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  1. I thought sourcing was illegal.
  2. So does anyone have any recommended books on self-discipline? Does Leos book list have any?
  3. I used to suffer from it when i was younger, like 16-19 years old in a mild degree. Now i no longer have that problem. I am not sure why it stopped, maybe it was because i stopped listen to loud music.
  4. After quite a few trips on shrooms I have started to contemplate what reality and existence is. My conclusion is that consciousness can take any form it likes. My mind is imagining me as an ego. In a sense I am creating reality with my own mind. Although when I am sober it stays rather finite. If I take a high dose of shrooms it all starts to become crazy fluid. Also another insight I got is that reality is just really different perspectives on existence in both the mundane human life, but also at different states of consciousness. After many trips, I feel like I don't know anything. Not knowing is more truthful than anything else. What is really the Absolute truth? Is there such a thing as an absolute truth? The problem is that on a psychedelic trip my mind can come up with a bunch of nonsense or maybe shrooms are bad for spiritual work. Need to try some other psychedelics before I can be sure though. For example one time after a trip I was like now I understand what time is. Then one day I took an even larger dose of shrooms and understood that I was wrong. Time literally does not exist; it is only the present moment that lasts for eternity. My mind is deceiving me with the idea that time is really there. How do I know what is the truth when self deception exists? Can’t your own mind deceive you even in a psychedelic trip, so how does Leo sort the falsehood from the truth. So how do i know my mind is not deceiving me on a psychedelic trip or with an insight. Can you trust psychedelics to give you the truth?
  5. True, have experience this many times. A very beautiful experience. The Now becomes so divine it makes me cry.
  6. People here seem to forget there exists something called plastic surgery. You can just get a surgeon either with money or free healthcare to change your physical looks. Personaly thats what i did. I was born with a deformed face, so the surgeon fixed me. Not sure if it has helped me to attract more girls tho. It definitely boosted my confident when i go out on nightclubs, no longer so insecure about my looks anymore.
  7. I have in possession 3 tabs of LSD 110 uq each. I am 21 years old and i have lost count over how many shrooms trips i have done, but a good amount times. I have done 3+ grams of shrooms 4 times now. So I have gotten a bit of experience in using shrooms at higher doses. I have heard LSD is stronger than shrooms so I should be more careful right. My questions about LSD: Should I use a trip sitter? How are shrooms and LSD different from each other? I don't want any surprises. Can I walk outside in nature? I love looking at trees and clouds melting. I really enjoyed the visual effects of shrooms. Do i just put the tabs in my mouth and it will work? I guess i can also just ask my source.
  8. What if i am not sure what i want? Just sleep around untill i figure it out?
  9. I usually don't like taking drugs in the morning. I do a lot of studying, thinking and exercise in the morning so LSD will prevent me from doing any work. I guess taking 1 day vacation to trip wont do much harm, but still...
  10. I am 21 years old and a very ambitious guy with a lot of passion for life. The only problem is there are just so many things in life I want to do and with limited time. There are so many things I want to master or at least get very good at. Here is a list: Physics Chemistry Math Biology Life-purpose (painting/art) Politics and geopolitics Pick-up (10000 approaches) my goal Working out for health and decent body-physique 100% clean diet. Get rich Speak fluently in German, Spanish and French Learn martial art Reach deepest awakenings one can get to (spirituality) Reach stage stage turquoise spiral dynamics Explore different states on consciousness on over 61 different psychedelics I am having a hard time figuring out where to put my time and energy into. It might be a bad idea to focus on all of them at once each day. Currently I am working on learning math, chemistry, working out, life-purpose and pick-up. Any pro advice? How many things should I focus on during each day, how many hours for each thing? What should I prioritize to get the best life possible? Can I master more than 1 thing? How do I learn it all during my lifetime? Learning to speak fluently in German, Spanish and french might take some time.
