembering it". It can be found quicker than my misplaced keys. I agree. It can happen with just a shift in awareness. Suddenly the peripheral field of vision is included in awareness in certain ways. We lose startle response. That is if we're referring to Witness Consciousness. if someone assaults me, chances are I contract back into ego/personality. I clearly remember making this reply To Serotoninluv's remark. FUNNY BUSINESS going on in the posts below it earlier today. I've reported this.

You're right I just need to find an excett @tsuki This wasn't me The last two posts claiming to be me - WAS NOT

I'm barely hrer my light is flickerinh

The Master is the true self in Almaas's writing in his Inquiry book Spacecruicer Giving the reaching about thr automatic positive thrusts whith will Manifrest, Almaas referred to this as the holy sorirt!i don't know anything about chief exexutives. I'm ok either way

Why couldn't JP improve? Can't we all continue to go through transformations? Doesnt the Maslow model apply to everyone. As far as the general population, I know of a 17 year old in South America who has processed some on his own and has emotional understanding which it seems JP has yet to realize. There are definitely a lot of problems associated with youth but then it seems each generation is more sophisticated than the previous. Im 52 and feel like Conan the barbarian sometimes,,,

I agree. It can happen with just a shift in awareness. Suddenly the peripheral field of vision is included in awareness in certain ways. We lose startle response. That is if we're referring to Witness Consciousness. if someone assaults me, chances are I contract back into ego/personality.

In Leo's blog just now,,, you might want to go read. It begins - The following is a word-for-word conversation that I had with Infinite Intelligence on 9/1/2019. I first scrawled it down by hand in a yellow legal pad. Then I typed it out below: ========================================================= I am Infinite Mind describing itself to itself. What is the substance of mind? Nothing, Void, Emptiness, Infinity, Pure Potential, Lack of Differentiation. A mind is a thing which differentiates. What is a Mind?,,,,,,,,,

You may be able to relax and better communicate online with Emerald on some issues,,,, Just a thought.

Wow! I just now read this! it is Very synchronous to what I posted a few minutes ago in HC Resources,,,,,,

The Belly Quality of Basic Trust The presence of basic trust indicates that you have the innate sense that life is fundamentally benevolent, and that that benevolence exists independent of you and your actions. You will have this sense to the extent that your grounding in the universe has not been disturbed. The relative presence or absence of basic trust is a belly quality, something one’s whole being is either grounded in or not. The disturbance of basic trust is a significant factor in ego development because the perspective of ego is diametrically opposed to the sense of basic trust. The ego’s perspective arises out of a lack of this trust. It is based on distrust, on paranoia, on fear, on the conviction that you’re not going to be adequately taken care of and that the universe is not there to hold and take care of you in the ways that you need. This conviction causes you to believe that you have to engage in all kinds of manipulations and games to get your needs met and to make things work out. Facets of Unity, pg. 25

Letting go. We can't truly let go if we haven't fully embodied our belly center. In a state of fear we can't fully inhabit the belly center. Almaas studied a variety of Teachings. Most of this is about the Gurdjieff knowledge. Functioning of the Essential Self in the Belly Center Yes, usually the belly center has to do with embodiment, with the capacity to sense oneself. However, the belly center is also the will center. In a sense, the ultimate function of the will is to surrender to what happens, surrender to the now. And surrender to the now means not to hold on to something. The true function of the will is complete surrender to what’s happening without holding on. That is will. The essential self, like all essential aspects, can function in any of the subtle centers. When one is being the essential self its location is usually the heart center. However, when the essential self is functioning in relation to identifying or disidentifying from any content of experience, it becomes associated with the belly center. The essential self is more like a potential for experience, and it also manifests as a capacity for identification. One of the results of that capacity for identification is embodiment. Embodying something means you are identified with what’s happening. An essential state is present. You are embodying it if you are it. The true self has the capacity to identify with something you are experiencing, but it doesn’t have to. It has a choice; it has the freedom. Diamond Heart Book Three, pg. 79

My ship of fools are more manageable out on the high seas than they are when at port. ? ?‍♂️

Two short recent videos ( good samplers ) from Ted which I haven't posted anywhere else. This first one addresses integration in a way,,,, 7:25 9:27 pointing toward the idea of Self Remembering as used in the Fourth Way