Arman

1 video game reviewer = proof of most peoples opinions? Besides who cares even if everyone does think you're crazy. Any time you're truly on the leading edge of something, the rest of the populace will try to stomp you out. Now that being said, that doesn't mean that people thinking you're crazy automatically implies you're on the right path, lol. Anything taken out of context can be easily made to sound crazy. I can see why someone would think Rupert is crazy or as having sinister motives, simply because in his talks he speaks really slowly and in a cadence that would strike one was bizarre if they haven't had any previous exposure to mystics or those with great presence. In the video of his used within the game, it's kind of an older talk, and nowadays I think his phrasing and presentation is more... accessible. Also with zero context of certain ideas then it sounds like absolute gibberish. Especially when people start using words like awareness, consciousness and witness in ways they're not used to. "Someone talking slow and funny and making zero sense to me? He must be full of shit." Some people think even the most basic wisdom is nonsense. Tell the average person that if they take time off each day to simply sit and do nothing, then they will be less stressed and that well-being will improve. They may give you a polite "yeah, maybe" but their eyes will gloss over and you can see it bounce right off them.

I had friends who would go long stretches without food, water, or sleep. A truly remarkable feat. Days spent in a deep trance, almost as if their very essence had left their physical vessels and gone to another domain. But that's world of warcraft for ya.

Wow, this is the first time in my life I have heard anyone discuss a psilocybin dose like that. I had no idea people were seriously experimenting with doses like that. Unfathomable. Haha, of course not. Go back to your cubicle, citizen.

Love is your natural expression, to fully embody it in the qualities you're seeking you have to neutralize the cacophony of unreleased emotional charges present within you that muddy your vibration and therefore your experience, both internally and externally in what you attract. By releasing emotional charges, you automatically align with the love that you are. In truth, all emotions and all experiences are love, but they are in a sense distorted into a wide array of emotional colours, some of which are abrasive and undesirable to the mind. Therefore seek to neutralize fear, anger, grief and other negative emotions. There are many methods of neutralizing these emotions. The primary tool is acceptance and unconditional presence with what arises. One must find a methodology, practice or principle that is sustainable. To make steady gains and great progress, it may not be enough to do an occasional shadow work sitting. Any effort is always good, but if you want to transform radically, you have to make the effort. When we only sometimes make effort to remove negative emotions, It can feel very overwhelming to dip into our large reserves or unintegrated charges because they feel like huge mountains in which we are only lifting a few pebbles. That is why it is important to engage in a practice or principle that is going to allow for regular sustainable release throughout your day to day life. Not just weekends or evenings. In order to make practice sustainable, it is useful to make a dedication to understanding emotions and how energy works. This will create more understanding so you won't get overwhelmed, confused or disheartened. By understanding the internal landscape, you have a map by which to navigate. Make a commitment to become aware of the negative emotions that arise in your experience, and make a commitment to allow them to be the catalyst to your highest expression by accepting them each time, which starts to release the pressure of them. This is one of the fastest routes to transformation of consciousness, which results in shifting of relationships, inner well-being, vocational goals, creativity, spiritual progress, happiness, etc. The best book I know on this subject is Letting Go - The Pathway of Surrender by David R. Hawkins.

or as I once heard it, having your mind so open that your brain falls out

keep up the good work, Aamir

depends on what your aim and goal is, brother. different practices can have different effects, but they mostly all cross over in their benefits, for example increasing focus, health, concentration, etc. some specifically will create more insight into the mind, or some may be more effective at neutralizing emotions, etc different practices are also suited to different temperaments. some people are suited to some practices more than others because of their energetic makeup. best to experiment and see what works for you. then ideally stick to at least one of them

love her unconditionally. love elevates are you her boyfriend or her therapist?