  11. So i have done 10 trips on shrooms so far, i have started to sorta understand how shrooms work. I have been analyzing all of my shrooms trips to see the commonalities and differences. How shrooms morph consciousness and common patterns that occur depending on the dose. Note: This is my own personal experience, these might not be the same case for you, since psychedelics affect everyone differently. For me there occur 2 phases in my shroom trips with common patterns on almost all my trips on dose between 1.5 - 3.5 gram. 1. The come up 30 - 120 minutes: This is the worst phase, with the highest probability of a bad trip to occur. Physical effects: High heart rate stomach pain uncomfortable body load cold as fuck. Like I wonder if I am sick or have the flu. Then mentally I will get low consciousness desires or thoughts. Feeling horny wanting to have sex or jerk off, play video games, watch porn and listen to music. Then I start to get voices inside my head with negative self-talk. Like telling me “you are a failure” or “you will die alone”. Feeling lonely and wanting to talk to anyone, but a bad idea on shrooms. 2. Mid peak and come down 2.5 - 5 hours: If i survive the come up i reach heaven. This is a completely new state of consciousness where I feel ecstasy, love and peace. Physical effects: Uncomfortable body load goes away and I start to feel ecstasy in my body Getting warm in my body Heart rate is less intense Feeling very energetic, feeling like taking a walk. Visual effects usually occur on 2 grams +. Mentally I get insane clarity, being able to think straight. More in control of what thoughts enter my mind. This clarity sometimes feels so heightened that it gives the illusion of me thinking I am sober. This is why shrooms are such an amazing spiritual tool for contemplation. Not only does it spark clarity, but also curiosity in understanding what reality is. I feel complete. Materialistic desires for sex, money and entertainment fade away. The come down is generally much the same, just less intense. One common pattern in these 2 phases is what I call Singularity of consciousness. If I focus on a thought, object or a question for long enough I get sucked into it like a black hole. For example if I get negative thoughts and I keep my focus on these thoughts they will intensify and become more rapid. This singularity of consciousness is what will cause a bad trip. Another example if I focus on the question “what is reality”? I will start after some time to get insights into the question and it will affect my ego, where it will lead to ego death. I start to get scared of the question and I feel like I am dying. The good news is that when I start to understand these mechanisms of shrooms, I can make predictions of what will happen during my trip. This helps in controlling the trip for spiritual growth and avoiding bad trips. Although I would not be able to predict what would happen if I took a dose higher than 3.5 grams, that is unknown territory for me. What are your thoughts on this? Why is the come up such a hell?
  12. I am 21 years old and since the beginning of august i started my pick-up journey. I go out solo and sober. I have so far approached 70 girls. I have actually done mostly night games, since the city I live in has mostly a higher volume of hot girls at night then during the day. I have gone to bars, loud night clubs and approached in the street. I have only reached hook-point with 4 girls I think at least.The rest did not even want to talk to me or they told me they had a boyfriend. The 4 girls i managed to reach hook-point (i think) in chronological order: 1. I went out with a friend since I did not have the courage to go out alone to bars. Me and my friend were talking to some guys at a bar and 3 girls approached us. She sat down with us and i instantly started to drill my eyes down on her to keep the eye contact strong, while talking to her: “She asked me what i was doing” “Me: i told her i was broke and wasted all my money on going out on bars, in a funny non serious way”. I basically tried to disqualify myself like leo told me to do. She started to laugh and touched my arm and told me at least I was being honest (I was not really). Then she started to ask me if I had any ambitions I was aiming for. Then the conversation went smoothly. I could see she was having trouble keeping eye contact on me. Meanwhile mine was strong. Then her friend came over to me and started to shake my hand, was like “hey bro”. I don't really remember too much, I was very nervous. She told me they were going to another bar, unfortunately I gave her up and did not ask her if I could come with her. This one looked so free, but I was an idiot. 