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Guess who is stopping by my place do say goodbye?! Fucking J - that's who! She's gonna be here any minute now. A fucking perfect closure to this chapter!

A poem I wrote just for you, my dearest brother, quite some time ago - completely unaware of how this was going to unwind. I remember now. DIE TO SELF I gave my light to you I gave my breath to you My time to erode Your time to be born My blood in yours My word your voice Unsee me in this light Shine through me End the night In Love we are One Forever with you Now that I'm gone Good night, brother.

I am going to miss this city. I'm going to miss these people. It's all fucking beautiful beyond words. And ofcourse; I'm going to miss this apartment. My first real home. I've been moving since I can remember. From city to city. From country to country. From continent to continent. Across the sea. Through the mountains. But this... This was the first place I could really, truly call my own. My home. My shelter. My hiding space. My secret get-away. My studio. My laboratory. My sex-room. Yes. The ladies loved it, just as much. As did my buddies. I put quite some effort into adjusting and customizing this place... it was a perfect reflection of who I am. The colours. The scents. The lightning. The vibe. Everything. A spotless mirror. I guess this is goodbye, huh? My heart is breaking, but it's one of the most beautiful experiences along this journey of mine. Without a doubt. So long, Maribor and it's beautiful people. So long, my sexy, little apartment. So long, brother. Much love and respect.

But above and beyond it all; Tonight, I am reunited with my beautiful, one and only, truest love. My fanned-freat, 8-string Goddess. A week seemed like an eternity. Thank you for being here for me, in better and worse, since the dawn of time. My heart beats for music, forever.

@Barbara ?❤

@Barbara Don't really need it, but would appreciate it At Serbian's Beauty place, with little dude. Epic vibes.

@Barbara It's not random. It's magic. And it's meant just for you.

Heading home with little dude. He's sleeping over at my place. But, not before we stop by Serbian Beauty's place and say goodbye. It's gonna be tight. I must get up 8 in the morning and pack. Fucking hell man!

@Barbara Thanks for that boner. I'm in a taxi, heading home with a friend. I'd absolutely love to have you by my side now. Sorry if this is not the appropriate place to post this. Let me know if you want me to delete it!

Stop looking into the mirror. You know who you are.

I see it. And it's deep. Nice job.

BEST NIGHT EVER IN MARIBOR. THANK YOU. JUST. FAKING THANK YOU. FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY FUCKING HEART.

In our hot bar with little dude and a few more young, hot people. It's quite a busy night. I'm back to SLO to pick up my stuff. Moving to Italy fully tomorrow. Man... What a fucking ride. What a life. There's tons of emotions in the air. We really bonded in this period while I was here. But... this is not our last goodbye, I'm pretty sure. Our paths will most certainly cross somewhere down the line. Serbian Beauty is with another dude at her place atm. Lol. So usual. So her. She might or might not join us later. Not gonna lie; I'd really like to see her before I leave. But I ain't counting on smashing. I've got a long day ahead of me tomorrow. Not planning on going all the way tonight. Fuckin' good times man!

THE PARTING In the weak light I saw you becoming the lie Taking it all for granted like freedom It's something you'll never have Forget what's said and hear me sing to you How I've set out to kill my soul The nightward ways, the labour it brings The verdict that I came for, migration's song Patterns of death overwhelms, fixation rise I came along the way and came to a conclusion The indifferent sky is made of lead and so beautiful Submission, come you will In the weak light I saw you becoming the lie Taking it all for granted like freedom It's something you'll never have The parting, end origin Fade into earth Times ablaze under the flags we chose Denied my step and froze my heart Yet I stare with nothing left to do The verdict that I came for, migration's song Patterns of death overwhelms, fixation rise I came along the way and came to a conclusion The indifferent sky is made of lead and so beautiful Submission, come you will Take your well deserved step into darkness I'll become your eyes, you have no other We have to walk along the wire Trust the one that never trusted you In the weak light I saw you becoming the lie Taking it all for granted like freedom It's something you'll never have The parting, end origin Fade into earth

I'm heading back to SLO today, to pick up all of my belongings. Staying there for a day or two. Might or might not say goodbye to some people there. It's happening. I'm moving to Italy. Whoa.

I think it's safe to say that the technique is working. Dare I say... flawlessly? It kinda swept me off my feet. Building a wild momentum these days. I can sense something big is coming my way. Fast. I know myself. Deep down I know I would not give it all to myself just like that, over night. I must rise up to this challenge, and collect all the golden nuggets along the way. There is deep wisdom to be cultivated. More love and compassion. Gratitude. Meaning. Skill. Etc. Only that way can I come out the the other side as the one who is capable of receiving and handling all the goodness I wished for. I am patient, 99% of the time. I've cultivated strong faith over the years. I believe. I know. I AM.

So easy to forget the voice that never spoke

I remember this.

Walking through the city center, in the slowest motion ever, listening to this. Dead can dance, indeed. Absolutely love this band. 'Agape' or 'Love' is one my favorites by them. So godly. I'm looking from above. One eye only, not two. Wide open. Radiating some of the highest frequencies in existence. I am formless.

@RickyFitts

I'm sitting on a bench, looking at a pile of dog shit, and contemplating how that right there, is actually crystallized Light. Fun.

Also; I already got a few bonkers hot tinder matches in this city. Oh man... The fun I will have here...

A girl just asked me out on a date. Wut. She's not a model, but she's not bad-looking, either. Big boobs and even bigger ass. Very juicy. Pretty cute. I still have a lot on my mind, and I don't really feel like dating... but I could definitely bust a nut. It's been a few days... I might go with it.

Fuck to the yes, brother. I've been in love with it for 20+ years now. Listened to and played all kinds of sub genres in that period. I don't entirely agree when people link metal to lower stages on SD. Newer waves of metal, especially, are quite meditative and transcendental. Highly intelligent rhythmic patterns, beautiful melodies, deep as fuck lyrics. Stuff you simply do not find in other genres. Trust me; I listen to A LOT of styles. Many metal artist explore themes such as awakening, infinity, love, etc. It's not always about being pissed off or depressed. But even that is so, so, so very important to be in touch with and express. It literally saved my life. It showed me the path. Guided me all the way up to the Heavens. Slowly, but surely. Some of this newer metal music requires some serious listening skills. Not anyone can consume it. It flies over most people's heads. Just like some of Leo's content does - for example. Their ears have simply not developed to that level yet. So they cannot experience the depth and beauty of it all. It takes years and years of listening to be able to fully appreciate and enjoy that kind of music. And the benefits are endless. Here's some high consciousness metal for ya: And here's some epic 'lower consciousness' stuff: And many, many more. Metal up your ass!

COSMOS I long to live with some celestial beings To adore in silence blissful friends Gliding into constellations of their smiles Melting into shining eyes Chant away The cosmos grace Born inside the lotus gold To be at the feet of celestial artists Close to the brush of their cosmic strokes Churning whispers into melodies of psalm In timeless rhythms, blessed tones Chant away The cosmos grace Born inside the lotus gold I can live this revelation With magnified devotion Magnified devotion Magnified devotion... Divine mother Free my mind from all obstacles of delusion And lead me safely to thy shores of fulfillment Awaken within me increasing strength, positive Thinking, courage, faith And above all fill my heart With thine unconditional love With thine unconditional joy I want to be closer to higher beings Near to touch those divine companions Gathering joyfully from the nether world As I go through the portal's fold