I've been through what you're experiencing in my own way. Not with 100% the same symptoms, like I didn't have depersonalization, but it was a long and enduring span of physical, energetic and mental challenge. If it is kundalini related then I'd advise against psychedelics because they may cause further energetic unbalance. My advice is to think less about spirituality and simplify that path. Eg. humble devotion to god and faith. The rest of life? Start with breakfast... then move onto the next thing. Each day anew. I strongly advise that you take care of yourself physically by doing light exercising regularly, grounding yourself and eating clean. This will help with a lot of the symptoms Taking walks when you can are really good. I would take barefoot walks because supposedly being barefoot against the earth energetically grounds you. I don't know if this is true, but I found that it helped me. One meditation practice is to stand against the earth with your feet about shoulder width apart, and imagine you have deep, thick roots that grow down, dooown into the earth. On the in breath, imagine and visualize grounding energy from the earth moving into your body and radiating throughout and into your limbs. On the exhale, imagine all the excess energy returning into the earth, now having balanced and re-energized you. Do this for a few minutes. I know it can be quite the nightmare. When you become physically exhausted, sleep. From my memory of the time, which to be frank is kind of foggy, probably because my brain was such a mess: all the spiritual aphorisms and advice fell on flat ears and it all felt empty and impotent. In these times, what I found much more useful was the solace of TV shows I liked, laughing, wrapping myself in blankets and reading, etc. Just whatever practical and basic things that are in your life that give you some kind of solace. I also listened to LOTR on audiobook a lot, Man that series kind of saved my life. When there is physical exhaustion and fatigue, then sleep. Try not to fight it. It gets better. It really does. It feels as though you are such a mess and so fucked up that even if it's all "over", surely there is no way you'd actually be a balanced healthy individual, but you will be. In fact, for what it's worth, you will actually eventually be more grounded, more energetic, more creative, more loving and more alive than most people living on the planet. Kundalini awakening is a badass firmware upgrade. Consider contacting Craig Holiday (search him on youtube.). I don't know if he requires payment for sessions, but I think shooting him an e-mail may be worth it. He specializes in rough kundalini awakenings.

Partly I was just pushing to be like "cmon motherfucker just say you believe in aliens" - But actually with that last line you put a spanner in the works and raise a good point. John C Lily used to have two great terms: In-sanity and out-sanity. He said outsanity is the idea's and viewpoints which one publicly expresses as their stance, and insanity is ones actual suspicions as to how the world operates, which they dare not share. There's a kind of hilarity in how averted to certain ideas we can be, and then we drop them for more expansive and strange ones. Then you discover that actually the truth is even stranger, and stranger. As strange as our deepest suspicions about these things are, I am willing to bet that once again we are completely missing the mark, and the truth of it is even more absurd.

Sounds like you're doing real well. My suggestion is to meditate on the impulse that made you ask the question.

Leo, this may not be a particularly significant point but I ask out of curiosity: what is your opinion on the validity of channeled material? Were you open to these kind of ideas a few years ago? Not so much the ideas within the text itself but just the idea that an entity or energy, either physical or non physical could channel information to humanity. I remember a year or two ago watching your material and it may have been my projection but you struck me as thinking anything like that was grade A horseshit. I myself had the opposite problem of having my mind a little TOO open and probably buying into too much woo woo bullshit. That being said I embrace channeled material. Just makes my balls tingle with excitement to have you basically say "aliens, dawg" Anyway I appreciate your willingness to engage with and share this kind of material

I find that I impulsively use it as a sedative for discomfort or any feeling that arises that I am unwilling to fully experience. Interestingly, when I'm out or with friends, I don't necessarily spend much time on my phone at all in terms of the time spent with it in my hand, but I may compulsively 'check' or open social media or something for a second, and then put it away, and that in itself functions as the sedative to break the emotional experience enough to become distracted by a more pleasurable or less resistant emotion. Just by turning on the screen and playing with it for two seconds. Just one unconscious behaviour or many. Although maybe it is not so unconscious because I note myself doing it almost everytime, but I guess I am compassionate with myself about it because it doesn't bother me that I still do it. I stay with discomfort and allow things to integrate very often, so when I see old compulsions to disengage from feelings, I just kind of note it and observe.

heck, why not?

Meditation and spiritual practices, like any tools, can be misused. When practiced safely and with moderation, barring karmic or physiological predisposition, I would say danger is limited. On any path there is difficult experiences. When practices are misused, moderation is not taken into consideration, the body is not listened to, intuition is ignored, or maybe you're just plain unlucky, there can be moderate to severe side effects, from discomfort all the way to full blown psychosis. These are rare. Moderation and pacing are more important topics particularly when it comes to pranayamas, specifically spinal breathing or kundalini related practices. That is not something to really worry about. Especially with more 'regular' meditation practices or basic mindfulness. Perhaps having some idea of more common pitfalls can be useful, because you may recognize them sooner and have an idea of what to do about them. These pitfalls are less extreme and more common. Things like discomfort, difficulty sleeping, bouts of returning to old unconscious behavior, feeling as though you're backsliding, irritation, emotional flares, changes in physiology, things like that. It might be useful to know about those things. Philosogi made a good recommendation with Leo's negative effects video.