2. My first approach for the night. I instantly approached a group of girls on the street in the middle of night. I opened up with “Hey i know this is kinda random, but you looked so attractive, i wanted to come over and talk to you. She was like awwww, then she started to smile and hug me 3 times in a row, basically squeezing me. This one caught me off card. I did not think a girl would be so happy and touchy within a few seconds after approaching her. She just grabbed my hands and spun around looking me into my eyes and asked me where I came from. Never seen a girl so happy after I approached her. I was nervous as fuck, but her hug calmed me down. She legit started to shoot questions, while squeezing both my hands. Her friend was annoyed at her since she was messing around with me and not moving. Although I was yet again an idiot for not asking her if I could come with her, I instead went for the phone number. Her phone number was not in service, so either she gave me a fake one or she mistyped. Maybe it was the alcohol. She looked like a girl who had drinked a bit. 3. This time I did not make the same mistake for a 3rd time. I approached a large group of girls, too many to count. I went for the hottest girl like (8/10). I opened up with “you look like a sexy lady so i wanted to come over and talk to you”. She was just laughing, then I made an assumption about her. “You are from California right?” This happened in Norway so it did not make any sense, but I decided to be dumb on purpose. Here I also immediately physically escalated by touching her shoulders. I had strong eye contact also, I could see she was smiling, although I was doing all the talking. She told me they were going somewhere. Then her friend went over to me, told me to get lost. I Ignored her and started to go over to the girl I was initiating. I assumed I had her hooked, and that I could come with her. As I was walking with her she stopped me. She: “Sorry dude, but you can’t come with us, since this was meant to be a girl-night only. I went for the phone number, although her friends were just walking away so she just started to type it fast. So this one was also fake or she mistyped. As she was running back to her friends, she told me to call her. 4. I opened up with the same line like with 2. She was like: “Thank you. You are so kind” It is so nice of you to come over and approach me. Me: Yeah, i hear many people telling me i am kind” She: But seriously tho, you look like a kind gentleman (She meant physically). She was with her friend who was just crying. I could see tears running down her face. While laying her head on her friend. I asked the girl if her friend was okay. Then she told me she was going through a difficult situation in her life. I had no idea what to say to her friend to make her feel better. I knew this one was going to be difficult to get them to follow me to a bar or new place. I tried anyway, got a no. She just said it was a bad time. I gave her my phone. She typed down her full name on my phone+number. She told me to text her back. The day after I texted her back. A girl responded, but told me it was not her. She had apparently never met me. She asked if I might have got the wrong number. Wtf guys, do these girls give me fake numbers on purpose or is it the alcohol? Why would they give me fake numbers when they start to touch me and tell me to text them back. They just look so happy when I approach them. Any advice on these problems i usually encounter: - The girls are telling me they are going home. - Dealing with all of her million friends. Either her friends are drunk, crying or look angry/annoyed. - How to talk to girls at loud night-clubs where speaking is legit impossible. - Not getting fake numbers. This part is so fucking frustrating. Should i try to go for her snapchat instead, less likely for mistyping? Calling her on the spot to check if it's correct? - Where do I physically escalate after shoulders or arms? - Telling if the girl has taken too much drugs or alcohol. I usually encounter a lot of girls that just look a bit gone and just mumbling. Sometimes I can't understand wtf they are saying. - Also why do girls get so touchy. Is it my physical appearance or my game? I get a lot of positive responses from many girls even when they have a boyfriend. I had once a random girl start to touch my chest and drag her hand down on my legs, on my dick area. This was one the dance floor.
  13. @Princess Arabia You're probably right about not taking drunk girls too seriously. I might have taken these girls as a win too much maybe. At least they boost my self-esteem to just keep going, even if they were drunk. During the day, they usually won't give me much time to talk with them. They just tell me they are busy.
  14. @NoSelfSelf Never said i was perfect, they still gave me fake numbers. Also i do plentey of mistakes, i don't really know what the hell i am doing. I just experiement, try stuff out. Try different lines, see what i can get away with or what would be wired to say. Like saying "I am to shy to come home with you". I tried it on different girls to see what their reaction would be. Some laughed other gave me the "your a creep look". I am totally noob when it comes to talking to girls, never even kissed girl either. I am just trying to get some insights on what i am doing wrong and what i could improve on. Sorry if i sounded like i was boasting. I just report what i experience.
