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@Jakuchu It is your assumption that I am belittling it. I'm just saying it is not the end all be all. Imagine you realized you had a sixth finger on your hand. That does not mean you also know how to use it and live with it. That is why I keep saying it's one thing to have a realization, that inevitably fades away, and another to actually be what you realized.

I have. And God remains untouched by that realization, and all else. Clearly; what I shared was written from a limited poin of view. Not from God's point of view. I'm not surprised. I'm sharing because it is relevant to share. And also because most people have no idea what they're getting themselves into. They could end up hurting themselves bad.

@Jakuchu Again; realization is not being.

A very cute shorty just stopped me on the street, looked into my eyes and said: 'Your shirt is black like my feelings before I saw you.' Haha! What a cool pickup line. Made my day. I laughed and hugged her briefly, and then I disappeared. I was in a rush. Hate to say it; but it looks like I simply got no time or energy for girls right now. I'm on a mission.

@Vincent S Oh shit. Sorry. I meant to tag @Eternity haha! Thanks anyways!

@Vincent S Thanks a lot for that. I agree with most of what you said. Except your assumptions about where I'm at currently. If indeed it was pointed at me. I'm not sure. I appreciate your worry, but trust me, I know very damn well when to pause and take a step back. In fact; that's what my original post is all about. I also barely used any hardcore psychedelics. I got where I am naturally - one could say. Simply by living and breathing for Truth and Love. My path was that of Passion.

@Yeah Yeah I'd go full God-mode right now, just to prove to myself that I can... but then I'd have to kill you... and everyone else. Jk. Goodnight.

@Yeah Yeah You all the elements. Every single fucking thing is happening out of your sheer will. Even the part where you are thinking and experiencing as if it's not. Am I in full-blown God-mode right now? Of course fucking not. If I was - being on this forum would be the last thing on my mind. I'm about to jerk off and sleep. That's where I'm at right now.

@Yeah Yeah Anytime. I'm angry and scared too, brother. Hang in there.

What I wrote down is touching various souls that are at different stages of awakening. Way different. That's nice, and I'm very glad, but just be open to the fact, that there is so much more to what I'm saying than you're hearing. And that maybe, where you are at right now, you cannot possibly hear it. Much love.

I'm guessing: You.

Very good question! Because it has forgotten its God. One can find peace and freedom from thought, sensation, experience, perception, the self, even. One can be completely untouched by all those. But that does not mean one is actually being God.

That's nice guys. But what I'm pointing to is way beyond any realization or enlightenment. Not to sound like a jerk, but all that stuff is kindergarten level in comparison to actually being God. And btw, 'God' is not a good enough word. Such an understatement.

THE RAVEN THAT REFUSED TO SING

You all fucking rock people! Please, keep it up! And again, please no links to YouTube or Soundcloud. Only real-time, raw takes, using the link I provided in my original post. Use your phone's audio recorder for better quality, and then upload it to that link. Much love and respect!

@Willie That's so awesome! I love all that brassy stuff. Definitely using some of it in my new music. Will hit you up if you're interested in collabs!

Cancelled the date and unmatched. I really don't feel like dating now. My energy is pretty low. Quite tired. I'd much rather spend the little free time I have in my own company.

Just finished a 12hr shift. Worked my ass off. We had a group of 50 today, erasmus students. Most of the girls were incredibly hot. Spanish, Italian and even French. Holy shit. I was sensing eyes on me constantly. All of the girls were giggling and whatnot when I approached them. But, I simply had no time to do anything. And quite frankly, I had no strength for it, either. It was so painful watching them leave lol. I got no number. But I got nice tips. Besides that; I soft close another date on tinder, with a girl so cute I'm melting. I have a very weak spot for girls with French-cut lol. Confirming the date tomorrow, and then we should be meeting some time at night. She's very much my type. Petite. Very feminine. I'm as excited as I'm tired.

Deep meditation, 78bpm, delta waves. Falling asleep to some nice ASMR.

@RickyFitts Confidence is the natural state of consciousness It's a quality of God. Really appreciate all your support. May you be blessed.

The Great Sacrifice Thank you for giving your life for me. Thank you for never giving up. Thank you for your faith, your courage, your stubbornness, your foolishness. Your commitment. Your blood, sweat and tears. Your pure, unconditional trust and love. Your flesh and your soul. I am because of you.

I know what I want. In deep detail. And that is what I'm getting. Nothing bellow. No question about it. Thing is; as most of us, I've been spending an enormous amount of time on the other side of the spectrum. I needed to see clearly what it is that I don't what. I needed to feel the pain of it all. The dissonance. I had to go through all that struggle. Life had to devastate me, hard, on several occasions. Only that way could I know for sure. Only that way could I reclaim my power and step into the truth of who I am. Step into The Light. This chapter is bound to end, very soon.

@Knowledge Hoarder True dat. Pretty much the same as someone being born into a wealthy family, and money comes naturally to them, as opposed to someone like me, who was born into poverty, and had to learn how to accumulate wealth. The struggle is real haha! And there are many other examples of that.

@Knowledge Hoarder Thanks for asking. Hmm. I would not call it 'desperation', really. Addiction? Perhaps. But not even that, truly. I see sex as a basic need. Almost like food or water. It's completely natural to me. I'm just a very sexual being. Some people go completely bonkers without a healthy sexual life. Their mental, emotional and even physical health deteriorates. True desperation for sex is what someone feels when they're 30+ years old, and still a virgin - I imagine. And a true sex addict is literally like a heroin addict. They will do and sell everything just to get that hit. I'd say I'm far from that. Thing is; I've just always been a ladies man - if you will. I had little to no guy friends. But I always had a girlfriend or a fuck buddy. Since I can remember. As I said; this is the first time in my life that I consciously decided to be single for a while. I've been jumping from relationship to relationships since I was a kid, basically. I'm not denying that this can be an issue and it could escalate into something nasty. But I don't feel like that's so in my case. I've been doing all that stuff in a very healthy way. I barely had any one-night-stands with strangers. I did not sell myself, either. Lol. I just always had someone by my side to get those needs met.

Corruption, corruption, corruption. Everywhere I look. Turns out; my boss is a massive pig. No big surprise there. Scratch six months. I'm switching jobs very soon. And hopefully exiting wage slavery once and for all. I'd rather starve than choke what's killing me down