I'd like to hear your thoughts on the subject I'm choosing to call Highest Dynamic Sentient Intelligence. The idea is that there is an intelligence permeating all reality. I'm talking about a kind of highest supreme intelligence that has its own volition, creative ability and responsiveness. This is how I choose to interpret this intelligence, your view may differ: The intelligence would be the summation of at least all the information available aka all creation, and possibly even the summation of all infinite potential. It is the natural spontaneous collective creativity that is the result of its own propensity or whim to exist at all. I am not talking about intelligence in an abstract sense, like we might sometimes vaguely refer to as the wisdom of stillness. I'm talking about real, impacting, dynamic intelligence. If we could use the metaphor of a garden, then we can see that plants have their own sentience and their own kind of intelligence. We could also argue that their intelligence is dynamic as they have their own form of decision space, albeit limited (how to respond to certain stimuli). This intelligence and volition has its effect on how the garden looks. One step higher is the gardener. He is a higher level of dynamic sentient intelligence and really designs the garden. The higher the level of dynamic sentient intelligence, the more creativity and wider decision space, and therefore greatest ability for further creation. So take your mind up many, many levels, to the highest level of intelligence available given your understanding of reality. Those who follow a more empirical mindset may say they have no reason to believe that they have experienced any level of dynamic sentient intelligence higher than that of their own, and that beyond personalized consciousness, the world seems to be a mechanistic runoff biding its time. Others believe that the Highest Dynamic Sentient Intelligence is governing all aspects of creation in a very calculated, precise and effective way, and that this intelligence is accessible, either as a source of power to be petitioned, or as an extension of oneself: ones birthright. So I'd like to hear what perspectives you subscribe to: Do you believe there to be a dynamic intelligence beyond yourself, permeating all of reality, or perhaps at least your physical reality? Why/Why not? Do you believe this dynamic intelligence has an aim, a goal, a volition? Why/Why not? Can this dynamic intelligence be accessed? If so, how can one leverage this dynamic force for their own journey? Thanks for reading. EDIT: In timely fashion, from the thread Hypnotized by Infinity, Leo offers an interesting alternative perspective that I think should be perfectly stimulating for this thread. Leo's proposal here initially creates resistance inside myself, which indicates it's probably a direction I should start to face. Honestly, intuitively it seems to make more sense that this kind of 'indiscriminate - brute-force-of-love' would be its nature, and looking at Highest Dynamic Sentient Intelligence as the 'commander in chief' perspective feels naive. Maybe the truth lies somewhere in between. I just don't know. Here's some music to play while you think.

First step is to call up google to try to recover the account that uploaded the video. If you can access that account you can delete the video, and there are ways to recover accounts even without knowing the address/username or password. Failing that, just be honest with them and tell them your situation, and ask what information they'll need to provide for them to delete the video.

Consciously choosing your family to be one of your primary values is not a problem in and of itself. In fact, I think it is beautiful. I think Leo's comments are concerning circumstances in which you are wanting to pursue your life purpose or primary values, but your family is standing in the way. Are they standing in the way? It is possible for family to be part of life purpose. Even the primary focus. Doesn't sound to me like your children or your family are currently an issue for you? It sounds less like family is an issue, and more that a deeply held belief about family, or your role in relation to them that may be a sticking point.

What would you prefer?

Yeah they are one substance I am always wary of, especially because I have heard a kind of trend among friends who have taken particular use from it or have favored it. Seemingly out of nowhere, without an increase in dose, experiences can suddenly become harrowing beyond comprehension, as if the substance turned on em or something - then from then on that was the particular trend from that substance every time they take em. Kind of like being kicked out of a party or something.

Hmmm sounds to me like energetic openings and release of charges as a result of meditation. I think it is a common experience for people to swing all the way back into unconscious behavior after minor 'awakenings' or energetic shifts. There's kind a pendulum effect. Anyway it sounds to me like you're holding on to something you refuse to let go of. The experience wants to release and integrate but you may be resisting it. Rest more, meditate more, and completely allow the experience to happen. Hit up a doc if you feel too bad.