  15. Now i am really confused????? Did i say something wrong??
  16. 1. Touching feels nice, they don't mind. Also girls touch me too. They grab my hands, hugging me or touching my legs. Some girls have more balls then most guys. One time i approached some girls and they were like "Come with us". Just some random girls at the street going to a night club. 2. I dont beg for girls' numbers, they happily give it to me. Also they tell me to call them or text them. If I ask them for their numbers and they say no, it is mostly because they have a boyfriend or are not interested.
  17. Norway condemns attacks on Isreal, but is the only western country that refuse to call Hamas for an terrorist organization. It has created a lot of split in nowegian poltics.
  18. My past experience: I did 0.5 grams shroom for the first time when i was 18. After that i have increased the dose from 0.7g, 1g, and 2g. Now 21 year old i did 3.5 gram shroom. I decided to do 30 min of do-nothing meditation before my trip. I ate 3.5 shroom. The effects kicked in 30 min and I started to get bright colors everywhere and mild visuals. I was sitting outside in a comfortable chair watching the clouds and the sundown. I was very happy and at peace just watching the clouds breathing and morphing. Unfortunately this did not last long before my mind started to go down the path of insanity. So after like 20 min i started to get thoughts just going on loop over and over again. At first I tried to just let go of my thoughts, but it only got worse. So I started to get frustrated that I was not in control. It started to feel like the do-nothing meditation on crack. My thoughts were like going at 1.5x speed. I have a small supposition that the 30 min of do-nothing meditation was the cause of the bad trip. It would only get worse as consciousness started to get more fluid. My thoughts started to feel more real. Where the duality between reality and thoughts started to break down. My thoughts went from normal stuff to more extreme things like violence. Thoughts about killing people, torture, hell and just terrible bloody thoughts. Then it just went down in a spiral where they would go on loop for what seems like forever. Whenever i would try to distract myself with music or try to control my thoughts it would just drag me further down the spiral of evil and devilry. My old personality was forgotten and replaced with the devil. I started to say stuff to myself: “This is not me, I would never harm anyone” I started to fear myself. I did no longer trust myself so i decided to stay put and not move. I was afraid I would do something stupid in public. I could hardly recognize myself anymore of what I have become. It was like i became a different person. Now here is the scary part. In this altered state of consciousness I really started to believe I was the devil and i enjoyed being the devil. That I am meant to inflict pain and suffering on others. It felt like being the devil was the only thing I knew. There was no empathy, no love, only darkness and insanity. I just staretd to laugh so hard, since i knew i had lost my mind. Now on my peak of the trip things started to just get weirder. My thoughts started to morph. They took on nonsensical forms and different dimensions. It's difficult to explain. I was so overwhelmed to the point of insanity. I started to feel like i was losing my fuking mind. I would even start to have auditory hallucinations. I know someone is just going to say “its just thoughts don't worry about it, just let it go or whatever”, but in this state you really can't use logic. All logic and social conditioning goes out the window on shrooms. Logic is just imaginary. I could see how consciousness stretches into many different forms and how fluid It can get on shrooms. I am still not truly able to even understand my own trip. I am having difficulty even remembering my trip sober. Since nothing really made any sense, it was all just a bunch of random forms and thoughts. Anyone else got this? I always thought psychedelics was suppose to show love, infinity, ego death, beauty and god. I guess i was wrong. It was like this trip showed me the darkest part of myself. I only took 3.5 grams so I knew the trip would end so I had no choice, but to ride out my insanity until my trip started to end. This was definitely a bad trip, but deep down i kinda also enjoyed this suffering. I was fine the next morning, nothing too traumatizing. I have experience much worse trip on weed then on shrooms.
  19. I agree, but lower dose like 1 gram and 2 gram was weak. Althought maybe my scorces had just very potent shrooms this time. My sources are bit everywhere so i can not tell if its good or bad stains. I have had bad stains before, so weak it was very disappointing. I have done 1 gram and i could just barely feel the effects, with no tolerance.
