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How many sessions did you take?

Why do do you want to take Iboga? It sounds masochist tbh.

So your therapist didn't really help you heal this trauma, right?

@FredFred Thanks a lot for the kind words ? It was hard to take that leap of faith, because I thought it wouldn't work. There are a lot of "silent" success cases in psychiatric treatment. That is, the person feels better but doesn't talk about it. So the testimonials we tend to hear are really biased, as the overwhelming majority of people who share their experience are the ones who had horrible ones. I feel this call to work with helping people who are going through similar things that I had to deal with, alone. And now I feel strong and confident enough to go back to college and pursue my psychology degree =D @The0Self Well, the purpose of the medication is to feel the normal spectrum of emotions. Not feeling sadness is not a sign that the medication is working properly. In my case, I definitely still feel sadness, but now it is proportional to what I am going through in life. I'd even say that now I am able to experience sadness. When I get depressed, I simply cannot feel anything. It's awful. Did you stop taking it by yourself?

Pathetic.

I think psychedelics is a high-risk gamble. I went to ayahuasca ceremonies for about a year. In the beginning, it helped. It was as if life had color once again. But as time goes by, my depression was getting worse after each trip. Not only that, during the trips the following became common: anxiety attacks (which is HELL while you're tripping), paranoia, strong agitation, deep sense of meaninglessness, and sometimes grandiose delusions. I also don't adapt well to SRRIs. Fortunately, my doctor has prescribed me an antidepressant that is from a different class. And it worked really well. Btw - You should've told your doctor that you wanted to stop taking it. You were very irresponsible.

Stop bullshitting yourself. It took me a while to find a good psychotherapist. Here are three tips for finding a good one: Do not be cheap, do some research/ask for recommendations, and avoid alternative/hollistic therapists. When you finally find one that's really good, it pays off. I feel like when I go to my therapist it's as if I'm calibrating myself through her. I also go to a psychiatrist. I take a special kind of antidepressant that basically don't theoretically work on anxiety. But in my case, I've found that my pathological anxiety was caused by my depression. As soon as the depression got stabilized, the anxiety levels also dropped. Now, I am working on taming my "normal" anxiety (which is pretty high). The doctor also prescribed me Xanax in case I really need it. Fortunately, it's been more than 6 months that he did it, and I never had to use that med. One thing that helps me besides therapy is Tai Chi. @tsuki Great points!! ??? And I'm glad that you're wife is doing better.

I read 21 lessons. It's pretty interesting. It doesn't go into great depth on each topic. It's more the basics of various topics. I'd probably give it 4 stars (out of five).

Here's a better practice: How can you get in touch with LIFE?

Omg, all of what you went through must have been so traumatic. Mental illness has a big genetic component. As with any other illness: the sooner you treat it, the better. Have you ever talked with a psychologist? The college that I studied at had a Student Psychological Services, which can be helpful.

I think it depends on the kind of pain. I tend to be somewhat hypochondriac, so oftentimes I feel some bodily discomforts that are simply BS. In reality, they're just some tiny little things that -- because I am aversed to pain -- I hyperfocus on it and therefore it grows. If you're talking about real physical pain, then I believe it's possible to increase your tolerance to it. But fully conquering is utopic, imo. Unless you're Peter Ralston, lol. In Kung Fu, they train to endure discomfort by, for example, breaking a brick with your own head.

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It's like a open wound. If you keep on touching it, it will not heal. I agree with @tsuki in the sense that you have to stop contacting him. I recommend you remove anything that makes you remember of him. Don't contact him (obviously). But also, for example, don't see his stories on Instagram, etc. Letting go isn't easy or quick. And compassion/forgiveness aren't always fluffy — both can be raw. Watch Leo's video on feminine vs masculine compassion.

Do you have emotional childhood trauma?

Nice! I think you should totally give it a try, and see if you resonate with the doctor. Good luck!

It is normal to fluctuate, but if it is extreme like you're describing (one day you're at cloud nine; then, the next one you're feeling like crap for no apparent reason); then it is not a sign of growth. Stability is very important. I used to "spiritualize" my clinical depression by saying that it was an ego backlash. I was seeing my "ego" as some sort of a demon — as if there was a part in me that wanted to fuck up my life. Now that I am treating my illness, I see that what I was experiencing was not normal.

The biggest problem is inside your own head. You've got to find a way to accept your height as it is. Yes, I know... easier said than done... This video has a very powerful visualization that can really help you:

You should go to a psychiatrist. No meditation, no breathing techniques, no psychedelics.

Have you ever gone to a doctor to help you with that?

What were you trying to say?

Be careful! I don't think what you're going through is healthy.

what's your concern with having this surgery?

You take one hour to make your breakfast? Omg... Maybe you're doing too many practices. Less is more!