This is an interesting one, because the implications are kind of potentially nightmarish, at least when you let the mind wander on the subject for a while, lol. Allow me to share the perspective and understanding that I most resonate with: Gonna try not to trip over my own words. I think the infinite aspect of creation is primarily a probabilistic one; meaning there is infinite potential for creation, and that there is no limit to what can be created and what 'Everything' can expand into. However, does that mean creation is going to run on creating everything into infinity, or that it has already all been simultaneously created? Maybe. My perspective is that while I think while all things are equally possible, only what is functional is rendered (created.) Now the term functional is a subjective one. I do suspect however that the universe creates towards some kind of ideal or direction. To my mind that direction is Love, whatever that is. I see it as the path of least resistance that allows for the greatest expansion and further creation so that the universe can further know itself. For example our physical domain seems to be super effective for growth of consciousness, creativity, discovering potentials, knowing onself, etc. However the universe is far less inclined to render a potential universe where everyone is ripping there arms off simply because it's not practical or effective for expansion. This would be governed by the dynamic intelligence of god. Side note: I think even the nature of our physical universe is mostly probabilistic and rendered. Meaning an empty space isn't even really 'real' or rendered until we step into it; purely because it's just more optimal for the universe to render what is most functional at all times. It also allows for greater creation potential: because if the contents of an empty space or empty room are set in stone, there is less creative potential there - however to the degree which we can forget or let go of its contents, that allows for more malleable probability if we were to interact with it. There's just no point to rendering the vast majority of physical reality, or the vast majority of infinite potential reality, because most of it isn't in alignment with the goal of expanding into love. It's like leaving an unused computer running while you leave the house. It's a waste of energy. Therefore when people say that all realities are equally and simultaneously real, I do not believe that means that they are all rendered and happening. I believe they are potentials that are waiting to be actualized if 'necessary' or useful. Therefore, if your personalized point of intelligence decides it is worth accessing, then so be it, you as an aspect of all that is has accessed that potential and rendered it for whatever reason.

Videos of fractals always put me into a state of shaken awe when I watch em. I always think about the first dude who programmed the first visual fractal simulator. Back then I think it was minutes to render even a single frame, but still. 'Understanding' fractals theoretically and experiencing the first visual representation would be two completely different things. Imagine that first dude sitting alone in a darkened room actually trying to comprehend the implications of what is suddenly very real. These things are the very epitome of mind boggling

Book recommendation: The Ultramind Solution. If you don't like the way your brain is operating, then aim to change it by studying what impacts focus and high functioning, and aim to make those changes. The brain is highly adaptable and capable of tremendous recovery.

Well said. My understanding is that as a result of evolutionary imperatives, we are built to receive and translate incredible amounts of information in what seems to be an instant. Historically, we may not have had time to shake someones hand, look them square in the eye and ask them their life story before deciding whether or not they were of sound quality. A moments hesitation could mean you have your head bashed in with a rock. So from the instant you see someone, you have already registered a vast amount of subtle information. How tall are they? How are they standing? Is their chest puffed out or is it receded? What race are they? How dilated are their pupils? Are they nervous? What about eye contact? What is their social status? If I had to fight them, would I win? If I did win, would the tribe turn on me, or embrace me? Then there is the micro-expressions and micro muscular movements on the face that even the adept can't hide. How they are positioned in relation to others, their vocal tonality and from where in their body they speak? Then we get into even deeper levels like pheromones. Of course there is no way we could possibly consciously go through all this information and make a decision in a meaningful span of time. So instead, within an absolute split second, all this information is combined, calculated, processed, translated and refined into the most convenient package creation can muster: a gut feeling. That's just the first encounter. We are always taking in vast amounts of information and translating it out of necessity, because social dynamics are life and death. I think women are even more adept at this kind of receiving and translating, as they have to take in an even deeper realm that deals with family, fertility, protection, and judging every value of a man. Girls have the ultimate bullshit detectors. And these are just one slice of the spectrum of observable empirical values. So what of the vast, vast amount of subtle energies that are also in constant exchange? I believe that every aspect of our being is always on communication with the whole, and certainly in communication with those in which we encounter. So every neurosis, every dysfunction and every deep seated secret is already out in the open. People know your energetic and psychological make up even if they think they don't. We can lie to ourselves but we can never lie to others. At best when someone lies to us, we're not fooled so much as we are willing to lie to ourselves. Some people are adept at reading into their feeling, and therefore intuitively knowing what to do, or how to act in relation to someone, or at any given moment, for the greatest outcome. The rest of us are profoundly talented at the opposite: ignoring our feelings and regarding them as base illusions. Perhaps that is true for much of what we feel in our bodies, but one must be able to discern between fear and other illusions, and between the still voice of intuition that is actually the concentrated deliverance of deep, deep intelligence.