  20. So the next day after my "Insanity trip" I had a strong gut feeling day that I need to do 3.5 gram shrooms again. I had some anxiety, but decided that I had no choice. Within 30 min after consumption i started to feel the effects. Not much visuals, but for some reason colors from flowers and sky started to seem even brighter. It was like someone turned up the brightness of colors inside my brain. Reality started to seem like a rainbow. I was in awe of how beautiful reality truly is. Here is my last trip if you want to read it: 30 min after onset my mind went silent. I just sat in the chair observing followers, buildings and the sky. Then my awareness and intelligence increased. I suddenly got this power to think more clearly than ever. It was like my eyes finally opened up for the first time. I started to develop curiosity for reality. I just sat there contemplating different questions about my personal life mainly and existence. So I asked these questions: “What is my purpose in life?”. “Why am I doing anything at all?” Then I realized that the reason everyone in life is doing anything at all is because of LOVE. I actually don't know why, but i just sat there and all of the sudden I was in love with myself and existence. My love for existence and everyone just expanded to a higher level. Looking at existence and listening to the silence, I realized that I am all alone. Everyone is imaginary. I even hesitated to post this report since, wtf is the point if i am all alone. I was just sitting with tears running down my face. Could never fathom that love is so bloody beautiful. I realized unconditional love for existence and everyone. Devils and the so-called evil people are doing it for love. Hell, torture, rape, murder and even suffering is love and beauty. (Disclaimer i don't justify rape or murder, i only report what i exprience in this trip) I started to fall in love with myself. I realized that i am complete and perfect as iam. Love is the only thing you need. You don't need friends, women, sex, money and fame. Love is all you need. The reason for people being unhappy is because of a lack of love. I started to legit feel invincible. I did not even care if I died. Nothing could hurt me since I was so deeply in love with existence and myself. Love is there for all eternity, so there would be nothing for me to lose or gain at that point. Everyone is just trying to express love in their own way. So I could see that my purpose in life is to express my love for reality in my own meaningful way. For example, a life- purpose can be a way to express love. Either by doing something selfless or selfish. It's all the same. I had empathy and love for everyone. Even the most evil acts I would love. Evil does not exist, it's just love. Anyway, love did not just affect me psychological, but also physical. I started to feel a comfortable cozy warm feeling all over my body. I started to feel warm in my body even though the temperature decreased during nighttime. I was uncomfortable in my body, but the pain turned into physical euphoria. I am not sure how to explain how pain becomes euphoria. It is like suffering and euphoria becomes the same, I could no longer tell the difference between the two. I started to get mental clarity, I started to feel sober or normal. I was able to think straight with much more awareness. So i was like to myself: fu*k it i am going to take my dog for a walk up the mountains in middle of the night on a Monday while on the peak. I started to cry while walking, realizing how goddamn beautiful love is. I was like just keep repeating to myself, “holy fuck, is this real”. So I would walk for 2 hours with my dog, just taking in the sights and falling in love with everything. Anyway this trip was so shockingly beautiful that I still have a hard time believing love and beauty could be so WOW. There are no words for it. Wow is the best word to describe my trip Lesson I have learned: I need to be able to first develop my love for myself before I can expand my love for others. Love is the one true thing I truly need in life to be happy. How much hate is robbing me of my own happiness. I have now a desire to develop my love for myself and the world. Also I started to realize that I need to put up boundaries and respect myself enough to not let unconscious people drag me down in life. Dont be a people pleaser. A people pleaser lacks respect and love themselves. Also this trip would have never happened had it not been for this gut feeling telling me i need to do shrooms today, after a bad trip. Don't get me wrong, i am just stracthing the surface of understanding love. I am not going to claim i am awakened. I am far from done.
  21. Is the goal not to slowly increase the dose to reach higher altered states of consciousness. I am not sure how much a dose affects how awakened a person is. I always assumed I needed to increase my dose to like 5 grams or higher before I could reach awakening. Would it not be more reasonable to lower my dose to 2.5 then?
  22. Maybe we can give some small hints, there and there. It wont harm anyone to just give someone tips. Too be real sourcing is everywhere on the internet and pretty obvious. Like if i say you can buy drugs from street dealer or even the dark web that is so obvious that even a 12 year old kid knows that.